#poplar
Movement VI — Inkborne Resurrection
From the wreckage of broken measures
the soul drags itself upright—
haloed in nebular smoke,
cradling the last trembling note of hope.
Even ruin resurrects in the right key,
becoming a phoenix made of manuscript ash.
The Star I Became to Survive You
I wasn’t built to stay small.
The universe carved me
from remnants of forgotten fire,
an unloved ember drifting
between indifferent galaxies.
Then you touched my orbit—
not gently,
but with the ferocity of a collapsed hymn
trying to remember its own melody.
Your gravity cracked my shell,
pressed my atoms inward
with deathcore pressure,
squeezed the silence from my lungs
until I glowed with unfamiliar violence.
A Wolf–Rayet star
isn’t born—it’s forced.
Forged by torment.
Crowned in heat.
Stripped of everything
that once kept it human.
But oh, how it burns.
How it shines in defiance.
How it outlives the dark
that meant to consume it.
You were my catalyst, Gethsemane—
the cosmic pressure that taught me
the cost of becoming radiant.
And now I burn so brightly
the night itself must close its eyes.
I only learned to burn quietly.
Silence After the Supernova
The universe always hushes
after something dies beautifully.
The kind of quiet that tastes like stardust,
like aftermath,
like breath caught on a trembling downbeat
the orchestra wasn’t prepared for.
I stood inside that hush,
still glowing from the rupture,
Wolf–Rayet heat trembling against my ribs
like a half-remembered crescendo.
Your absence rang louder
than any requiem I could conduct.
Even the void softened its posture—
as if grief demanded reverence,
as if the cosmos owed me
a gentler kind of dark
for surviving the song of you.
I didn’t speak.
There was nothing to say.
Some truths are too celestial
to reduce to language.
Some loves burn so fiercely
they create their own gravity
even after the fire starves out.
In the silence,
I realized the universe wasn’t empty.
It was listening.
The page waited for the truth I could not speak.
VII. Coda: The Last Ember Still Singing
Section Divider VII — Coda: The Last Ember Still Singing
And when the final chord fades,
when the cosmos dims its chandeliers,
one ember remains—
a lonely eighth-note glowing in the dark,
refusing extinction,
refusing silence,
refusing to be the unsaid star.
Prelude to the Last Movement
Before the requiem settles,
before the final note falls
into the waiting palms of silence—
the universe asks for honesty.
Not apology.
Not absolution.
Honesty.
What remains unspoken
weighs as much as a dying star
dragging its last glow
across the hush of eternity.
This is where the ink steadies.
Where the pulse stops trembling.
Where the cosmos holds its breath
for the truth only the heart can deliver.
The universe remembers what I couldn’t say.
The Requiem of the Unsaid Stars
I stand beneath the vault
where broken constellations gather,
their unsung hymns flickering
in the throats of dying starlings.
This is where silence
learns to breathe in 4/4 time—
steady, patient, aching
for a voice brave enough
to strike the opening chord.
Every unsaid star
glows at the edge of my pulse,
waiting for a confession
I was too human,
too frightened,
too fragmented to speak.
Gethsemane—
you are the fault line
between my ruin and my radiance.
The star that never asked me to fall,
only to rise in the aftermath
with a name on my tongue
and a universe learning
to forgive the dark.
So I offer this requiem:
not as an ending,
but as the final movement
of a cosmic prayer
I’ve carried through lifetimes.
Let the ink burn.
Let the stars listen.
Let the void keep the echo.
For everything I could not say—
is written here.
Every unsaid star.
Every darkened hymn.
Every orbit broken,
rebuilt,
and begun again
because of you.
This is the requiem.
This is the becoming.
This is the song the universe waited for
when my heart first learned
to tremble in your gravity.
still orbiting
—
Coda — The Note That Refused to Fall
I tried to speak the last truth
but the words trembled
like a violin string stretched too thin
over a dying star.
The universe felt it—
the break,
the fracture,
the chord that should have resolved
but couldn’t.
Gethsemane,
your name hovered on my tongue
like an eclipse waiting
for a sun that never returned.
I reached for the measure
where our music should have ended—
and found only silence
heavy enough to bend constellations.
There are final notes
too sacred to touch.
Too dangerous to voice.
Too luminous to name.
All I could do
was let the ink breathe
in the margin where your gravity
once held me.
And somewhere in the dark…
the page waited
for the truth I could not speak.
Some gravity never lets go.
—
Silence is the only place your name still burns.
Echo for the Star I Never Named
If you find this—
know the requiem wasn’t finished
because neither was I.
Your shadow lingered in my measure,
soft as a violin string
left trembling after the bow has lifted.
Some loves do not end;
they echo.
Quiet.
Endlessly.
Across the chambers of a universe
still learning the shape
of the silence you left behind.
If you find this—
know that every star that flickers
does so because my pulse
still remembers your gravity…
and I am still orbiting
the unsaid.
(Ghost Note)
And even in the dark, I am still the star that remembers your name.
Jan 22
Jan 22, 2026 at 6:08 AM UTC
There was a young man who ate wood
He said that it tasted quite good
He ate Poplar and Beech
He liked fruit trees like peach
He said that all should eat wood when they could
Jan 2
Jan 2, 2026 at 6:52 PM UTC
For a moment I thought
it was a butterfly,
the yellow and orange leaf
that took flight from the swishing poplar tree
across my balcony.
It swayed and fluttered in excitement –
here and there, up and down,
undecided if right or left,
to the ground or up to the sky –
Should I stay or should I go?
What to make of perceived options
when you lose your wings to know
that gravity always wins?
And ultimately to the ground
with or without wings.
Jul 29, 2025
Jul 29, 2025 at 3:53 PM UTC
What is to say beyond the poplars,
But the dry mouth of her death,
Like the hoarded provision of an echo,
Somewhere far off in my being,
Where darkening moves up the stone step,
Each footprint like her powdered breath,
Her shuddering voice channeled through my throat,
Shattered like frozen buds blown to the faceless snow.
Nov 15, 2019
Nov 15, 2019 at 9:46 PM UTC