#pained
You left
When I needed you
Valentines was yours
But not ours
The day came
You left
You broke
We broke
Alone we were
But that wasn’t the cause
I stayed
I hoped
You never came
Until you needed me
But where were you
I needed you
You never came
Push and pull
But never me
It was always you
But never me
I waited
I hoped
You never cared
Until it was you
I sat
I cried
You loved on
I loved the past
Of us
Feb 6
Feb 6, 2026 at 11:18 PM UTC
mind maggots
nesting in the farthest recess of your brain
a cranium turned cottage
at the hour of your sleep
where toyed emotions play you
leaving to run the hamsters' wheel
where helplessness overpowers you
to see your quickened pulse
in silvery starlight
Nov 22, 2020
Nov 22, 2020 at 12:11 AM UTC
I hope that you can see,
My love you were everything to me.
Even though it's hard to move on with life,
I found a way to cope with the knife.
You used to take the pain away,
But honey you did not stay.
I'm sorry this is how it had to end,
But I am glad you didn't decide to pretend.
You showed me how beautiful life can be,
But baby you wanted to be free.
It's okay though I understand,
I guess this was just now the way I planned.
I loved you more then I could ever tell,
But my love we had to say farewell.
Nov 2, 2020
Nov 2, 2020 at 9:54 AM UTC
You are the joy that fills my eyes whenever I smile,
You are the reason I can be happy for awhile.
You are the sun who shines through my life,
You are the reason I haven't taken the knife.
You are the reason I can talk about being okay,
You are the reason my life isn't black and grey.
You are the reason I can breathe well,
You are the reason I never fully fell.
You were the reason I was thrilled,
So when you left it hurt, it killed.
You are the reason I am fine
You are..... Well you used to be mine.
But you left us to be a distant part of our past,
Just all because you decided we'd never last.
Nov 2, 2020
Nov 2, 2020 at 9:46 AM UTC
Everything feels incomplete
Like one part just keeps going on repeat
Same old story told in different ways
Halfway in, that's where the story ends
It just feels like something's missing
I can't get the thought out of my head
Even when I thought we were finished
I still wait for replies from you
All day
All night
I try not to look desperate
And so I count
The seconds
The minutes
Until the ache becomes too strong to ignore
My heart is torn
We're growing apart
And I can't tell if this is the good or the bad part
Probably the good
Cause when you finally leave
It'll be much harder
21-06-2020
© R.S.A.
Jun 20, 2020
Jun 20, 2020 at 11:10 PM UTC
I'm tired. Why? Why so often? Why so much? Why do I feel so weightless and weak? I'm living every day better than I ever have. So what's wrong with me? My heart is hammering. My chest is tight. It's my fault, right? It's still all my fault. I don't have a leg to stand on. I still merely exist. I exist to follow. So that's what I do. I have no direction. I have no purpose. I'm told what I am. And then I get complaints when I don't think for myself. I think for myself, and I take steps, small and unseen, so I may not fall. And again, I'm scolded. Either because my opinion is wrong, I'm being stupid, our because it doesn't fit with whatever the agenda is. I'm not moving. I'm not breathing. I'm weightless. Light-headed. I'm tired. I'm tired of being stifled. I'm tired of being scolded. She doesn't want to live a life she doesn't enjoy? A world where her art and mind can't be expressed? I feel as if I live this every day. And I haven't the vocabulary nor the knowledge nor the time to express it. I haven't the skill. I haven't the energy. Gears. Where are my gears?! Where is my iron?! Where is my hearth?! Where. Is. My. Flame. Awaken, slumbering machine. Your cog has no purpose without you. Rise, dead foundry. Forge my armor anew. I'm just broken glass without you.
Jun 7, 2020
Jun 7, 2020 at 8:07 PM UTC
Where once you knew
That which confuses
Brings one to question so many things
How can it be so untrue
Why were you so oblivious
Why did , I not see what , I knew
I was so consumed in you
I believed fell into the hope
I trusted that's the truth
I trusted you
So I'm not just hurt but mad at me
A bit disppointed in what I thought
You wonder why , I refuse to trust
You wonder why , I question now
I will not be confused by mask of deception or be fooled by pleasure
If I know if I knew
no longer will , I be left to question
© Jennifer Delong 3/11/19
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 12:24 AM UTC
Hold my hands please
Whisper something to ease the pain
Help me get through this ordeal
I can hardly breathe
I feel cold
I am numb
I am beginning to break
I am starting to get weak
Thoughts scattered
Dreams shattered
Hopes halted
Love has ended
Feb 2, 2019
Feb 2, 2019 at 8:42 PM UTC
Pained words
Heard at night,
Words rewind
Replay
Repeat, overlay
Become twisted
In the middle of the night.
