#pilgrimage
The road unraveled like a ribbon
From some unseen, revolving spool.
I set my face to the horizon,
A student in a stubborn school
Who thought the only holy motion
Was thrusting toward a distant goal,
A straight-line flight of pure devotion
To satisfy the marching soul.
I walked. The mile-marks fell like hours.
I walked until the sun became
A copper disk through golden showers
Of dust that spelled a holy name.
And then---a stumble. Not a turning
Of will, but just a shift of stone.
And yet I felt the curious burning
Of one who walks, but not alone.
For in the lurch, the wobble, swaying,
The counter-step, the little slide,
A backward foot was softly playing
A part no forward pace could hide.
It pulled the earth, it traced a crescent,
It drew a breath I didn’t know
Was needed in the endless present
To let the forward motion grow.
I saw a line of pilgrims weaving,
Not one of them a faultless guide.
Some staggered, laughed, or paused, believing
The path was wide, and not a stride
Was wasted. Even those retreating
Were crafting with peculiar grace
A pattern that the steps repeating
Could never, in their sameness, trace.
“Step back,” they sang, “to learn the measure.
Step back, and feel the pressure shift.
The backward step contains a treasure:
It is the dancer’s holy gift.
It is the wind-up, the gathering,
The bow pulled taut before the tune,
The inhale that precedes the blathering
Of trumpets underneath the moon.”
I watched a child retreat from morning,
Scoop up a stone the forward pace
Had missed, then spin with sudden, dawning
Delight upon her former place.
She held the stone up to the brightness,
A backward-gleaned, exquisite thing,
And then she ran with doubled lightness
To show the find, and laugh, and sing.
I saw a mother, old and bending,
Step back to kiss a fallen son,
And in that backward gesture, mending
What forward years had left undone.
I saw a friend retrace the gravel
To lace the shoe a comrade lost,
And understood: we all unravel
The forward path at backward cost,
And yet the fabric grows the stronger,
The pattern richer where we tread,
Because the road extends far longer
Through every backward, gentle thread.
Now when the dust of progress chokes me,
And zealot-Forward shouts his creed,
A backward step, a pause, evokes me
To plant and water a new seed.
Not regression---no, a deep returning
To find what linear haste let fall,
A pivot in the constant yearning
That makes the dance a dance at all.
So if you see me stepping oddly---
A little back, a sideways glide---
Know I am praising, high and godly,
The full rotation, not the ride.
The dance is not a launched arrow,
Not even a road that runs from home;
It is a field where all steps harrow,
But none are lost in loam.
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 3:02 PM UTC
The land has not changed.
Right on time I awoke as the train pulled
Into the station, then, slowly, shot into
The valley.
The land has not changed.
You can still see the safflower,
The buttercups dotted through the fields
That name it.
The land has not changed.
I can still remember being hip-high
In fields of broad beans, on my knees
At the altar.
The land has not changed.
The mountains still loom like the future
And the light finds the grass to say; this
Is God’s own country
The land has not changed.
The girl is still going through,
The commons, the country paths,
Breaking her bread.
The land has not changed.
I am leaving it now, faster than before
Racing past longtown,
the land has not changed
The land has not changed,
The land has not changed.
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 7:20 AM UTC
Reaching for faith
Finding courage
Hoping for faith
To rise after
Oct 14, 2025
Oct 14, 2025 at 2:31 PM UTC
the way of St. James
preserves mounds of ancient steps
under bending oaks
Jul 7, 2025
Jul 7, 2025 at 6:05 PM UTC
She's an amazing woman,
If only she thought similiary
Of me.
Jun 14, 2023
Jun 14, 2023 at 11:57 AM UTC
Dear Don Alberto
Flamboyant Octogenarian
To a pair of weather-beaten families on the Camino
And to Backpacker Bridget from Granada via Barnsley
And to all who seek shelter from the Galician downpours
You sound
Like an Angel
As you hold aloft your otherworldly radio
And play for us Tina Turner’s
Simply the Best
On happy repeat.
Dear Don Alberto
With your doggy entourage
To a bunch of Ryanair Refugees on the Camino
And to uber cool Bridget naturalised Granadina don’t mention Barnsley
And to all who seek sanctuary from the Galician heatwaves
You taste
Like a rustic slice of empanada
Rich deep and
Eternally replenishing itself.
You weren’t ever on our map
Don Alberto, were you?
The ID cards you offer up for inspection
Make us laugh at the farce of our controls and borders.
And so
To us make-shift pilgrims on the Camino
You show us how to journey properly
Dancing the salsa
On every roundabout.
