#option
a heart in flux
a change in motion
from hatred
to love
always
the better option
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 9:17 AM UTC
I love you in a way
that feels bigger than I know how to hold.
But every time I look at you,
there’s this quiet fear
sitting behind the feeling—
like I’m already bracing
for the moment you walk away.
I know I’m not the only girl
who gets your attention.
I see it in the way you talk,
the way your focus drifts,
like your heart hasn’t picked a place
to land.
And I start wondering
what they have that I don’t.
What they can give you
that I can’t seem to be.
I love you so much
I have dreams about you.
But in every one,
you’re standing beside someone else,
smiling at her
the way I wish you’d smile at me.
I wake up with that same ache—
loving you,
but feeling like I’m already losing you
to people who haven’t even tried yet.
I don’t want to compete.
I don’t want to feel like an option.
I just want to be enough
for you to stay.
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 10:43 AM UTC
I like you more than I planned to,
more than I meant to let happen.
And I tell myself I’m being reasonable,
that I don’t own your time,
don’t get to claim your attention,
don’t get to mind who else you talk to.
But I do mind.
I notice the way your phone lights up,
the names I recognize,
the way your attention drifts
like it doesn’t belong anywhere for long.
I don’t want to be selfish.
I don’t want to be the girl
who expects something
that was never promised.
But wanting you to choose me first,
wanting to be the only one
you give that smile to—
that’s exactly what selfish looks like.
And maybe I am.
Because liking you
has turned me into someone
who hopes quietly,
watches closely,
and pretends not to care
when I really, really do.
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 9:43 AM UTC
i hate the process of getting to know each other,
if you loved me
you would know
that you want to be with me.
you are simply playing,
playing with the choices.
i’m not a option,
i am free.
Apr 26, 2025
Apr 26, 2025 at 5:27 AM UTC
And finally she walked away from the waiting shed called option.
Jul 22, 2022
Jul 22, 2022 at 7:14 AM UTC
I hate it
When death becomes
An option
I like it
When death is not
The only option
Jun 19, 2022
Jun 19, 2022 at 6:09 AM UTC
If one can't understand
The world
With two legs
Stand on one
One will
Aug 26, 2021
Aug 26, 2021 at 4:27 AM UTC
The event, perhaps
advent, first ever any thing,
where nothing had been, not a thought.
I think.
Then, when nothing was over
and everything we know now,
began, light
was not the first thing, the idea was.
Be for
Yes.
Word one. Hmmmmm or um or am
it may have been, I heard from
a transcribbled myth
or a legend as old as any
meme-level memory mortals have
made-up from remaining
tidbits taught to any next gen thing.
Look.
Assume light is as fast as the expansion,
couple of Planksecs,
and it is at the edge of ever,
never before,
never busting beyond the bubble we be in,
dead center,
the physical middle of ever,
continuous now,
nothing to stop us imagining we,
disagree, now, after all's been said and done,
and things run on,
de iffing chaos as the live evil force itself,
ever teaching any mind co-operation
in time… swirling beauty in bands of invisible
galaxies, barely seen even now, we
see what we are told we see,
enhanced
and expanded to
original intent, at the scale of precision, which
now requires
of those who wish
to know truth init's entirety,
faith in the wits who invented the lenses
we imagine we see through into-ity ever
………..
This day began this way. Everything already,
readable, as it were, once, with us,
before our story folded,
stapled and refolded and bent to allow
the data-based
mass enlightenment I deal with now,
mere data,
knowledge, knowns known more
than I may think or ask,
available on our distant viewing apparatchik
network of nova sensorium's newest equations
that balance at perfectly predictable
infinity… or do not work.
Pop. Bubble after bubble falling
through the quantum foam.
Come on home.
Live and learn, do the math.
Or wait to see
somethings never mattered
up to now, and now, you know,
you did, some how. That's good.
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here we are, after all.
