#purge
Shower, water hides my pain
I feel my power slipping down the drain
Cut myself to feel an ounce of control
Hide my tears, pretend I’m whole
Try eating but the guilt begins to start
Beats too fast, my racing heart
Lock the bathroom door and purge my fear
One more secret, I’ll make disappear
I feel my pain when I see it rain
Nothing left for me to gain
I go and try to set a goal
Man this is really taking a toll
I break myself apart
Part by part
My future is so unclear
See you next year?
Oct 26, 2025
Oct 26, 2025 at 12:37 PM UTC
A certain curtain
Pulled back
By the hand of fate,
A scene, not seen,
For a long, long time.
A memory thought buried,
Suddenly unearthed.
This could change everything, a more confident person will emerge, subconscious has it's ways, of creating a purge.
Oct 9, 2025
Oct 9, 2025 at 5:26 PM UTC
In the land of milk and honey, within the rocks, the water flows. The love of life is dangling, from a chain of forever wars…
Each a part they look away, unconcerned and unafraid.
Unaware the masses move, while their bombs drop on you.
Obscure , the hand we’ve been dealt, turn the device off, toss it on the shelf! Never mind what you heard, this world must be purged.
Purged of them over there,
Lydia, Syria how could
nobody cared?
The Nuremberg trials and **** Germany, we surely do forget.
Yet the identical road is beneath our feet, in each and every step!
May 24, 2025
May 24, 2025 at 1:14 PM UTC
merrily through this world we go
purging in every toilet bowl
May 22, 2025
May 22, 2025 at 2:17 PM UTC
I have a strong urge
to purge fallacy
of my own and others
of my kindred soul
and my brothers
the shackles you see
are barely there
But those inside
your mind
rattle your soul
Using truth as sword
Justice as shield
Martyrdom awaits
In the holy battlefield.
Apr 30, 2021
Apr 30, 2021 at 1:54 AM UTC
While you might look
at the months ahead
and see feasts,
and shared tables,
and celebratory treats,
and memories made in the kitchen.
I see hours needed on the treadmill,
and calories needing to be logged,
and pounds gained,
and hours crying on the bathroom floor.
I no longer see the holidays
as a joyous time full of laughs
but rather as a 3 month long
depressive purge.
Nov 3, 2020
Nov 3, 2020 at 3:30 PM UTC
We'd be on the list,
he said
In days past,
that list for VIP-s only
was for a screening, a fashion show
A red carpet, a gallery soiree
But days before the Election
he was quietly referring
to a purge list
A VIP of a different sort
We'd be on the list,
he said,
if there was a coup,
for being artistic dissidents
The sun sets in Hollywood
and I'm in the VIP Room
which is my living room
praying, hoping for peace
Nov 1, 2020
Nov 1, 2020 at 8:19 PM UTC
The teardrops on these windows
of my soul, blur the view
of the pristine tomorrow.
My lungs choked with anxiety,
as the lasses tread gaily across fields
and soak the sun.
These tears block the sunrays,
binding me to the darkness
as I smash those windows.
The tears laugh as it tries to pin
me down in the gutters of despair,
as I beseech the sun to dry these drops away.
Sep 19, 2020
Sep 19, 2020 at 2:25 PM UTC
Oh god...
Please no, not this
Just breathe slowly and
Hopefully it'll go away, then
SHIVERS spark beads of sweat
The pain inside you'll never forget
Hot and cold, breathe in and out, then
LURCH
Oh God Why?? I'm
CH...Oking on my
I n s i d e s
CO....UGH I can't ******* breathe
My God is it ove.... Rrrrrrr...
Breathe... Just breathe
Spit and wipe the tears from your face
Sweat in my eyes burns like
The acid in my throat but
At least it's done...
At least I hope
Sep 11, 2020
Sep 11, 2020 at 4:56 PM UTC
Everyone has their addictions. I’m addicted to you. I’m addicted to the way you make me feel in control while you wrap me around your finger. I’m addicted to the emptiness. Drowning myself in banana coloured pills as I stuff my fingers down my throat. I wash my emotions flush down, swirling away as my body cries for mercy. For me stop abusing it for a vision of perfection that I will never reach alone. I can’t stop, losing control is like a death sentence. You’re killing me but I love you all the same. Sometimes I wish I could be free. To go back to a time when there were more than numbers on my plate. Before the calculator in my head began to count. A time when I was happy. The only way to be free is to let go of you. But letting go feels like dying even though I’m dying anyway. I can’t get enough of you. This pain is all I know. I am nothing without you. I sometimes want to live but I can’t bear the feelings of being alone. I love you.
Aug 17, 2020
Aug 17, 2020 at 12:57 AM UTC
The drops of the past
Wells up in my eyes,
As my mind purges
my soul of the
heart stung with
Poison.
