AngelsShare_DevilsCut - Hello Poetry

I used to think words “their presence will be with you” was a way to soothe people experiencing loss. I now have the misfortune to realize it’s true. Maybe in time it will be comforting, but right now in the middle of heartbreak it’s devastating. I showered today and when I opened the door I was waiting for that vocal, former fat cat, to push his way inside to lick the water from the shower. Three bowls of perfectly good water and the shower was the preferred selection. When I opened that door I felt him there, where he always waited, but quickly realized what I was feeling was not him, but the expectation he would be there. Later on in the kitchen doing the dishes. I check behind me to make sure he’s not at my feet, waiting to end my life by tripping me. Or guilting me because I stepped on his tail. Yet I still tripped even though he wasn’t there. Items on the floor the same size as him I immediately think is him, always being in the same room as me, always watching over me. I see him out of the corner of my eye everywhere, still not accepting he won’t be there again. It’s not just one heartbreak, but many. That must be the presence they speak of, but it hurts more than expected.

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Nov 14, 2025

Nov 14, 2025 at 8:05 AM UTC

AngelsShare_DevilsCut

Their Presence

I used to think words “their presence will be with you” was a way to soothe people experiencing loss. I now have the misfortune to realize it’s true. Maybe in time it will be comforting, but right now in the middle of heartbreak it’s devastating. I showered today and when I opened the door I was waiting for that vocal, former fat cat, to push his way inside to lick the water from the shower. Three bowls of perfectly good water and the shower was the preferred selection. When I opened that door I felt him there, where he always waited, but quickly realized what I was feeling was not him, but the expectation he would be there. Later on in the kitchen doing the dishes. I check behind me to make sure he’s not at my feet, waiting to end my life by tripping me. Or guilting me because I stepped on his tail. Yet I still tripped even though he wasn’t there. Items on the floor the same size as him I immediately think is him, always being in the same room as me, always watching over me. I see him out of the corner of my eye everywhere, still not accepting he won’t be there again. It’s not just one heartbreak, but many. That must be the presence they speak of, but it hurts more than expected.

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I put all my faith in the good I thought I saw in you I ignored those who truly loved me Those who knew you would destroy the best in me I foolishly gave you my trust I defended you until I was blue in the face I killed myself wasting my last breath on you

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May 13, 2019

May 13, 2019 at 10:01 AM UTC

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Asphyxiation

I put all my faith in the good I thought I saw in you I ignored those who truly loved me Those who knew you would destroy the best in me I foolishly gave you my trust I defended you until I was blue in the face I killed myself wasting my last breath on you

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All your fears come true, you were just there in lieu. A body to warm his bed, a soundboard to ease his head. You always were a placeholder, again forced to grow colder. Soon there will be nothing there, no words or love to show you care

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Mar 30, 2019

Mar 30, 2019 at 9:27 AM UTC

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Nothing left

All your fears come true, you were just there in lieu. A body to warm his bed, a soundboard to ease his head. You always were a placeholder, again forced to grow colder. Soon there will be nothing there, no words or love to show you care

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Everyday at three fifteen you appear in my thoughts. Routine urges me to reach out to you. But by three sixteen I remember why I won’t, you aren’t worth my time.

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Mar 26, 2019

Mar 26, 2019 at 12:14 PM UTC

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Sands of Time

Everyday at three fifteen you appear in my thoughts. Routine urges me to reach out to you. But by three sixteen I remember why I won’t, you aren’t worth my time.

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One day I’ll stop pausing my life for you. I’ll let it play out the way it was meant to. No longer a main character, you’ll become an extra in my tale.

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Mar 18, 2019

Mar 18, 2019 at 10:55 AM UTC

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And the award goes to...

One day I’ll stop pausing my life for you. I’ll let it play out the way it was meant to. No longer a main character, you’ll become an extra in my tale.

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This song mixed with that scent, the final blow. What was already cracked, is now destroyed.

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Mar 11, 2019

Mar 11, 2019 at 9:29 PM UTC

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Sensory wounds

This song mixed with that scent, the final blow. What was already cracked, is now destroyed.

