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(Sonnet)
If I should die with a shunted echo hear me,
Lost fabled one, my paltry heart the snows,
The warmth rides of the chiding winter sun,
The melody and rustling in cantata leaves,
Whose strings of one, plaintive guitar, strung
By breaths birthing breaks, your tracing lips,
White birds, water wings miraculous, not so
Stunning as your steps float above the water,
I am nothing, less, you shine pure, most of all
More than any heart could tender, how could
An empty house, abridgment only, unhinging
Doors coursing reason hold the new day sun?
As flame was my doom, love hear my thesis—
Should I die, look for me in the loom chrysalis.
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May 14, 2020
May 14, 2020 at 9:43 PM UTC
Look at all these people behind the window.
Now look at the same people with angry faces.
Finally, look at the people with no faces at all,
Those are the survivors out of them all.
Because when people tell them they're useless
And when people tell them they are ugly
Those are the people who hide their faces
Hoping not to upset us all.
But inside their lonely hearts
Are where all the feelings drift apart
It's where all their feelings start to break
And all their hearts, start to fall.
Apr 19, 2019
Apr 19, 2019 at 7:20 PM UTC
Does pain resemble her?
Or she resemble pain?
A pretty little girl
Lost in the space of occupying thoughts
Made her mind into a powerful magnet with words of sorry
A magnet which ***** pain,
A magnet which never dies
The magnet which remains till the last breath of her life
And yet her soul shines bright giving no glance of pain,
But yet her pain doesn't have a way to go out of her
And yet she is beautiful.
Aug 19, 2018
Aug 19, 2018 at 11:25 AM UTC
grace is now my mate
happiness is now a habit
joy is now a must
i lived,i loved, i hated
i did the most ****
now it's time to change
i embrassed the wrong me
i bowed before the naive me
i failed to defeat the immersing her
i failed to change the fearful me
now it's time to change
i disrespected the blessed me,
i was meant untrustworthy,
i took my best friends for granted
i never had a thought about me
i was unkind and discarteous
now it's time to change.
i've heard a lot of unfamiliar voices
sounding like a landing airplane
big bass of it's beat itching my ears
and i finally realized that
it was an alarm with severe ringings
saying that,
it's time to change.
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 4:03 AM UTC
architectural mollusks
are falloping through
my brain
squeezing past the
instincts that
have kept me down
My instincts,
once brittle sea stars
that splintered
into cracked
peppercorns,
are now mixed with
the breathy liquid
of squid,
lubrication for
the spiny paths ahead
They blow their ink
between my
inverted vertebrae
injecting Jello into bone
busting through
fiber and tissue like
fresh-skimmed
lavacream
and all my muck
rises to the top
in a neon rawness
that I find beautiful
Soon
my burning crevices
will be cooled
fossils will turn to flesh
and, as sure as knowledge
springs into action
I will make
for the shoreline
like a cephalopod rocket
silky smooth
my fins spun into wings
touching magic
as they glide
Apr 7, 2018
Apr 7, 2018 at 5:29 PM UTC
you changed with
the winds,
and i
changed with
the seasons
but we
stayed intact
Sep 8, 2017
Sep 8, 2017 at 10:04 PM UTC
The funny thing about change is
Most people fear it but
It's always been a big part of my life
I've moved over eleven times
I'm always pushing to try new
Food, new sports, meet new people
So I get extremely uncomfortable
When I'm stuck in the same place too long
Apr 29, 2017
Apr 29, 2017 at 6:01 PM UTC
Hp's wonderful change
painting my world beautiful
like morning sunshine
Apr 9, 2017
Apr 9, 2017 at 6:03 PM UTC
I used to throw away my old clothes.
I lost it all for 1 year.
Now I drive around with blankets & socks,
to give the homeless.
Apr 6, 2017
Apr 6, 2017 at 8:15 PM UTC
My decisions grow, as moss grows. Slow, slow and unseen between the green-green of expected. My decisions grow, as moss grows. Quietly wild. Shallow threads clutched tight at the sheerness of possible- drinking light from the dark in order to thrive.