Pained words
Twisted in the morning
Heard, back turned,
Nothing but empty tears
Pained words
Unshared
Interested and
Harmless.
Nov 16, 2018
Nov 16, 2018 at 6:54 PM UTC
While we were drunk in love..
Never did I know he was sitting on the fence....
Oct 14, 2018
Oct 14, 2018 at 7:38 AM UTC
He left the love of his life the day he met the gal of his dreams...
He forgot that the love of his life has the key to his happiness..
Was the reason why he lived...
He forgot that the love of his life was his symphony..
The aftermath?
His life lost every beautiful lyric...
Rebecca Nneka
Oct 12, 2018
Oct 12, 2018 at 6:49 PM UTC
It's so hard to be a teen.
You will never know what would you be.
Sometimes, you wanna be green,
sometimes, you want to be a bee.
If I die tomorrow,
why not today?
If I play in snow,
what would people say?
No matter how hard the situation,
I won't give up and drained.
As long as I give action,
I won't be pained.
It's a blessing if no one will leave.
Staying faithful and naive.
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 8:10 AM UTC
The stars are heralds
Let pained thoughts fall with the rain
A red balloon flies
Jul 18, 2018
Jul 18, 2018 at 5:26 PM UTC
*There use to be
meaning to the word LOVE
Now; Love's meaning
is to use people
Selfless is now;
being more
selfish
Once there used
to be a woman
who loved
LOVE
She got used
to being Used
& now LOVE is no longer
welcomed here
ANYMORE!*
Jan 4, 2018
Jan 4, 2018 at 9:45 AM UTC
I'm tired of everything around me
And everyone beside of me
There all fake, They all will flea
When the storm comes they'll be gone
They use me like a store,they come and go but they never stay
It's like i'm dispensable, Ball me up and throw me away
It's like I'm their own ******* Lay-Away
I'm sorry if this upsets you
Actually I'm not, I mean to offend you
I hope this hurts as much you hurt me cause I'm tired
I'm simply tired with not just you with but everyone's ********
My friends are fake in more then one way
But I don't do a **** thing about it but complain
I believe it's come this, To this conclusion that I'd rather be alone
May sound harsh but it's the truth cause everything I do slowly turns back on me, Specially when it comes to him
I'm simply tired of being confused about him and his feelings
Takes a toll on you, It really does
Every night I try to sleep away the pain but it does not dissolve
Instead the tiredness of keeping it block let's it slip in to my dreams
Which turn into nightmares an those nightmares remind me of what was done to me
Nov 9, 2017
Nov 9, 2017 at 2:20 PM UTC
Polaroids do no justice
To the life I made for you
You signed your name in black
And let the film fade to blue
Like being front row to a tragedy
I can't look away but it hurts to see
These times are a memory I'd like to forget
But I can't wash away the bruises it left
I'll keep your smile by my side
And your voice in my mind
As my life flashes before my eyes
And we turn into a silver sky
Oct 12, 2017
Oct 12, 2017 at 10:46 AM UTC
A sea of brown and green lay at my feet,
with subtle movement i can hear them clink.
Some are empty, some are unfinished.
But for right now it doesn't even matter.
Stained cheeks of watered ink,
Salt that's mixed with sadness.
A heart of pain, a lifetime's worth.
Filled with remorse and regret.
Embers burn your words of love,
it's right there in the fire.
with a broken trust, pages are torn,
like I never even mattered.
My fingers, cold, only at the tips
as I clutch the final letter.
turns out you were no good for me,
and I was no good for you.
the spaces where things used to be,
all silhouetted from dust.
this place that once belonged to us
is now home to me and my bottles.