On course, of course;
here has more spectrums to be on.
here has more curves to miss,
here has
turns that twist us back to
now,
sudden- seeming
now, still
wow
is near the only value add
we ever hope to hear.
Cold or hot or just
right, fine
sifted patterns from the echo, wa wa wa
did we get so serious we lost the place
we held
positive on a negative pole,
an aberrant position
erring ever from
the straight point to point pattern
of pro gression to non
aggressive agreement in the we we were
- per haps, as babies we were thought
coyotes, little devils of trickery wu,
so we were swaddled in goat' wool,
to provoke this itching and pre
vent this whole idea, you
thinking wild,
unpacked
unglossed abnormal canine thought…
like a dog, dreaming of the chase.
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Only chase real rabbits, that's
Greyhound wisdom.
Pookas are always worth the chase,
real or otherwise, if you see one,
chase it.
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On the bus,
or off, Cassidy was a character,
sure as any in literature,
an archetypical untamed man,
crazy,
by most accounts, possessed
with a wish to die young,
and be famous for ever having been
a penniless drunkard's form of a man,
an unnatural scion of lost and beaten men.
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So, that spirit lingered… in my past that
ran to catch me here
today, in the pattern recognizant
aha, I know
this voice… I knew that spirit,
merry prankster splashing in Burro Creek,
before the bridge existed,
oblivious to quick sand my mother
warned me to be aware of,
as she had learned the hard way,
…remember
there is solid rock below the mud,
hold your breath.
--- a new me --
Burro Creek, survivor of the crossing,
since ever was.
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Survival is always good news.
Mission accomplished, it is finished, fini.
Peace on earth, good will
to ward men {wombed and un}.
That is a message, an angel, judge it.
They call that
The gospel, in my realm.
It is finished is considered grace.
The truth makes free, grace makes useful.
Infinite grace, with a bit of funny math
for making nextifiy tests, t'
keep the kids sharp.
-- slow lane -- this is…
The good spell, I tell my self I know.
News,
from nearer than we can imagine
possible, posited
in a place called here, at that
point, nearer than we
thought, here
where I exist, the ego me, floating
on that same old ocean of opinions,
lapping at my shore.
This must be that sea, they think
is where all eventualities
congregate to wait
for everything
to finish the pattern, to the nick
in the stick that told us when
to begin, this
once, once more.
I was convinced.
I was never invincible, to my defense,
I built the wall that hides my best
from pride's envaluing scheme,
best of the lot,
without spot or blemish,
make this the one we take,
leave the ring-straked, spotted and speckled.
Holy is pure. Pure is white.
Uh-oh.
This is where we find the stragglers,
carrying the cross of Jesus,
while marching,
as to war.
We sang that song in public school,
when music was a given need
each allegiant took to heart,
Onward Christian Soldiers,
-- mind wanders
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7 trombones, and 10 clarinets
led the big parade, with one bass drum
marching as to war,
to destroy what Jesus did not finish,
followed by the lesser corps,
of boy scouts,
with only fife and snare.
Then came the grand equestrians,
all who owned a silver saddle,
passed as knights from when
our fathers stole this land.
My family had the contract to follow up
with shovels and barrows on wheels.
We were the signal for
next phase, of hell's a-poppin-days…
the Burro Barbecue in Bullhead City.
Long ago, there was one red light across the river,
a porch light on a trailer, behind Laughlin's first bar.
---------- Faux Nostalgian
algia alegian re alegian pain of-
pain felt,
fear of-
fear felt,
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Great line in the movie, Boss Level…
geek says "Childless by choice."
Hero replies, "whose choice?"
--- Badfinger - half of them chose death over survival.
--- if it matters when you know
--- I skipped the 70's … so the soundtrack's new…
I heard about you…
looking back in time on a line I never walked,
as it were,
on first pass through the realm of ever afters
flashing
past lights shone, blinking,
settings seeming chaotic in tri-colored quarks
insisting
it all works out.