Poison
That stains souls.
Which remain tainted,
In the bright cosmic world,
among the naive souls
In line to be slain.
Jul 20, 2020
Jul 20, 2020 at 3:35 PM UTC
As I tread through the
murky waters,
The apparition whispered
the joy of pain as
we treaded further,
into the tunnel.
With just a quarter left,
to the end,
the apparition left me,
all alone and murky,
constricted in my own mind.
The tunnel, with time,
taught me the joy,
within me, hidden
as I whisked to the end.
To be soaked in the Love,
in the Universe.
Apr 18, 2020
Apr 18, 2020 at 2:42 PM UTC
Buckthorn, as a med we ate
to ease a belly ache,
cascara sacrada, relaxative
peristalsis
pro-vocatuer, speaker to the gut beyond
first taste, you
spew
buckthorn berry purge, my gut
for goodnessake
swallow whole, don't ever
ruminate and appear
not to know
in
sacred
cow stupid-blissity, duhll, un
honed
to an honest cutting edge, behind
a persistent point
piercing,
insisting on forming, con forming me,
the ego in main-mode, re
maining reasonable in face of facts,
leaked:
liars prosper.
Good enough. Now, betting begins.
Will, mine or thine, one is free, the
other is me, a mind in a word world with
vectoring paths into any ever we image,
conversation, forms of words
filled with saliency,
line after line,
salutory aspirations to rise above the fray,
someday,
to see,
-- the lie exposed is the truth.
So simple a five year old knows when she's caught.
Feb 28, 2020
Feb 28, 2020 at 12:33 PM UTC
Ya Know... Big Virge Words...
Are Built To Merge With... " The Purge "...
As In ... " The Flick "...
That TRULY IS ... SICK... !!!
But Here's The Trick...
This Flick Has Some TWISTS That May Well PREDICT....
A Future Where SIN Is A... " Once A Year Thing "... !?!
That's Where It BEGINS ...
As Do These Words I've Put Into Verse ...
I YES ...
PURGE The Urge To DENY What Hurts...
So That I Stay Calmer ...
Rather Than Bring The DRAMA ...
Like These ... " Wannabee' Osamas' "... !!!!!
Trying To Play That They HARDER ...
And INCREDIBLY ... SMARTER ...
Than A Man Whose Words DISTURBS Their Nerves... !!!!!!
Because My Words ... BURN... !!!
When They INSERT What I OBSERVE About Their World...
Where It's CLEAR That They ... " Think "...
They ARE ... " BIG SLICK "... !!!
When The TRUTH is THIS ...
They're ... FULL OF IT ... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Which Is Why I DECLINE To JOIN ... " Their Kind "...
And Have To PURGE ...
MY Wish To Employ That Which DESTROYS ...
The INFANTILE Noise Coming From These BOYS ... !!!!!
PLAYING That They MEN ...
Til' They Have To DEFEND Their Brand of NONSENSE ... ?!?
Against Words I Express ...
That Lyrically SPLURGE My Wish To ... " PURGE "...
My VIOLENT THOUGHTS With Words of WAR ...
That Bore Like ****** With... SWEATY Pores... !!!!!!
This Flick Fa' SURE Has STIRRED In Me ...
What It Is I FEEL ... Humanity NEEDS ...
A NEED For TRUTH ...
BEFORE People ... " En Masse "...
Get LOOSE And Start Acting UNCOUTH...
Through EVIL Moves Like BURNING Roofs ... !!!!!
That'll CLEARLY PROVE Their NEED To PURGE ...
Because of What HURTS ... " INSIDE Their Worlds "...
A NEED For LOVE And WARMER Stuff ...
Than Acting TOUGH And *** That's ROUGH ... !!!
Maybe That's What WORKS For Girls To PURGE ...
Their NEED To FEEL Something That's REAL ... !?!
But Is THAT ... " The REAL "... ???
That They're TRYING To FEEL ... !?!
Or Just ... "A Deal "...
That Has NO MEAL On Which To GROW ... !!!
Because It Feels Like Their ... ONLY HOPE ... !!!
Any OB1's ........ ?
... NOPE ... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just Moves Below That Are NO JOKE ... !!!!
Cos' They PROVE What BURNS May Well Just Lurk ...
UNDERNEATH THE Urge To ... ETERNALLY PURGE...
.... " Internal SCARS ".... !!!!!
Because It's THE HARD That's FUELLING Their Hearts...
of Those Who THINK They're SMART Like ... TONY STARK ... !!!
So Back To The Flick ...
Cos' I Recognise ... What The Movie Implies...
PROBLEMS On The RISE That Are Now WORLDWIDE ... !!!!!
How ... TOO MANY Lives Have Become Contrived ...