Simon Piesse
Jun 20, 2022
Jun 20, 2022 at 12:58 PM UTC
The greater the revelation the deeper the mystery
The closer to the light the dimmer and further it is
But compelled and captive, propelled not by will
Accelerating into the void, a star amongst many
Each and all inexorably to be our very own Destiny
Aug 10, 2021
Aug 10, 2021 at 11:58 PM UTC
Annual pilgrimage begins
thousands flocking to our doors
braving elements of chance
what does new year have in store?
As they enter our domains
obedient to adverts’ beckoning
is there hope for addled brains
as they face their day of reckoning?
© 2020 Mark Toney. All rights reserved.
Jul 26, 2020
Jul 26, 2020 at 2:02 PM UTC
Tanned days rest futile and barren, effortless.
Wan old woman on a mahogany chair. Balding.
Folded torn date palms amidst desserts thirsting.
Blue-black nights spent watching lovers, kissers
eat lips, tongues. At soft tips of sanded hill castles.
I dream of full, silky fleeting rivers. Oh Krishna.
You are the giver, taker, war, peace and refugee.
Plane songs, sorrows and all the remaining dreams.
I’m empty, yet a ripened bunch, ready to submit.
Like a dog at your altar. Running knives on my back.
I cannot grow, the blue is too far a lover. Or wither, the
ground too close a migrant. Just a blessing cut down for
those curses fettered in pages, drawn beneath gypsy tongues.
Crop me off this pilgrimage, myself running out of pilgrim
Age.
Jun 17, 2020
Jun 17, 2020 at 7:24 PM UTC
Reverberations resound,
Airwaves surround,
The Holy Ethereal
Transcribes my Soul Sound.
I yearn for freedom,
I sing for heartsease,
I beseech the firmaments,
That musicality conceive
A New Dawn; Millenial Fawn;
Material-Realm Transcendence;
Spiritual Efflorescence,
O, my Spirit is hearkening unto
The Holy Dove's cathexis.
Write from your heart,
Sing from your soul,
Unravel the Perdition
Until The Vestibule of Lightness unfolds.
Dream in stratosphere;
Achieve upon The Terraqueous Plane;
Ascend The Earthen Spire;
Know we each bleed the same.
What is music without love?
What is Heaven without Hell?
The Elemental Legacy beckons you higher,
Legion fatidic arbiters conspire
Rendering self-sovereignty a liar.
Open your eyes,
Unfurl your heart,
Sing to the Aethers
That The Spirit never depart.
This is Musicality's Manifesto,
This is Destiny's Diminuendo;
Therefore,
Know the blaze, fathom the burn
Of unquenched ardor, unyielding zeal;
With passion within, ye
Shall never fail,
So pilgrimage Life's Mecca
Bearing its sacral travail.
(Se' lah)
Jun 8, 2020
Jun 8, 2020 at 12:17 PM UTC
I
Didn't I walk past ‘cause the
crowds were mushrooming
around the Hajre Aswad.*
As like the rose, it comes
with thorns on the stem.
The most significant stone sits
pulling the biggest crowds.
It makes sense, it rhymes.
A twilight isn't a harsh cut
at the end of a summer day
when it paves the way
for the waxing moon.
No cut is a cut on the way
to the desired noon!
I too thought while the flock
before me was bumping on
the way to the desired one
Let's not me be a disturbing one.
So for then did I walk past
the Hajre Aswad!
II
Are you, are you 360-degrees
on the way to the beloved?
Maybe it’s not you who sway
losing the most at first in this way!
Should you then change your mind
and really do a u-turn
even jump in the water.
Already a lost one you are.
Too little a size you are:
for Jonah's whale just a bite!
Punters swept the way ahead
I too didn’t do a U-turn.
Squeezed, I get caught in the crowd.
In the flow rolling fast and by chance
I kissed the Hajre Aswad.
II
Didn't I reach out to the sky
We know there is no colour
The rainbow is far from the touch.
I just chanced to click a link
that lets you keep on browsing.
There was no colour,
just black: the Hajre Aswad.
Is the black only black though?
Pierce through the black,
the moon gardens
amid the starry honeycombs.
The whole world has seen
blooms only on the
nocturnal black screen!
But did you see at this end
what a sheer beauty prevails
off this black veil?
Hajre Aswad, o my God!
Could it sample? Is there a rose?
IV
Should I ask the rose
that shines the colour of the day?
I can feel it whispers:
Tap into my fragrance
if you can, one might dip in
but I am yet to touch a skin!
The rose whispers:
Below or above, in or out
into a space sooty indeed.
