I once thought
That being in love
Was better than
Being alone
And then I realized
That with love
Sometimes comes tears
And an empty bed at night
Oh what a world it would be
If love could exist
Without any sadness
Any insanity
A blooming of cold nights
And cigarette smoke
Tend to be what love is
To me
And with you
I have found love
But have also learned
That love is not what I thought it would be
Sep 14, 2018
Sep 14, 2018 at 11:02 PM UTC
You told me you were leaving
And I believed you
Then one day you came back
But I didnt need you.
Jul 12, 2018
Jul 12, 2018 at 7:31 PM UTC
I scare myself sometimes
When I look you in the eyes
And see myself as something
Just as beautiful
As you do.
Jun 29, 2018
Jun 29, 2018 at 12:19 AM UTC
Feed me
Those pretty lies
About how
You believed in me
Wanted me
Loved me
They all keep me begging for more.
Jun 29, 2018
Jun 29, 2018 at 12:13 AM UTC
You held me close,
Although my body
Ached
As your nails dug deep
Into my forearm
Leaving me breathless
And unable to
Pull away.
I ripped away,
Hoping for your nails to slide out
But with my skin
You took a part of me.
Jun 29, 2018
Jun 29, 2018 at 12:06 AM UTC
Someone once told me
That I was beyond
What the night sky
Had to offer.
And like a silly young woman,
Not knowing how beautiful the stars are,
I believed them.
What a mistake that was.
Jun 28, 2018
Jun 28, 2018 at 10:49 PM UTC
You followed me
From room to room
Asking what was next.
Was it the fight?
Was it the scowl?
Was it the tears?
Only I knew best.
I wish you knew
That when you followed,
I wept. I begged
For your effort
For your love
For back then.
You followed me
From room to room
Never asking what may be
The reason behind
My insanity,
My sorrow.
I wish you knew
That it was you.
Your empty heart,
Your black and blues.
Your hurtful words
Your hidden clues.
You followed me
From room to room
And never once
Did you say sorry.
Never once
Did you mean it.
I wish you knew
That I was broken
Into not one, but two.
I wish you knew
How far my feelings,
They flew,
For you, for this room.
I wish you had opened
A page or two.
Jun 28, 2018
Jun 28, 2018 at 9:32 PM UTC
I wish you had wanted me
Half as much
As I wanted you.
I wish you had known
That your words, they stung
They were a bee's stinger to
Bare skin- they dug.
Those words dug,
Below the surface
Until bleeding occured.
I wish you had wanted me
Just one half as much
As I wanted you.
Jun 28, 2018
Jun 28, 2018 at 9:25 PM UTC
The average person
They take
Between 12 to 20 breaths per minute.
With you, I barely took 2.
I could not feel my breathing anymore,
I could not feel my breaths,
While tears shed from my eyes,
To my cheeks,
To my legs.
I could not feel anything.
I could not feel me.
Instead I felt sadness,
The loneliest and most empty feeling
One could imagine.
I felt suffocation.
And suddenly, those two breaths,
They turned into none.
And I did not feel myself anymore,
My self as a whole.
I was gone,
Gone like the last flower of summer.
Goodbye, my oxygen.
Jun 21, 2018
Jun 21, 2018 at 9:13 PM UTC
He pulled me in a dark room,
Lightened by only the sparkle in his eye,
And quickly I awoke
From what I thought was a dream.
My eyes pondered at him,
Wondering where his next touch would be,
And my mind raced to find the zipper on his jeans.
And that was it.
Quickly, clothes poured like rain,
From the ceiling to the tiled floors,
In which I found myself so cold,
So bare against.
But the warmth of his body was all I needed
To satisfy me.
His heavy breath and subtle sighs
Left a trail of goosebumps just upon my thighs.
And my heart fluttered,
Or rather, it skipped a few beats,
When his precious waves,
Flew in so deep.
He was panting, waiting to turn
His waves into a hurricane.
But with a hurricane comes rain,
So he held back this desire.
As the pressure of the current
Became too intense to control,
He pulled back from his hurricane
And let it explode.
Sep 12, 2017
Sep 12, 2017 at 6:04 AM UTC