#pending
you control a part of me
without even realizing the power
you have over me.
save me from a pending heartbreak
by slowly giving me back control
and hand over my heart.
Mar 30, 2020
Mar 30, 2020 at 9:18 AM UTC
i would have thought the universe spat in my face
while getting gas after leaving your place
caught up in a brief interval of violent downpour
living in the shadow of shelter built for me
clouds drool for several minutes afterwards
i am dry beneath manmade canopies
you are stretching across the sky
free from conformity
fondling with branches dangling loose
jealousy writhes in my sturdy upbringing
if it were not for my pact with the universe
i would have taken this as a sign to leave
how infatuated trees are with you
how the sky cries for you
how roots untangle themselves for you
but i understand that when sun showers occur
the universe is with me more than ever
tangling herself with my emotions
bright and weeping
all at once
colliding in ways that neglect to care for one another
you are too fearful of things you cannot see
unknown territory primarily causing you concern
i drive miles for you on a daily basis in the dark
but what is distance if you have the sky at your fingertips
grasping for what is left of your horizon
i am merely stuck admiring sunrises for the time being
until the storm passes in front of me
unfaltering repetition in your unsteady breath at night
beauty held inconsistently in consistent
chaos
Sep 1, 2019
Sep 1, 2019 at 9:28 PM UTC
Basically,
I've come to
loathe her,
as much
as I love
her face.
Am I incapable?
Or,
is this the end
of every
romantic
by proxy?
Lukewarm,
and underwhelmed?
I thought
partners
were supposed
to help.
Why do
I strive,
then, all by
myself?
All by myself?
Oct 12, 2018
Oct 12, 2018 at 6:59 PM UTC
to be on hold pending
in anticipation of what or what
what for and why and why
whom in the heath of what and where I am
lost behind the door behind the lamp for
a window behind a window behind
a blizzard behind the snow
for the sun behind the sunny rain
be in anticipation of waiting for something
how it is and what kind of flashlight it counts
where am I where I am not was
times there was no time there was no past
and there was no future and now where I am
in anticipation of who is where and when and how in
waiting for that sunny rainfall
23.09.18
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 7:42 AM UTC
My heart won't stop beating
Beause of not meant to be's
As much as it aches
There's still much to see
Perhaps, it is not over yet
No, not a happy ending
But a few pages left,
A story-end still pending
Aug 20, 2017
Aug 20, 2017 at 9:09 PM UTC
*Darkness covered the skies,
While my body was restless with the tides.
I tried not to wait for the sunrise,
Because, it just reminded me of your eyes.
I remember holding you in my arms,
While surrendering to the stars,
Hoping to never fall apart.
The touch of your hand with mine,
The smell of Calvin Klein,
The taste of cherry wine,
Intoxicating me inside.
I didn't see this in cards,
Or the rolling dice in our hearts.
I imagined a future,
With the definition of forever.
But, now I see-
We were never meant to be.
When tomorrow comes,
Without the taste of ***
We will find someone.
Now it is time for me to go,
And leave this pain for the runaways-
So, Goodbye, my Summer's Day!*
Jan 5, 2016
Jan 5, 2016 at 10:03 PM UTC
*Her brown eyes crept up to me.
Delicate and wide.
I could see the love of her mother,
And pride of her father.
A universe stretched out farther then the eye could see,
Filled with shining stars,
And faceless scars.
Her stare had an ingenious beauty.
Like a meadowless daisy.
Her glare had an artless grace,
Like colorless vase.
This glow was naive from the broken lives,
Wondering on this fallen world.
This credulous light,
Waiting to be ripped by jealousy.
I almost wanted to hold her there,
Away from the horrors in life.
Far from Apollyon's hands,
Like a guardian in the night.
Her innocents daring to walk on this thin rope,
Called hope.
Then, I saw with my waking eyes.
A white aisle covered by heavens flowers,
Congregations starring at her beautiful smile.
Oh, what a lovely mile.
For, there I knew
Her life was a magnificent design-
That wasn't mine.
I let her go into the hands of the divine,
Where she waits for her Valentine.
Oh, Lord I know you will hold her tight,
As she waits for her fearless knight.*
Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 1:49 PM UTC
*Hold me high enough to see
Over the troubles in my life.
For, I wish to know if the future is worth the wait.*
Jan 2, 2016
Jan 2, 2016 at 5:39 PM UTC
I heard a tale long ago, a story of old.
Happiness and love filled the tale.
There was no pain, anger, or hatred far enough to see.
For this tale was written,
written for me.
Dec 24, 2015
Dec 24, 2015 at 10:41 AM UTC
My heart is racing inside of my chest.
The life I use to know is far behind.
For I am looking at the finish line.
Just another life to go,
Until I am in your arms.
No valley or mountain will stand in my way.
I can see the finish line.
Dec 21, 2015
Dec 21, 2015 at 4:48 PM UTC
*Tears Fall-
For people we hold dear,
Or something we fear.*
*Tears Are-
Love and hate.
Something we alienate.*
Dec 20, 2015
Dec 20, 2015 at 4:32 PM UTC
She makes me smile,
Even when she’s miles away.
I can’t get her sweet voice out of my head.
It echoes through my heart,
and makes it beat.
Oh what she does to me,
Even when she’s miles away.
Dec 19, 2015
Dec 19, 2015 at 1:42 AM UTC
The calm water,
seduced my stare.
The ghostly mist,
Filled the air.
The cool wind,
Chilled my bones.
The birds sang,
A lovers song.
The trees slept,
For winters day.
I dreamt of summer,
But, I was lost in winter.
I embraced December,
wishing for September.
Dec 16, 2015
Dec 16, 2015 at 8:24 PM UTC
You're a sad kid to have all the answers but put them to waste.
You know what to do but fear to do them.
You'd much rather not have the answers and take life as a surprise but unfortunately life wont intend it. So you fake the smile that hides the fear to answer the question,
"Are we gona do this or what?"
Until that question pends for so long and all chances to move forward are lost.
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 8:53 AM UTC
Your love is pending.
Will you accept my request?
Take me into your heart -
I promise to give my soul to you.
I have no reason to keep
Any part of me.
I am useless,
My bones are bare,
So take me completely.
Don't distain me.
Instead scrutinize my feelings
And take them into consideration.
I promise I'm not as ****** up
As I may seem, as I may have been.
Dig into my mind,
And I promise that you may find
Someone who not only wants
But needs you too.
Your love is pending.
Oct 26, 2014
Oct 26, 2014 at 9:24 PM UTC