Because of LIES That Reside In The Minds ...
of Those Wanting To FIND Some PEACE FILLED Times ...
Yeah I Think It's Time To BELIEVE The Signs ...
That We NOW Observe ... ALL OVER The World ... !!!
BEFORE This World BURNS Because of Our Words ...
And VIOLENCE That Serves ...
Some ... FRUITLESS Hors D'oeuvres ... !!!
It Seems CLEAR To Me That Humanity NEEDS ...
To STOP VIOLENT Sprees That In The Future ... Could Be ...
.... " Government OVERSEEN "....
For TWELVE HOURS ... " YEARLY "... !!!?!!!
Like ... In The Movie... !!!
NOT ON Big Screens But VIA .... " CCTV ".... ?!!?
It Would Seem We NEED To ... " Work "...
To Learn HOW We Should...
........ " PURGE ".......
Feb 23, 2020
Feb 23, 2020 at 6:13 PM UTC
A finger in a jar,
Spooning out peanut butter,
In a cold empty house.
A pack of crisps.
A crunchy bar.
A sandwich.
Some fizzy.
Slowly,
Pushing the handle,
Tap,
Tap,
Tapping,
Gush.
I push it all back out.
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 11:59 AM UTC
These feelings fall like tidal waves.
They're a beauty, so why do I suffocate?
Overwhelm me, I just can't escape,
It's dark, so here, I send up a flare.
It's hard, to keep my flair.
Buried within the world's glares.
I'm making me work,
A body, no head.
Pushing.
Might I have failed?
To accept I'm way too scared.
Letting my world down, myself.
After all I've done, all I've said.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't sad.
My dreams, I know they aren't dead,
In folds, they hid instead.
Don't know why this mount I can't climb.
God knows, for long I've tried.
Blown my integrity, I have no more pride.
I wish I could take this in my stride.
Down the barrel of this gun, I stare.
Not knowing where from here I fare.
No options, no allies.
I don't want this to be just a souvenir.
I'm tired, I'm drained.
These tidal waves,
Where do you take me?
Where?
Aug 19, 2019
Aug 19, 2019 at 9:17 PM UTC
No matter what's wrong and what's right
The pouring heavenly light
Will continue to rain
She shows not a drop of refrain
We know you live for the thrill
So go on and drink your fill
Enter the field of doom
As it enters full bloom
May 13, 2019
May 13, 2019 at 3:37 PM UTC
Had me a purgatory day,
yesterday,
spewed my guts under the torturers
inquirical miracle twisted
all to hell, seeking truth
that fits the story the fire maker
said I knew.
Had me a purgatory day,
yesterday,
spilled my gut on youtube comments
no mind in a state of right useness
is ever going to believe,
believing being so
difficult,
these days. Those days
Had me a purgatory day,
yesterday.
Apr 16, 2019
Apr 16, 2019 at 1:04 PM UTC
let me purge
away my sins
gluttony is an
endured stench
if I peel away
this being of mine
would you feel
my heart clench?
Apr 11, 2019
Apr 11, 2019 at 10:29 PM UTC
If E=MC squared and I am 9 stone why cant I get up in the morning?
If all things are "relative" why haven't I heard from any of you?
If nothing moves faster than light how does that cold drop of water beat me when I go to the bathroom in the mornings?
Mar 27, 2019
Mar 27, 2019 at 6:05 AM UTC
You're worthless.
You can't even go a day without eating.
Even when you do you stuff your face just to puke it back up.
Why don't you just end it now?
You're ugly and no-one will ever want you.
Much less want to be with you.
You think that we made you tired?
That we are what's making you sad?
No. You did this to yourself, you worthless, ugly piece of ****
Why can't you be strong like the other girls?
Why don't you just quit eating and have discipline like they do?
We know it's because you're scared. You ******* coward.
Even we aren't the worst things that you deal with.
What about your little "habit?"
Be it drugs, self harm, purging, or alcohol. Just take your pick.
You deserve every little thing that's happened to you.
You'll never be enough.
You aren't worth it.
You never were.
Sincerely,
Ana & Mia
Mar 17, 2019
Mar 17, 2019 at 1:49 PM UTC
I remember the feeling.
Like I was getting rid
Of every foul thing inside me.
I would feel so-
Empty.
But at the time
It was better than feeling everything.
And sometimes I would just lay there
And I would cry.
I was so ashamed
Of my bathroom coping mechanisms.
Brush my teeth
So the acid wouldn't make them yellow.
Appearances seemed to be important.
Had to be thin,
Had to be empty.
I didn't realize then
That I was wasting away
That there was another way
To purge my feelings.
But I know now.
I know now.
You saved me.
Feb 26, 2019
Feb 26, 2019 at 12:16 AM UTC