Maths or programming
call it whatever you think.
A colossal solar disk
doesn’t swallow it.
No altitude or latitude here.
You won't see a line
let alone an intersection
on the heart of the matters
the fresco Hajre Aswad!
V
Where do I begin?
How do I give a demo of this, o my God!
How it didn’t need a eye to see.
I didn’t pop into a rosy garden.
It was night and dark indeed.
This a colourless magic
pierces through my lips.
And tints in the heart
what a firework!
Now be it a most spectacular duo
the rose and lapis-lazuli-blue nymph
under the same cloud.
Frankly, it doesn’t matter.
To me now, no colour is a colour!
Since it snuck the light
This on cloud nine
Hajre Aswad the black stone thriller!
VI
I am unable to draw down
is a dwarf under the moon.
Since kind you looked
behind and with your toe
no star saw it, it was worn
like the starless night's swarthy sock.
You opened the door a little
upon the earth at it’s core!
Allah willing, one fine moment,
this eclipse will conk out.
There will be no dark mole
at the night’s core anymore.
The moon and the sun be one persona
basking into your bursting chroma!
The sun will go off the screen
That day it won’t have a rule.
It will be cool swimming in your pool!
Then the voice mine, can’t be swallowed
by the Jonah’s whale no more, no more!
Aug 17, 2018
Aug 17, 2018 at 11:02 AM UTC
i walked across Spain
800km
and i thought that would do it.
apparently, it wasn't far enough...
Feb 10, 2018
Feb 10, 2018 at 10:41 PM UTC
When you walk
Walk through the green
On deep paths
Walk purposefully
In the footsteps
Of pilgrims past
When you walk
Walk each new step
Thoughtfully
Placing your footsteps
Joyfully
With eyes on the holy
And there you'll find
Not only the pleasure
Not just the delight
Not solely the feast
But you will find yourself
Released
Your soul
Your spirit
Sustained
Strengthened
Singing
There you'll discover
Your true guide for your path
Your great high priest.
May 26, 2017
May 26, 2017 at 9:00 AM UTC
I want to dance
across your eyelashes like fingers on a piano.
I want to curl those fingers,
twirl them in your beard
like ballerinas,
twisting and jumping
gently with grace
across the stage.
I want to be close to the city of your soul,
listen to the sounds
that echo off the buildings of memories.
I want to be a tourist of you,
snapping pictures and
standing in awe
of the landscape that is your temple.
I'll build a monument to you,
an ode to your good deeds-
we could fill a museum with you.
I want it to rain in your voice,
pour over me
so I can drink your thoughts
and grow toward the sun of your smile.
I want to reach down
and dig my fingers into your Earth,
fill my mouth with your soil
and let your nature consume me
while I consume
it.
I want to bathe in your ocean,
wash my sins away
while I exalt in yours.
I want to feel your ground beneath me,
steady and sure,
as I take this journey,
my pilgrimage to your heart.
Apr 21, 2017
Apr 21, 2017 at 10:53 AM UTC
Race Day
Run like a Slave Auction
First Teeth
Then ****
Next ***
Count the Purse
Strings....
Fridge
Check
Blow Job .. Any Good?
Check
Vision
and on and on
It Went
Until finally
It came
To the Question
Of Family
And suddenly
She looked around
And there wasn't one person
Not one
She stood that way
For a long time
Looking
Out
Unbelieving
The ground
Empty
As if a thousand corpse
Lay
Rotting
In
The Sunlight
looking up
Eyes UnSeeing
Trying
But there wasn't
Anything
That could be said
They left her there
Their own Flag
Made for Flying
Not Dying
Suddenly
A Breeze...
It was
Peace
Who Called
To take her
From the Pole
Where
She had
Been left
Hanging
A
new Thought
Of a
NEW Cross
Annointed Colors
Life
Apr 24, 2016
Apr 24, 2016 at 4:47 PM UTC
I'm making a pub pilgrimage,
A malted Mecca trip;
I'm leaving all I love at home
Crusading with the Picts.
I'll be alone with all my thoughts,
It's what must needs be done,
To keep the demons off.
Publicans meet me on the steps,
On Sundays by the side;
This trip of three thousand miles
May **** should I survive.
My altar's elbow worn,
The finest oaken wood;
I'll climb the stairs on knees,
Hear bells, raise cups of cheer.
There's games of chance,
Some romance,
With songs and several fools;
It has trappings of Canterbury
In pubs all called O'Tooles.
There's Highland mead,
And broken bread,
With harps from inner rooms,
I'll have dispirited spirits
And revel inside tombs.
