#onmyown
On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me
In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever
And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us
I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers
I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known
I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own
Apr 7, 2014
Apr 7, 2014 at 8:19 PM UTC
I know you like to be alone.
I know you like to do things on your own.
But some day, you're going to want a friend, so I was wondering,
Would you let me catch you
When you fall?
Would you let me be the one you'd call?
Would you let me help you end a fight?
Would you let me be the one
Who texts good night?
I know you don't want to rely on anyone,
But in the end,
Would you let me be your friend?
Oct 13, 2020
Oct 13, 2020 at 8:47 PM UTC
Unsettling thoughts
Raise and swim much like
Misappropriated sand with
An anchor running through it
That never quite catches,
Despite the various mounds
Of sand and rock
Chiseled into the Earth
Using all its good form
And time that couldn't have been
Wasted anywhere better.
Aug 17, 2015
Aug 17, 2015 at 12:19 AM UTC
The world is so big,
never thought it could hold so much
So many places to go,
but I never find my way home
Maybe I'm too picky-choosy
thinking nothing's good enough
Maybe I'm too prideful
or foolish to know that
Your love is my home
Your hands hold my reality
Your peace is my resting place,
nothing could replace
The home I have in You.
Even though I was lost
so caught up in my own world
You held my hand
and I knew it was always Your plan.
Your love is my home
Your hands hold my reality
Your peace is my resting place,
nothing could replace
The home I have in You.
I'm slowly realizing
slowly figuring out
That all my days of hiding
You were what life was about.
I'm taking responsibility
for the life You've called to own
For the only way I can make it
is to acknowledge Your love is home.
Jul 17, 2014
Jul 17, 2014 at 8:34 PM UTC
I know what happens next, I've been down this road before there was a pothole I didn't see coming and in i fell head over heels again.
I must walk alone cold, tired but fighting to find my own.
To be myself but those potholes..
Temptation creeps trying to wrap its warm embrace around me, what a ploy daring me to look the other way. One misstep and I'll fall again, you'll hold me for years and that warmth will rise till it is a smouldering burn smothering me.
In flood the memories I can't breathe, a harsh reminder to withstand the cold a step each day I have to make my own way two steps forward one step back and I'm slipping, stumbling, crying for help and there it is another pothole perfectly foot shaped.
Dare I ever allow myself to fall again.
Dec 2, 2017
Dec 2, 2017 at 1:20 AM UTC
All alone.
No parents.
Goodbyes just said.
Already close to tears.
And you brought me to them.
Made me feel like crap for caring about you.
No one to comfort me.
All alone.
You try to explain yourself.
But the tears and screams have already passed.
No one to hold me.
Only illusions.
All alone.
Oct 21, 2017
Oct 21, 2017 at 2:46 PM UTC
I had a dream
A vision of brilliance,
A beautiful scene
After all you put me through
I've learned to see
That my story isn't anywhere close
To what it had seemed
Instead, I'm content
To live on my own
Not you, or you, or you on my team
Just I
Alone
Living the dream
Feb 18, 2020
Feb 18, 2020 at 1:11 PM UTC
If no one accepts me
Well I’d rather
Just be alone
I don’t like the pain
Of feeling
Like a no one
Well don’t go off
Complaining
When I come around
Saying I’m a loner
When you hear my sound
You just won’t accept me
But hey thats okay
I’m not gonna be mad
Or say that you should stay
I’ll tell you my wishes
I’ll be honest with you
I may even cry
When my skies are gray
That’s just life
You live and you learn
From one another
You must correctly discern
So if I go off alone
Jealous and stomping
Know it’s not personal
I want to be on my own
Dec 16, 2025
Dec 16, 2025 at 6:35 PM UTC