Rock 'n'roll f'ever, a post-pubescent poets dream.
First, learn the game,
then learn the rule it rode in on. Who is teaching
whom
the next best
move. Ai do believe my loop expanded now
you are here with me
in the mix
confused as reason for knowing quarks come in colors.
Love comes in colors, too.
Could be coincidence.
--- Old Osiris, man, he hard t'kill.
Ham 'n' Evans, not so hard. They lost the will to live.
The seventies ate many couldabins.
Freewill or fate, knowing was a factor.
Money had a finger init right, bad, the whole unbitten apple
idea attempting to tweak the future
from the past…
how long did those trips last? Radioman,
can you imagine,
all along its been this one song
?
Taste, and see. know you know.
sapient (adj.)"wise," late 15c.
(early 15c. as a surname)- {eh, a family name?},
from Latin sapere "to taste, have taste, be wise,"
from PIE root *sep- (1)
"to taste, perceive"
(source also of
Old Saxon an-sebban
"to perceive, remark,"
Old High German antseffen,
Old English sefa
"mind, understanding, insight").
From <https://www.etymonline.com/search?q=sapient>
Nothing eastern in the idea. Makes me think
what if,
long ago, knowing was a given, not a taken thing?
Isha, you may call her Eve,
or Mito-mom;
she's our most recent common ancestor,
after her,
as a species, we
came to be namers who knew, sapient sapient,
the dominant multicellular life force
on earth. We are her mitochondrial line,
there are no others.
Users of new knowns,
conscience guided
**** Sapien squared, that's us,
tuned to a thought that better
is never worse,
try… learning to talk with no one to talk to.
Imagine that.
… back in garden after the trick,
she knew…
--- C'mon, taste, you've no idea what death is.
She persuaded him to taste.
And there the story verges from the one you know.
Mar 7, 2021
Mar 7, 2021 at 9:04 PM UTC
Bravery
didn't come easily to her
she could see
every reason to
not be brave
bravery
wast the last plan
the last option
that she would take
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 7:46 PM UTC
Let me go if I am an option,
Let me go if I am not worth your time,
Let me go if I don't matter to you,
Let me go if I mean nothing to you,
Let me go if you can't make time for me,
Let me go if you are ingoring me,
Let me go if we aren't fated to be,
Let me go and you can be free.
Sep 24, 2020
Sep 24, 2020 at 12:06 AM UTC
Styling someone is never the option for truth too supplement facts, altogether! It's probably because truth towards an option of essentially giving someone such an "option" as too never style them (first and foremost)... Is simply because those very facts are supplemented too such a degree, that everything falls apart from both decision-making and choice! Logic doesn't rule anymore! Nor does a sense for reasoning, either. Therefore, what are you truly left with then...? Easy. As it could never be as simple as styling someone who doesn't have the very effective option for truth too supplement facts over the "long-drawn-out haul"! Mostly because ALL things with purpose in mind, essentially won't ever (anymore) have it's sense for duty in hand, either. Meaning your left with the only comparable stationary meanings that will tempt the negotiations of many things too remake sense...once again. Even if it takes longer than what was fully expected (not the first time around). Whereas it wouldn't have taken as long when the very unexpected "anticipations" were completely expected (the second time around). Giving hope too an even newer sense of logic that doesn't have anything too truly do with normal reasoning, anymore. Actually, it NEVER did! Why do you think hope is an offerable cause too mandatory "enlightenment"?! Hopes grows into the shape or form of "believe", after all. (Leaving little powerful things both such as "decision-making and choice" entirely scrunched! While being also compressed "too death"! Too much between!) Which slightly contradicts logic ruling as it ALWAYS should. Or essentially, ALWAYS did! Especially when that very sense for reasoning becomes (all the more) valid (first and foremost). Conclusion... "Styling someone is never the option", because you essentially don't have anything more equipped than regular truth which prompts joy into hope growing and amassing into believe. Which actually creates the sense of reasoning that breaths logic into it's very surroundings.
