#phonecalls
"Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, I'm just tired is all. I've been working a lot. "
"You sound more than tired.. You sound defeated.."
Oct 12, 2014
Oct 12, 2014 at 3:54 PM UTC
Talking on the phone is easy
But making phone calls is difficult
Thirty gut wrenching seconds
Heart beat ringing in my ears
Lungs working overtime
Every time the ringing tone resumes
I think its someone answering
My muscles tense
My lips ready to spit out
My already rehearsed lines
But no one answers
I never leave voicemails
A worse fate is ****** upon me
Anticipating their return call
Nov 14, 2016
Nov 14, 2016 at 12:56 AM UTC
Let me tell you the story of how both of us had problems sleeping, but once we started texting, the darkness didn’t seem so long and lonely. Let me tell you how I would stay up until mere hours before work or sometimes all through the night, not being able to sleep and not really wanting to. Let me tell you about how going to sleep meant facing the disappointment of waking up again the next morning. But let me tell you, baby, how I loved learning about you and how we traded questions to get to know one another. Let me tell you about the one time we talked on the phone until you fell asleep, and I just sat there for a minute and listened to you, then whispered oh so quietly, “I love you” before hanging up. Let me tell you about the time you told me that you’d never looked forward to texts so much in your life, and how I felt the exact same way.
May 29, 2014
May 29, 2014 at 1:10 PM UTC
waking up to a call
still distant in my dreams
the only thing I felt
was your arm around my waist
stuck on the phone -
listening to someone else's moans
out of respect and familiar bones
listen because I care
and there no longer
another person there
they're in a pinch
and I'm here to help
I'm now their only source
because no one has really felt
the things they've been through
besides me outside of my dreams
Jul 31, 2015
Jul 31, 2015 at 1:52 PM UTC
"When the sound of his warm breath was not enough
to fill the emptiness in our conversations,
I knew it was over."
Feb 9, 2019
Feb 9, 2019 at 9:59 AM UTC
When someone close to me
Leaves me a voice mail after a missed call,
I don't erase them.
Because I'm worried that one day
They'll all be gone.
And all I'll have
Are their voices.
Nov 5, 2021
Nov 5, 2021 at 9:15 AM UTC
hey.. i'm sorry i didn't call. i actually wanted to, but, well, you know me.
you remember that first time we stayed up until five in the morning? i told you that i only know the kind of love that slowly rips your heart. maybe it's because all i've ever known about love was from the kind that came from ****** up people — my mom, my estranged dad, charles bukowski. her. there'll be always be something in me that will crave the recklessness, the emotional distances, running red lights and messing around. you see, to me love was walking straight into greek fire, but you make me feel like it's divine — just staying put and watching the flames with your head laid on my chest.
so it's not that i don't want this. maybe i do, with a newfound intensity that terrifies me. there, i said it.. and it's unsettling, you see. cause i don't know how to love you with the kind of love that doesn't involve destruction. i don't know how i can love you without greek fires burning us — sinking us. so it's easier this way. telling you that this is going nowhere and that i can't love you. i can't love you. ********* i can't love you.
please. forget i ever said anything.
Jan 13, 2020
Jan 13, 2020 at 6:37 AM UTC
When I know you're on the other line of the phone, I feel...
Safe
Warm
Happy
You don't even have to talk. I know everything is okay when I know you're with me.
Dec 22, 2019
Dec 22, 2019 at 5:30 PM UTC
I'm sorry
The line is busy
I won't be able to answer the call
I want to hear your voice
But all I hear is static noise
Help me figure this out
I'm screaming out loud
I don't understand
how to make it better
All I want is
you and me together
Please, just tell me
What I have to do
to make this a reality
Oct 9, 2017
Oct 9, 2017 at 10:15 PM UTC
"I'm sorry" doesn't stop the tears
The sobs that release from my open mouth
Gaping and trying to hold in the truth
My fingers grazing above my lips don't contain the sounds very well
"I love you" wants to escape me
But I trap it and hold on for dear life
For if it fought its way out, it would cause more pain than relief
"We can never be" echos in my ears
Don't apologize for telling me the truths we've been avoiding
The darkness surrounding me stays, eyes open or closed
I just wish I could hear, "I love you too."
But there was silence after I couldn't fight the quiet any longer
Aug 3, 2017
Aug 3, 2017 at 6:44 PM UTC