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If there was one word One word, isolated by itself That I cannot stand above all others It would have to be "Okay" I despise "Okay" "Okay" Is how your millionth day at work went "Okay" Is off-brand raisin bran "Okay" Is how you say life is going When you don't want to admit you spend Every second of it Wanting to die "Okay" Is packed to the brim with Hidden implications Like a treasure chest Filled with bottles With little subliminal hatreds Written on tiny slips of paper Passively aggressively pushed inside To discover later As I pull out a treasure map And try to decipher Where I went wrong "Okay" Is a one word dismissal That feels like an essay a thousand pages long "Okay" Is a poison dripping with disinterest When I dared to share with you Something I thought might make you smile "Okay" Is like trying to talk to a wall While watching the paint on it dry "Okay" Takes two seconds to write Yet I waited days For that dreaded word To grace my notifications "Okay" Should be used sparingly As if each time you send it You **** the receiver just a little bit "Okay" Should not be said so often that I know what you're about to say Like I saw it in a crystal ball "Okay" Is not looking up from your phone When I tell you about my day "Okay" Is not the proper response To "I love you" They say that the opposite of love isn't hatred It's indifference And I can't think of a response More indifferent to pouring out My heart into your hands Than "Okay" At least the last thing you said to me Before we parted ways Showed that you cared At least a little bit "I hate you" Stung less Than the thousands of times Over our countless conversations You responded "Okay" Okay?

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Mar 2, 2019

Mar 2, 2019 at 11:01 AM UTC

Joliver

Okay

If there was one word One word, isolated by itself That I cannot stand above all others It would have to be "Okay" I despise "Okay" "Okay" Is how your millionth day at work went "Okay" Is off-brand raisin bran "Okay" Is how you say life is going When you don't want to admit you spend Every second of it Wanting to die "Okay" Is packed to the brim with Hidden implications Like a treasure chest Filled with bottles With little subliminal hatreds Written on tiny slips of paper Passively aggressively pushed inside To discover later As I pull out a treasure map And try to decipher Where I went wrong "Okay" Is a one word dismissal That feels like an essay a thousand pages long "Okay" Is a poison dripping with disinterest When I dared to share with you Something I thought might make you smile "Okay" Is like trying to talk to a wall While watching the paint on it dry "Okay" Takes two seconds to write Yet I waited days For that dreaded word To grace my notifications "Okay" Should be used sparingly As if each time you send it You **** the receiver just a little bit "Okay" Should not be said so often that I know what you're about to say Like I saw it in a crystal ball "Okay" Is not looking up from your phone When I tell you about my day "Okay" Is not the proper response To "I love you" They say that the opposite of love isn't hatred It's indifference And I can't think of a response More indifferent to pouring out My heart into your hands Than "Okay" At least the last thing you said to me Before we parted ways Showed that you cared At least a little bit "I hate you" Stung less Than the thousands of times Over our countless conversations You responded "Okay" Okay?

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I become frost bitten responding to your words. My limbs grow numb at the same time as my mind. My hands grow cold at the same time as my heart. My fingers turn black at the same time as my soul.

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Mar 2, 2019

Mar 2, 2019 at 9:29 AM UTC

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Cold as ice

I become frost bitten responding to your words. My limbs grow numb at the same time as my mind. My hands grow cold at the same time as my heart. My fingers turn black at the same time as my soul.

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Every song brings an image of you into my thoughts. Good and bad, even some missing memories. A foggy feeling knowing that you were there. Knowing I was safe I let myself go. But now I hear those songs and I yearn for those absent moments.

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Feb 15, 2019

Feb 15, 2019 at 9:49 PM UTC

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Lyrics

Every song brings an image of you into my thoughts. Good and bad, even some missing memories. A foggy feeling knowing that you were there. Knowing I was safe I let myself go. But now I hear those songs and I yearn for those absent moments.

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You dismissed me immediately. You didn’t even bother to look me in the eye. I stood there wondering how you decided so fast. You had looked so kind, I thought maybe this one is different. I decided to be brave, to cross that line. Within seconds you made me regret it. I wasn’t ready. Now it will take even longer. I fill my mind with reasons to make up for your silent rejection.

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Feb 15, 2019

Feb 15, 2019 at 10:02 AM UTC

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Silent

You dismissed me immediately. You didn’t even bother to look me in the eye. I stood there wondering how you decided so fast. You had looked so kind, I thought maybe this one is different. I decided to be brave, to cross that line. Within seconds you made me regret it. I wasn’t ready. Now it will take even longer. I fill my mind with reasons to make up for your silent rejection.

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