PS... "Styling someone is never the option"... All for truth too supplement facts, altogether! Again...and again...and again....
Aug 10, 2020
Aug 10, 2020 at 5:34 PM UTC
I have come to realize that the hardest thing
to do is not picking out an option from two that
are very similar in nature, but rather putting myself first.
Jun 21, 2020
Jun 21, 2020 at 7:41 AM UTC
I am a poet's poem
but was never a choice to be taken.
Jun 19, 2020
Jun 19, 2020 at 11:21 AM UTC
a coward holds the lovers card upright in his hand
told them both he’d take to the promise land
torn between two queens, all confused
didn’t want to leave any of them bruised.
a naive youngster held the fool in reverse
fell for all the tricks and games was the curse
she gave in full but took none, always came at second best
time wasted being used, finding out again she was just the guest.
Jun 18, 2020
Jun 18, 2020 at 3:51 PM UTC
The deepest cut
is the first
then the one that follows
I find that I am tired
as my essence puddles out
crimson tears form in the well
and become a weeping waterfall
of wasted life and battered choices
I want to take it back---
but the redness of me,
breaks free
seeking to be exposed to the outside
and remain uncaged from weakness.
Apr 29, 2020
Apr 29, 2020 at 12:41 PM UTC
If you still are an option for someone to choose than darling,
it's better to change your route
as those who love you dearly,
they don't take you as a choice.
Apr 29, 2020
Apr 29, 2020 at 5:54 AM UTC
I know all
the Shortcuts
And You Know
all the Routes.
But this
LANGUAGE
doesn’t open
until you
COMMAND it.
So I thought
getting lost in your
LANGUAGE will
Ctrl+O doors
of feelings.
And I will
RETURN when you
SHIFT your OPTION
To
ENTER, as my ENTER key is always
waiting for you to ENTER.
Nov 8, 2019
Nov 8, 2019 at 3:12 AM UTC
I don't want to be used
I want to be loved
I don't want to be your moon
When the Sun is not around!
Aug 16, 2019
Aug 16, 2019 at 8:57 AM UTC
"It suffers ;
Not ; I suffer"
this being realised ;
exercise detachment
operate using a buffer :
A Curtain Option
Is What's Being Discussed
Jan 5, 2019
Jan 5, 2019 at 5:10 PM UTC
Have you ever stumbled upon a flower,
next to her, you were seated;
a gaze you never gave,
and time passed by just like that.
She didn't bloom as you expected her to be,
shining under the sun's rays,
a bud that didn't open -- yet
existing yet not appealing -- she was just about to bloom.
Have you ever stumbled upon a flower,
as the sun was setting, you stood up;
"please wait," she was begging
yet you never loved her so you left.
The shy flower, yes it's tiny
no one would pick her, no one was there;
twenty feet, her perfume travelled;
it was her time to flourish at night.
You never loved that flower,
neither picked her petals nor sniffed its scent;
she ended up saying "I love you,"
with lost worth, is she the unlucky one?
She was a tender perennial, you unlucky one.
Oct 21, 2018
Oct 21, 2018 at 3:21 AM UTC
Must be nice
to pick and choose
when Im worthy enough
to be a part of your life
Too bad
Im not an option
Sep 27, 2018
Sep 27, 2018 at 6:01 PM UTC
You can't always speak.
It's tiring,
to say the same spiel all the time,
lying isn't much better,
but the truth isn't an option.
It would hurt,
and we're already miles apart from where we began,
and I don't want to live without you in my life.
So sometimes I can't.
Please,
let's just sit here in silence a little longer.
So I can choke down the misery,
and smile for you.
Like a friend,
instead of someone who so hopelessly adores you.
Jun 29, 2018
Jun 29, 2018 at 2:08 AM UTC