#reacting
I never thought you'd drive a wedge
into my ribs
and touch the heart within
I never thought I'd lie awake
and
dream up something real
I never thought I'd keep away
from harm
for too long
I never thought I'd witness walls
fall apart and
crumble in my feet
I never thought I'd believe
in myself again
take up these fragile wings
I don't believe in an enemy
replacing something dear
so I stray away from every
smile that ends up near
to keep what's left of sanity
as thoughts weep silently
Oct 27, 2017
Oct 27, 2017 at 1:07 PM UTC
With mixed feelings and emotions
Once I couldn't understand them
Much less know what they meant
It felt like something was wrong within me
But today I've come to know
A little more about what they mean
They are my reactions of external influences
A natural reaction
A human reaction
Something not to be afraid off
But to help me realize that I'm normal
And only human
Jul 13, 2015
Jul 13, 2015 at 10:47 AM UTC
To family, friends and strangers-
I’ve bottle everything up inside.
Suppressed my true thoughts and feelings.
Quashed any emotion.
I couldn’t speak the words,
but I sure as hell can write them.
Maybe this will heal me.
Instead of hiding, let me rip myself open for all to see.
Jan 17, 2019
Jan 17, 2019 at 11:43 PM UTC
that night, my stomach
cramped up the nerve to ask
if i had gotten the sick out of me,
i tossed my response
in the form of mixed media
liquids, solids,
and amongst other things,
last night's dinner
my impulses don't know
how to punctuate
there are no commas
no full stops
I'm sorry sweetheart
perhaps i should have
warned you before
but understand i don't just
want to dive in with you
i want to drown in
all the warmth
so drown with me
that night, my stomach
cramped up the nerve to ask
if i had gotten the sick out of me,
i tossed my response
in the form of mixed media
liquids, solids,
last night's dinner,
and amongst other things
his name or maybe yours
you see, i remember
all the things gone bad,
conversations him and i
never got to have
but lately i've been keeping
my face towards the sunlight
my entire being is reacting,
making metaphors out of
12 a.m vomiting incidents,
my entire being is reacting
even when my body is still,
i am still trying my very best
to get the sick out of me.
- Crimsyy
a/n: thankyou for reading! for anyone who's wondering, the 12 a.m vomiting incident that inspired this entire poem did actually happen and it was terrible. Hopefully the poem is better (:
Oct 14, 2017
Oct 14, 2017 at 10:06 AM UTC