#outburst
stay, will you?
just in silence
I KNOW!
its awkward
and im sorry
HAVE YOU SEEN THIS!?
sorry-
i dont know where that came from
I DID THIS THING!
sorry
wait- dont go
im sorry
ill try harder
to be silent
LOOK AT THIS PICTURE!
sorry
i need to put my phone away…
i know
im sorry
always sorry
ill be quieter
for longer
im sorry
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 4:48 PM UTC
I'm about to burst;
It's getting worst;
But they're here;
I'm trying to endure;
I'll shed all these tears,
Later.
Feb 10, 2021
Feb 10, 2021 at 5:43 AM UTC
I'm about to go insane,
Because of this pain.
I keep thinking of things,
That would become my sin.
It's hard, I'm getting tired.
Jan 26, 2021
Jan 26, 2021 at 7:55 AM UTC
If I were to say
about my day
There need only three words
And three words only
Such an outburst of profanity,
but they keep me away from insanity
So if you ask me "How was your day?",
there'd only be three words for me to say;
Holy
Moly
Guacamole :D
Sep 19, 2019
Sep 19, 2019 at 6:14 AM UTC
Feelings are like ****
I tried to flush them, gin, Jack, ***
but **** is **** and with enough liquid it doesn't sink.
It comes to the surface.
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 8:35 PM UTC
I feel like I'm made of cheap glass
I have no purpose, I'm not of high class
And even though I'm of no use
That will never make a good excuse
Pardon my outburst, I'm containing my thoughts
And each one that goes can never be caught
They all burst from my mind like a brilliant volcano
Each one setting off a light and faint glow
I feel like I'm absolutely fake
I put on a smile because if I'm happy, that's all it takes
It doesn't hurt them if I'm sad, no one even cares
Because when I'm sad, they just feel the need to stare
I don't pay attention to them because I know deep in my mind
All of them have no idea of the things I think of, they're blind
Each thought darker than the last
Remembering all the bad times in the past
Each thought bubbles up and creates paranoia
Each one branches out like a giant sequoia
I hate each and every one for they swarm me like flies
I can't explain how much it hurts, but each sharp sting of pain I despise
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 3:49 PM UTC
Brainstorm cometh, damning frontal hemisphere
jamming lookout, noggin perched, roiling thinking
uber wayfaring zealot, drills legendary phalanx.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Writer's block afflicts Das scribe,
who **** now stricken supine
adept dull livery sub par excellence
his gold standard worse
thus, another day
to slog thru arduous process
crafting admirable verse
wrestling behemoth loosed ******
dodging enfilade broadcast sos terse.
N'er easy chore to fashion
acceptable word worth poem to whit
staring at flickering
accursed cursor doth blank stare visit
flash flooding warning saturated
gray matter fist sized unit
groundswell burgeoning leveed banks
barging signals transmit
urgent army corps of engineers
to reroute via sluice, sans surfeit
apprentice longshoreman
doth double duty
as grammarian sought to retrofit
arduous struggle ensues, where drowning
affects consummation
strong temptation quit
ditch ching progress made,
thus far in hot pursuit
mind comfortably numb
stream of consciousness
submerges concentration
entrenched deep posit
craftiness sentenced to punctuate
disequilibrium doth outwit
venerably beaded trademark
Scottish matted flair
abandoned unfinished poem
left forever stranded orbit
zero escape velocity
zinging, unsprung,
pinging mindscape nonprofit
able endeavor reflecting zeitgeist
bombarding Messerschmitt
undermining, strafing, disabling
cutting crew rescue outer limit
faint feint blinking in the twilight zone.
Jun 1, 2018
Jun 1, 2018 at 6:28 PM UTC
No need for *****
Just chaos,
For it drowns us in passion.
No need for dope,
Just chaos,
For it makes us high.
No need for peace,
For Chaos,
Brings our hearts together.
Aug 27, 2017
Aug 27, 2017 at 6:37 AM UTC
Circulating around our bodies.
Emanating within us.
Blood contains the action of life as without death becomes apparent.
It's otherworldly appearance striking fear to the eye.
A distance remaining as hot blood can so easily turn cold.
Heartless.
Temper unpredictable, no reason for its outburst.
But still the desire lets itself be known.
Amounting to more than your will, the crave, the hunger, the need and the unhealthy obsession.
But always the danger, the lust and the calming comfortable ambience it presents with its presence.
Jul 3, 2017
Jul 3, 2017 at 2:40 PM UTC
Once, a thought went past my mind
Which was to leave the past behind.
I thought if it would be of any gain
But all of it was in vain.
Somehow I got over it
Just to find myself in an empty pit
To witness the darkness all around
Until in her, a light I found.
A glimpse of her
Would make my heart pound
As if I was a free bird flying high in the air
Invisible to someone here on the ground.
Seeing her secretly all day
Gave me happiness profound.
They said I was deeply in love,
Love, way out of bounds.
Her eyes had a pious look
A look so serene
Splendid as they were
No less than the Irish meadows green.
I dived deep into those beautiful eyes
Wondering if the secret they did hide had even been seen.
They were like an unread book
Seeking to be looked within.
To find a picture of mine in her eyes that gleam
Was the blissful moment of which I would dream.
At times, I saw her make a sad face
When she felt all troubled
And in my mind prayers for her happiness
Was all that I mumbled.
Her beautiful smile had a touch divine
So lovable that even words can’t define.
I wish I could tell her what I felt for her
Afraid if she would be friends ever after.
I wished to run away
Wanted those feelings to disappear
But by then, I already knew the way
A part of my soul would be with her
Always here.
