#putdown
I’ll say your name and wait for your voice but the answers I get are silence and grief.
Without you my heart will freeze to crystals of the deepest blue;
for you painfully won this game of hide and seek.
I’ve called the last and final, “where are you?”
There will be no more now that you’ve gone somewhere I cannot reach.
I will wait till the day that you and I once again meet. I’m sorry my fur baby. I’ll get through hopefully, if not barely.
Sep 28, 2023
Sep 28, 2023 at 5:28 PM UTC
Dragged and drawn...
Out
Tired and resisting sleep
Eyes barely open,
Mind barely present
A cage is not a cage because of its bars
Or the space that it provides
Or the bed that it allows
A cage is a cage because it
Turns life pointless
Holds life in its claws and
Never lands
Falling with no end
Screaming in a vacuum
Unheard
Shackled to a life that disregards
Your life
Breathing never felt as it used to
Feb 18, 2022
Feb 18, 2022 at 9:29 AM UTC
How sad it is that you
find it amusing to tease me
And it's always the 1 thing
you know is something
I am so easily hurt by
If you really cared you'd
not bring it up
Or better yet you'd
find a way to help me
So next time I hope
you say nothing
cause it may be your last
I refuse to accept it
not anymore
© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏 10/18/21
Oct 19, 2021
Oct 19, 2021 at 4:00 AM UTC
Words have weight
Cast a rude one at your mate
And he is bound to hate
Toss a kind word to elevate
And he will elate
Try it so you can relate
If what I state
Is true or inaccurate?
Mar 30, 2020
Mar 30, 2020 at 1:47 AM UTC
Without the label of a teacher
Nonetheless things are pointed out
With care and diligence
Comments meticulously exacting
As though there is a sixth sense
About what is detailed
More than busy, attention is thorough
Rigor seeps from every statement
Oozing inside the listeners skull
How much perseverance can
Be understood while feeling
Crushed beneath a microscope’s slide
Jun 22, 2019
Jun 22, 2019 at 8:49 PM UTC
"Go have a breakdown since that's all you're good at"
He doesn't realise the weight his words have on me
Words that cascade with force into my entire world
Tunnel vision showing only him
As a target
Revenge is bittersweet
Much like the black coffee, dark chocolate, and gin that I love
In hindsight revenge never does cut it
Because I never use a knife
Instead my revenge is in the form of removal
It makes no difference
.
Words
That's all they are
Yet they're as sharp as a double edged sword
One side is jagged, the other smooth
Both cut
Deep
Wounds left etched through my body
Scars running like war paths over my entirety
Does he gain pleasure by putting me down?
Does making me feel worthless make him feel strong?
Or am I simply a woman who hasn't evolved past the hindrance of emotion
Jan 6, 2018
Jan 6, 2018 at 11:47 PM UTC
Let's do this
We should do that
look I just want to read
I wanna do that
Do this with me
Selfish I feel indeed
What are you doing
something...
Nothing I see,
Then come and do this with me
Am I bad for wanting peace
I can't have it I see
Your bad at what you do
Why do you try
I wanna do this instead
You sell me short
It hurts so much
Should I tell you......
How could you
Your negative thoughts
They depress me
I'm not allowed to feel
Your bad at every thing
....
God don't even try
I'm prettier
......
Fitter
Don't you dare complain to me
.........
Of course, I'm sorry for bringing it up
You should be
....lets
Nov 22, 2015
Nov 22, 2015 at 7:21 PM UTC