#periwinkleribbon
i wish you would let me starve myself
i wish you didn’t feed me so carefully
i’ll be happier if you let me not eat
i want to be smaller than small
skinnier than skinny
weightless, i want to fly
i want the scale to go downdowndown
little moments of glee and triumph,
smaller and thinner and skinnier
swim coach seems to notice
she says she can see most of my ribs
is that not kind of beautiful?
i wish you would let me go further
drop farther
if only
May 27, 2025
May 27, 2025 at 9:05 PM UTC
i’m slowly breaking 5.27.25 (5:47 pm / 18:47)
i’m slowly breaking, can’t you see
can’t you understand me?
i don’t need to be diagnosed,
i just want you to hold me
and know me and see me
i don’t care that i’m broken in a hundred different ways
i don’t care that i’m cutting and starving
and crying alone and being depressed
i don’t care that the whole world is just closing in
claustophobically
crushingly
i’m slowly breaking
and i don’t care
i just want you to be here
May 27, 2025
May 27, 2025 at 8:56 PM UTC
i wish 5.27.25 (5:53 pm / 18:53)
i wish you would let me starve myself
i wish you didn’t feed me so carefully
i’ll be happier if you let me not eat
May 27, 2025
May 27, 2025 at 8:57 PM UTC
0 is only possible with water
1 sadly isn't possible and won't satisfy
13 is equivalent to that of an unappetizing snack
300 is starting to border between satisfying and too much
500 is a little out there
1,000 is unsatisfactory
2,000 is toilet time
Mar 19, 2015
Mar 19, 2015 at 11:00 AM UTC
Why did you eat that?
Don't you know
You're already fat?
Everyone is staring,
At the way your skin
Is swelled and sagging.
No one wants you,
With all that extra cargo
You look 200 pounds.
Put the food down
And go for a run --
You look disgusting.
Why did you eat that?
Don't you know
You're already fat?
Jan 5, 2015
Jan 5, 2015 at 9:30 PM UTC
Everyone leaves
for lunch break,
and I'm left here,
questioning my appearance.
Dec 23, 2014
Dec 23, 2014 at 11:35 AM UTC
Sometimes,
I think about how
soft
my hair is
and about how relatively
small
my waist is,
and I'm okay
with myself...
Dec 6, 2014
Dec 6, 2014 at 11:52 PM UTC
I was skin and bones
He told me I was fat
I believed him
I am skin and bones and more now
He tells me I'm fat
I started to believe him again
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 7:23 PM UTC
Am I thin?
Please tell me if I am.
Am I skinny?
I'm trying to get there.
*I'm dying *for your approval.
110 pounds...
100...
90...
How far can I get before I faint?
Before I'm enough --
Not enough?
Nov 28, 2014
Nov 28, 2014 at 1:41 AM UTC
anorexia you inside of me
hysteria is all you'll ever be.
you're a struggle
and you caused me a lot of trouble
yes you made me skinny
all with that stupid theory
but i'm gonna win in the end
even though you are my only friend
i will not die today
just have to get back what i threw away
i called you my master for way too long
but i just realized where i belong
i have my friends here
and they take away my fear
i might have been close to death
but only beacuse of your stupid threat
"you're gonna get fat"
and then we had the calorie chat
but i'm forcing you to leave
so i can freedom achieve
Oct 30, 2014
Oct 30, 2014 at 4:36 PM UTC