#pastrelationships
Didn’t use to
hesitate for
a single second,
Jumping to
conclusions,
And headfirst
into all the
evidence.
I never doubted
a word you said,
Even if the words
I said weren’t so
clear.
I never
learned to put
trust
within
myself,
Lived my
life, hiding
in fear of
self.
It’s not an
easy thing to
admit,
And
I know all
the things
I’ve done.
Saying sorry won’t
make it all come undone.
Sep 18, 2023
Sep 18, 2023 at 2:07 AM UTC
Have you seen me there
walking the halls filled with blue skies
and star showers
through waves of passing moments
holding your hand in mine
mimicking your smile?
Have you seen me
in the future we will live in
rushing past you
toward places that don't exist yet
in our shared conscience?
Have you seen us
meeting by chance
at a bar late at night
asking for a lighter
then looking up
to see your own eyes reflected
while easy smiles stumble in shock
and recognition?
Do I still exist
somewhere in you?
Jun 18, 2024
Jun 18, 2024 at 4:57 PM UTC
You know you’re the only one-
The love of my life, the one I care about,
The one my heart belongs to.
So why are you fixated on my past?
Those relationships mean nothing to me.
Those were a long time ago-
Before we found each other,
Before I knew what true love was.
You don’t like that I keep my old poems,
Those that were written to celebrate old romances,
Or to mourn past breakups and heartaches.
But I keep them because I like compiling them,
Because they’re my creative work,
Because poetry is my emotional outlet.
Not because I harbor any feelings for my exes.
That’s just ridiculous.
Their names don’t ignite any emotions or memories.
So love, please cast aside your insecurities
Because you’re the only one in my heart-
The one I belong to, the one I belong with.
Dec 14, 2015
Dec 14, 2015 at 12:42 AM UTC
Towards the hill
Where the sun rises
Ends curl up
Eager petals unfurl
Awaiting the daily process
Fragments
Have fallen upon this vessel
Letters have become shy
Tucking themselves
Between these thin blue lines
Color leeches out
Imagery that was once used
Finds another place to be
Peeling itself
Off of this screen
May 3, 2019
May 3, 2019 at 11:43 PM UTC
it's quite
unfair
isn't it?
you're just used to this kind of thing already.
this isn't your first gig.
you've done this several times already.
you've liked someone before
you've flirted with someone before
you've been on dates before
you've kissed girls before
you've been with someone before
you've broken up with girls before
you've already done this before.
what about me?
this was my first gig and i can't help but
still think about it.
it's already been like
what?
almost
five months now
since we've happened.
how are you dealing with this?
knowing you
you've most likely already forgotten about it.
you're completely over it like you are with the other girls.
i can't say i hate you for it.
if anything, i commend you and i genuinely wish i could do
the same thing.
i'm still kinda stuck in limbo.
thinking about how you first kissed me in the movie theater.
it was dark
only the screen to illuminate us.
then you kissed me once
and asked for another afterwards.
you're a charmer, you know?
of course you do, your ego reminds you everyday.
maybe i should hate you because of that.
because of your overinflated ego.
but i can't.
i really can't.
why can't i?
i say i'm over it, but i'm here writing about it.
if only you broke up with me for something else.
something i could despise you for and instantly forget that
we
ever happened.
but that didn't happen.
you broke up with me for something reasonable.
and until now, you continue to stay with me and support me in my endeavors
and i tend to do the same.
like i owe it to you or something.
i do.
you've helped me through so much.
i just wish i could forget that
we
were ever really a thing.
it's revolting to just
constantly
be bombarded with the past
while you get to act like it never happened.
you're good at this, aren't you?
you've mastered
moving on.
while i'm left to deal with the remnants of something
that has long happened.
it's really just
unfair.
Nov 5, 2019
Nov 5, 2019 at 11:29 PM UTC
I wish I could scrub you from my skin
But your fingerprints have seeped through to my soul
You left smudges, marks
on my windows
And now, I think I will never be free of you
You have ruined me for anyone else
I don't shine quite the same
And it's a shame
Because...
I've given so much of myself that now, I'm left with only pieces of who I once was
After you waltzed in
like the Devil in the pale moonlight
With your promises
as empty as they were
And your "I love you's"
even I knew they were lies as they fell from your lips
But I believed them
And I actually thought you were different
Silly me because I'll be spending a spell
Trying to wipe you away
I refuse to be dirtied by the likes of you
Sep 21, 2021
Sep 21, 2021 at 10:57 AM UTC
I pull a face when I see it
pop up on my screen
Another innocent "How are you?"
I leave it unread
Deleted
Of course, he has no idea
that I never wish
to see nor
hear from him again,
lest I begin to tremble
again
Aug 7, 2025
Aug 7, 2025 at 4:04 PM UTC
So many lives
I could be living,
and yet I’m still chained
to the one
that didn’t work out.
Aug 11, 2025
Aug 11, 2025 at 1:11 PM UTC