#outgrown
I suppose I should repose
explore new clothes since I've outgrown
every and anything in this ratchet city
every day I wish to make it out before I am 50
before my bones and motivation crack
before my smile lines and crow's feet are all I have
watching my sanity slip like my grandson down the waterslide
oh, why God why, did you never let me fly?
Was I caged or fearful? Was it staged or virile?
Was I ever able or just another one of your fables?
the man that would never because he never believed he could
Feb 9, 2022
Feb 9, 2022 at 8:44 AM UTC
~
*This level crossing--
stick,
sand,
and broken glass,
from naming to numbering,
names tend to define,
numbers are neutral,
they count the roads, follow their failings--
flow,
force,
and absorb,
dictated by a headlight,
I feel nearer to the surface of us,
motion made of visible memories, arrested in space,
mere unorganized explosions of random energy,
and therefore meaningless--
to fall in love with our progress,
and yet be outgrown by it.*
~
Mar 10, 2021
Mar 10, 2021 at 7:33 PM UTC
Hi
It seems like you no longer need me
That's okay, I know I no longer fit. You've outgrown me, worn me out, and I do look tired.
We've gone on many adventures you see, to places we thought we'd never reach, heights we'd never climb, views that were only sublime
Were you tired along the way? I bet you were. Tell me, don't be shy. We've come a very long way, you and I
But don't worry about me if you'd like a change. Another may carry you longer, and even farther, you may even feel you've grown stronger.
You'd go many paths and crossroads, rivers and seas, upon many paths right through the trees
And that's okay, because I've served my purpose after all, when you jumped and stomped and walked and ran, i took the fall
But if you want to go on adventures again, I'll be there, in all the places you'd expect me to be. They won't be the same, you may not feel the originality
You may feel bored with it,
And all it would be is familiar
Never feeling the same kind of free
But look, see, I have no holes in me,
I look tired but there's still durability
If you fuss and twitch, i may still mold to your feet
Because you were meant to go the distance
And i was meant to adjust
But that's just the way it is
And can never be the way it was.
Sep 21, 2017
Sep 21, 2017 at 12:22 PM UTC
this city is scattered with
the exoskeletons of skins i've outgrown.
it's strange to grow out of someone else,
the skin we shared for years, months,
no longer holding me captive.
i don't remember
how or when or why
our souls split.
all i know now is that
my heart no longer misses it.
the hopeless mortality gets to me,
because i don't want to let go of you
but the utopia is out of reach.
i'll forever be shedding my skin
and leaving it behind
and watching you get smaller over my shoulder
as you barely mourn the loss of a friend.
May 22, 2021
May 22, 2021 at 3:39 PM UTC
I am too full of moments.
they pile up in my chest
like unopened letters,
all addressed
in my own handwriting.
I don’t remember
writing them,
just the weight
of needing to.
There’s a version of me
in every room I’ve outgrown,
still standing there,
still waiting
for something to change
that already did.
I visit them sometimes,
more than I should.
I trace their outlines
like old bruises,
pressing just hard enough
to prove to myself,
they still ache.
Apr 21
Apr 21, 2026 at 11:24 PM UTC