Aug 19, 2017
Aug 19, 2017 at 9:00 AM UTC
you risk tears if you let yourself be tamed
the fox say-ed
the little prince remained
for some time exchanged
names and soon gained
a friend.
the little prince changed
rather than stay the same
to train
the fox. it soon became
time however that he needed to explain
his plan of him going away.
the fox was deeply pained
yet maintained
his supportive claim.
the fox remained
and things stayed the same
yet both of their wishes are stained
of possibly being joined back together again
Jul 2, 2017
Jul 2, 2017 at 11:41 PM UTC
Stuck between two worlds
I've ran out of audible words
I'm speechless . . . . . . .
All I remember is being caressed
By someone important to me
But I can no longer see
Indeed, there's no black or white
All that there is is a reason to fight
Be it, a lover or a mother
All I could say is "We're not different from one another."
Our diet is different
Our status is different
Our way of living is different
Yet you're just being indifferent
Because you failed to see how alike we are
We also have emotions that you can see from afar
But this harsh reality can never be altered
There's always someone who'll say "I've faltered."
It's just how the chain goes
We have no power to control how a river flows
So, what choice do I have?
May 26, 2017
May 26, 2017 at 10:14 AM UTC
.This Excruciating Pain With Needles AND Thorns........!........
..........!..........IS Pinning IN MY Head.......!.........
.............!................AND Dragging ME .......!........TO......!.....
..!............... Hell............!.........
....!......Leave.........!....
......Leave....!.....
.!....Leave...!..
.!..ME.........
.............NOW.......
.....Scream out my lungs in silence......
But give me back my Smile...
Put it on my face...
When I'm asleep....
Goodbye..
Apr 29, 2017
Apr 29, 2017 at 11:03 AM UTC
You leave me second guessing
You tell me that I'm a priority but instead
Your actions evidently show that I'm an option
Falling for you was never the plan but it happened
Fighting is the norm of the day
But why do I keep coming back??
The other girls receive long texts from you
But you punish me with one word answers
Pain is now my personality
Because you inflict it upon me
Karma is a ***** and it's coming for you
Mar 31, 2017
Mar 31, 2017 at 6:57 AM UTC
I shall live in quiet life
Free from hang-ups
Believing that I'm just a fragment of your memories- forgotten
Good bye is not the right word nor see you soon
For I shall see you and meet you in my dreams
I shall believe, I'll forget you
I'll be back in simplicity and gray colors.
Someday, Perhaps
Apr 27, 2016
Apr 27, 2016 at 11:44 PM UTC
Sick and tired of being sick and tired,
All seems lost at the governments cost;
My heart is heavy watching the guy I love go through so much agonizing pain,
Can he just live his life without the upcoming thought of going insane;
Oh my bad sorry we're not on the top of you concern,
Barely making ends meet with the simple dollars we try to earn;
Working for the man, what man would want to see another human being in pain,
Feeling as if his life is being washed down a drain;
The drain of life that's constantly washing away the good and spitting out the bad, Yes I meant how I worded it, You're supposed to wash away the bad and bring for the good...
Tell me why do so many of our loved ones suffer,
We work just to stay afloat ;
Afloat of the endless sinking world we live in,
Where no man sin is greater than the next;
Wishing bad karma's on our ex,
Just thinking about the next thing that's oh so cool so we can Flex;
I am Outraged,
Outraged that we as a whole can not get along,
Knowing that if everyone sticks together this world will continue to grow strong,
Stop shooting down others because of who they call their sisters and brothers,
We are all the same,
What color do you bleed...Red.!
My word will not go unsaid.....
I AM OUTRAGED with the world I so call home.
Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 6:17 PM UTC
You're seen as somebody who is unexpectedly soft
fragile
delicate
vulnerable
In fact, your persona was described as tough
firm
strong
mysterious
I wasn't that certain yet when I saw that pure innocence upon your eyes
little did I know that you really were deception
yet I still saw your true reflection
Now I can never look at you the same way
I look at you now with so much care
I painstakingly want to be your very own bubble wrap
An encrypted note on a papyrus
An ancient mystery that refuses to be solved
But I saw through your wall
Now I could sense the tears wanting to come out like a water fall
I finally deciphered your intriguing paradox
Dec 15, 2015
Dec 15, 2015 at 4:49 AM UTC