I wonder if I could tell her some day
That I thought of her night and day.
I was so attached to her
Like the cold icy winter and shades of grey.
So this happens to be my life-story,
Nevertheless, there is nothing to worry.
I just hope she will someday be mine
Only then I would believe
That up there beyond the clouds there is some power divine.
Jan 22, 2017
Jan 22, 2017 at 11:33 AM UTC
YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME
Hahaha
Surprise surprise you'd think so
Oh
Sorry I dont think I said it right
You think you know me?
Hahaha
Surprise surprise you thought you did
Oh
You talked to me for a bit
Learnt my name
What I like and who I am
**YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME?!
HA!**
Dont demean our relationship with pathetic lies
YOU
Saw what I wanted to show you
YOU
Know all in which I've told you
Surprise surprise
YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME
...you don't...
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 8:25 PM UTC
I’ve come to realise
That I find Lake Klinwel boring;
Ignoring the skies,
The flight of birds
And their curving dives.
This lake, drowned by eyes,
Instead choosing to reflect static towers
That are monuments to Machiavelli,
Where the financially ambitious
And their crisp paper voices spend
Their days, evenings.
*Money in the bank for tomorrow
Plan ahead, plan ahead*,
That what the lake said
When I visited.
What freedom
Such a wonder of nature
Has to manipulate and
Reinterpret the harshness
In lines that ascend until they
Scrape the sky,
That tears, simple as tissue.
And all the while,
Cigarette butts,
In an abstract delinquency,
Revise community buildings and council offices
Where surely they dream of hole punch
And green lights and confirmation and deadline for appeal
Whilst bureaucrats administer more paper cuts to the teal-blooded sky and Risk Assessments have given a score to death—
Awarding it a number five.
The lake can surely stay awake
Just long enough to show me ripples
And normality when I drop in a stone,
Just a sound that
Confirms this mind is still my own,
That the waking world is known to me,
Dreams are dreams alone,
They are the ripples reaching the sea
From my daring stone.
To be beside a lake, lyrically alone,
Brings a pain that is most obvious and physical
And so I ask once more for the
Most minute of tides for my sore, tired eyes—
Just a ripple of two to the other side
Where I see a figure,
Where I see blue eyes,
Where I see extravagant dress and
Hair so shapely they say and yet
I couldn't care less.
It could be a wig
But the wind tells me it is not,
And her nose sits among a gang of features,
Knowing surely it turns heads—
Growing heavier with each turned.
The lake spat on my shoe and continued
To reflect the tall commercial towers
Whilst this green space is vast,
Boasting bowers where I sit with a pencil
And I see the birds of paradise
Impressively dancing and dancing impressively.
Sublime in fact!
But I think they are trespassers
We should kindly send them back
Their hearts are excessively small
And no longer in paradise,
Not close to it at all.
I’m done with you, lake!
Lake Klinwell, lazy deceptive mirror!
Are you depressed?
Disenchanted?
Do I notice how you are growing ever thinner?
I heard news that our
Town is crumpling in certain corners,
It’s folding in two like a map closing.
People are dreaming with recurring themes
And the flowers bow their heads
Just in case.
Oh, you are a soft, sensitive lake,
Let me dip my feet.
Do not fear for the town we share,
Do not quake, dear lake,
And enjoy your daylit hours
In the company of the trees and flowers.
I beg you though:
One day,
When I need it most,
Reflect for me a memory:
Diana and I on the corrugated coast,
Careless on the rocks,
I failed to enjoy it at the time through fear
but she leapt, crossed a gap to get to me.
She landed with a kiss.
And if you could add a sunset,
The weather was terrible.
Jun 14, 2016
Jun 14, 2016 at 8:48 PM UTC
Ngayong gabi
Titingin ako sa langit
Para itanong sa mga bituin
Ang mga salitang hindi mo maririnig
Dahil. Punyeta.
Ayaw-- takot na takot--
Akong ika'y mahalin.
Oct 7, 2015
Oct 7, 2015 at 8:31 PM UTC
Should I settle for the fact
That you are just settling
For me, my darling?
And not remember
The way your arms yearned
For my embrace in the early morning.
Aug 13, 2015
Aug 13, 2015 at 12:05 PM UTC
I hope someday I'll find a way out of here
A way that would show me how to conquer my fear
I put my head on the pillow to rest
But that's the only thing I do best
They said I suffer from a brain trauma
Leading to all this emotional drama
I sit right there staring at a wall
Trying to find a way, trying to find a door
Everyone keeps thinking I'm a villain
Driven by hate into my own prison
Their problem is,they never listen
Listen to my words, read what I write
Because that is what gets me through the night
A complete freeze, I'm not in ease
I think I'm sick by my own disease
Pulsing its way through my veins
There's this force, breaking all my chains
Now i know what my brain sustains
I have reached my absolute zero
From now on I'll be my own hero
Feb 27, 2015
Feb 27, 2015 at 3:46 PM UTC
I let the hate overtake me like a bull chasing a fool, my horns focused deep into your chest, my anger becomes my tool. Taking a step back I can see how much I really hurt myself, I feel so gone, am i sadistic or something far beyond and more wrong?
Watching you bleed, I still feel nothing but hatred in myself so I'll peel off your face and separate you from your spine, I can feel something clinging on but its just too hard to find.
Perhaps this is an act of greed or maybe i'm just a monster that needs to feed. You're so deceiving, you throw around trust just to see how long it takes to rust, you're so misleading, you laugh in the face of your creation before you give a slow castration, you deserve all the pain your receiving.
May 16, 2014
May 16, 2014 at 8:29 PM UTC