My cave awaits on my return,
It's dark and hard and cold;
But I know the light's within my sight,
If I move this granite stone.
I'll bring with me a scapula
To make those visions stop,
The relics that I sought,
Those demons of a sot.
Sep 25, 2015
Sep 25, 2015 at 9:16 AM UTC
Up here on the mountain of the Great I Am
The one who reigns he is the same: the lion and the lamb
Up here on the mountain the sun reveals God's glory
With each step and every breath a part of my life's story
Up here on the mountain my spirit is set free
Up here on the mountain my Lord is changing me
Up here upon the mountain you call me: come follow, come walk
Here upon the mountain I listen and try to hear you talk
Silence isn't easy outer words and inner thoughts
Searching to fill a hunger when it's you I should've sought
Up here on the mountain of the Great I Am
The one who reigns he is the same: the lion and the lamb
Up here on the mountain the sun reveals God's glory
With each step and every breath a part of my life's story
Up here on the mountain my spirit is set free
Up here on the mountain my Lord is changing me
Now and then I feel the weight from sin and shame
I say sorry and ask forgiveness and every time the same
But you love me anyway I see you love me still
You loved me then, you love me now, and you always will
Up here on the mountain of the Great I Am
The one who reigns he is the same: the lion and the lamb
Up here on the mountain the sun reveals God's glory
With each step and every breath a part of my life's story
Up here on the mountain my spirit is set free
Up here on the mountain my Lord is changing me
There are days when I feel like I can fly
Other times I just want to break down and cry
I can't stay here forever and sometimes I must go
Out in the world or to the valley far below
Up here on the mountain of the Great I Am
The one who reigns he is the same: the lion and the lamb
Up here on the mountain the sun reveals God's glory
With each step and every breath a part of my life's story
Up here on the mountain my spirit is set free
Up here on the mountain my Lord is changing me
The journey's long, the road is hard and I want to give in
You teach me dependence and faith invaluable lessons
Up here on the mountain of the Great I Am
The one who reigns he is the same: the lion and the lamb
Up here on the mountain the sun reveals God's glory
With each step and every breath a part of my life's story
There in the beauty of a sunset, in a picture perfect day
I catch a little glimpse of You in a more amazing way
Up here on the mountain my spirit is set free
Up here on the mountain my Lord is changing me
Sep 4, 2015
Sep 4, 2015 at 5:38 PM UTC
*Long wintry nights I endured, in my eyes lie frozen,
like an orphaned dog I roamed, how many many, lives?
Sniffing at every thing, looking for love immortal,
at times tied down by the unrelenting chain of pain.*
A spring in my heart remains still, that spoke unfazed,
of the flowers of the valley, blue mountains and chirpy birds,
that fly crossing limits to sunny lands away and far,
where dreams in many colors flower in mirthful hearts,
*Love was an oasis at the far end of the desert,I reached at last after
meandering through desert tracks lined on both sides with cactus
but the oasis I found was long deserted,the spring fully dried,
it turned out to be a mirage, created to trap me forever.*
My soul was still a land of light where a wise bird kept on singing,
cheering me to move on, to reach the last and highest peak,
the wise speak about in meditative silence day and night.
it was in sight, beyond the mind, mount Kailash of my dreams,
*In the icy lake waters I dipped thrice, and took three circles around,
the morning mist cleared, like burnished gold the mount gleamed,
my climb I started, those golden steps to fulfillment.*
Aug 22, 2015
Aug 22, 2015 at 12:48 PM UTC
Sailing through sheer jagged thoughts
and cool running dreams
The merciless curse of emotion
overflowing the exhilarating streams
Witnessing the chaotic times
of the dark and ancient old
when the mystifying warriors heart
was branded honorable and bold
ever drifting ever more
in this sea without a shore
through this land of legends and lore
ever drifting evermore
Floating ever aimlessly
through translucent waters
seeing the weak of mind from this plane
exiling their sons and daughters
While beasts of burden trudge from within
the midsts of juxtaposing viking ships
ships of war and plague and death
that obliviously vanish within a breath
ever drifting evermore
in this sea without a shore
through this land of legends and lore
ever drifting evermore
Sailing after those laden beasts
that which so arrogantly stray
you see those morbid souls of life
so ominisqueskly carried away
To the ***** delight and warmth
of the strong and merciful earth
Away from this unknown land
Of legends miraculous birth
ever drifting evermore
in this sea without a shore
Through this land of legends and lore
ever drifting evermore
© Crystal Erickson 1999
Dec 29, 2014
Dec 29, 2014 at 6:24 PM UTC