#painkiller
I don't want to be just a happy pill
or something that gives you euphoria
love is more than smiles and ***
the older you get the painful it is to know
So let me be the painkiller to every battle scar you have
The nicotine to your cigarette as it embraces your lungs more than I can
In a way where love can always be found
we need pain in order to know we are alive
Sep 17, 2018
Sep 17, 2018 at 4:03 PM UTC
When I feel pain
I just wish to know
Whose painkiller works?
Beyond anything
Nothing more.
Apr 10, 2018
Apr 10, 2018 at 9:48 PM UTC
I'm so over thinking
got pain in the brain
still refusing the pill
the doc does recommend to think now and then
but is not a big fan of over thinking again and again and
I say keep your advice - re
calibrate that device
Jan 26, 2017
Jan 26, 2017 at 2:32 PM UTC
I wake up with a headache
I knew I shouldn't have stayed up so late
'twas so foolish to hope that I'd understand your game
I know what I gotta do
Too lazy to get outta bed for you
And gulp it down with a glass of water to ease this pain
I see now what I saw before
I didn't know what it was for sure
Till it worked just like paracetamol
I woke up
There it was
Once that killed
Without a cause
Those dreams that turned into nightmares
Those arms that gave away time shares
Feels like history since the last time I needed help but still
There's life waiting to be celebrated
It's no longer so complicated
Thanks to my prayers from the day I wanted more from life
And for the small white pill
Nov 11, 2015
Nov 11, 2015 at 1:36 AM UTC
She took a Motrin
And she immediately dissolved
Because all she had was pain
Oct 19, 2015
Oct 19, 2015 at 1:33 PM UTC
You numb me
You soothe me
Like Xanax
Klonopin
I don't need meds with you
You're my own Mary Jane
I want you to be my ******
Take me so much higher
I know this isn't love
But, baby, you're my drug
Take the load off my shoulders
Weightlifter
You're like a drug, I'm not sober
Painkiller
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 9:18 AM UTC
life is rampant,
and when suppressed,
it can blossom into
a violent flow of emotions
that are stronger
than any painkiller
a doctor can prescribe.
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 5:48 PM UTC
The painkillers in my pocket rattle
with each step
toward the unreachable moon
in strange harmony
with the untainted snow
crunching
beneath my feet.
Two or three
aren't enough to numb me
anymore,
no longer enough
to shut my brain off
for a little bit...
to quiet these thoughts
that stalk me
and whisper
how no one would find me
if I just lay here
on this nameless road
with a mouth full of pills,
face to the stars,
and die in the arms
of a snow angel
who'll carry me away to a heaven
I only believe in when I'm high.
I squeeze the bottle in my pocket
almost to the point of crushing it
as I turn away from the wind
and look back at the light of
my grandpa's cottage
drawing my attention
away from my midnight daydream
and the moon
that hangs like a sliver bullet
stained with the blood of monsters
from my mind.
How many times
have I walked this path high
praying to God's gleaming eye
for death,
as it winks slowly
with darkness
as if indicating something
beyond my comprehension...
All I know is
the cottage is warm
and I should go back.
Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 4:52 PM UTC
French inhaling cigs,
Chasing the burn
With mixed drinks,
The nights oh so cold.
Who would've known,
That I'd find myself alone,
This night is ****
And I can't believe,
That I'd drown my dreams.
Nothing is as it seems,
Staring at the bottle
I'm just tryna find relief.
Chain smoking cigs,
Cause my lack of ****
Numbing the pain
Just so I won't see -
.....what's down memory lane
Dec 7, 2014
Dec 7, 2014 at 10:15 AM UTC
Would you miss me when I'm gone?
I'll fall into all this all over again just to be burnt to pieces.
Don't you dare tell me what life is.
Cause I really don't want to ever find out.
Would you need me when I'm gone?
Or was I another notch in the wall that you knocked down.
I'm already waiting to fall down, again.
Don't you dare tell me what to think.
Because this time I don't care.
I'll burn all this again just to watch it in your eyes.
I won't wait for you when the last stand happens.
I'll wait down here while you're falling.
I'll prove them all wrong, push me down, all these years have amounted to this.
Let's prove them wrong.
Stay awake, it'll be worth it. You'll watch the sun come up again.
We'll be weightless in the dawn.
You don't know who I am, let me go on living.
Fifteen years to be pushed up to the edge.
But it's my blood and in my soul to watch all this drop down. Let me be the one to numb this out. I'll be your painkiller.
Jul 15, 2014
Jul 15, 2014 at 10:28 PM UTC