My decisions grow, as moss grows. Slow, slow and unseen. No branches, no forks, no watch-wait-and-see, just spores caught on a breeze when I need them.
Apr 8, 2017
Apr 8, 2017 at 12:21 PM UTC
*How I was before
staring at things
and getting tensed at everything around.
Fearing constantly without knowing anything.
To step out of comfort zone
I cried and cried but to resists!
Afraid to lose anything,
longing everything to be forever mine!
Then came this breakthrough!
I broke apart...
going through lows
in the midst of nowhere else
No stares, no glares.
Nothing at all and I suddenly realized
I was out of that all.
I suddenly saw a dandelion flying away..
away from everything, knowing not alive or dead
but moving on with the wind
no persistence or resistance...
Just to free flow not caring at all.
That's how I found out myself all over again.
I fear but not too often, I stare into spaces
to find more love in life.
I add up to the beauty by smiling wide apart.
I enjoy the fears now,
more often it tries to get me down
but challenging more, to be more.
Enjoying my journey and not worry about the path..
And I'm glad I am more of me now
rather than what I was couple of years before.*
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 3:37 PM UTC
and even after all these years when everything changes, i will still be here for you
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 2:20 PM UTC
I consider them as my everything
but they don't know that.
They are the reason why I sing
wherever I'm at.
They have inspired me
to do better.
They are my reality
and my gold treasure.
They introduced me to this,
a world completely unfamiliar
but it was pretty bliss
to be somewhere quite peculiar.
We'll be heading our own ways soon
I'm not so prepared.
Without them I'm a song without a tune,
a machine that can't be repaired.
Yet I thank you,
for everything.
I did what I wanted to.
You are my favorite thing.
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 12:34 PM UTC
People would ask me
" what made you who you are. "
I'd say my family and things that filled me with glee,
especially the people who I talked to almost every hour.
My Friends.
They helped me change for the better.
Those who will stay for the end
will be considered greater.
They helped me when most needed
and encouraged me so much
They cheered when I suceeded
and always stayed in touch.
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 11:58 AM UTC
he had a barbershop on Broadway.
it sat perfectly
midway between the river and
"the other side of town".
you passed George's
whether you wanted to or not,
but people wanted to.
he made them forget the mortgage
their ugly spouse
and tragedy.
he was half entertainer
half evangelist
which didn't leave much for barbering.
he chased away heartaches
like tufts of hair blown
across the green
and white tiled floor.
his guitar came out
more regularly than his clippers
and sermons were included
in the basic package.
you paid for the song and
the therapy,
the haircuts were free.
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 11:48 AM UTC
*You didn't change my life
in a moment
but you changed it
more than any moment
can hold.*
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 7:27 AM UTC
I remember,
Being 10,
And scared...
Do You?
I was scared of the move.
Our car puncturing borders
And my mind racing even faster.
Out of the most standard questions,
I chose two.
Who?
And How?
I assure you,
The answers where beautiful.
Now im 20 and,
And, im doing it again.
Im scared. Im thinking.
And Im in motion.
I have no new questions
But soon Ill have new answers.
And maybe new beauty.
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 3:28 AM UTC
Use this to better yourself. Try as hard on yourself as you did on the relationship. You are the most important person. You are capable of everything you want to do. Don't give up on yourself too. I love you. I love you. I will learn to love you. There is time for sadness. That is okay. Turn it into creation. You won't always be happy but you will always be okay. Fill the holes in your heart from loving him with new reasons to love yourself. Go hiking alone. Climb a tree and read a book. Write more. God **** it, don't waste that talent. Practice gratitude. Practice mindfulness. Believe. In the future. In the power of your mind. In your ability to overcome. You will be reborn in strength.
Love,
Your forever companion
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 1:48 AM UTC
*Memories, memories grinding your brain
Scorching wound opening up
A prisoner in your own body
A prisoner in my own body
Sigh! exhausting pain
Reminiscing on those days
When icicles is all that mattered
When we were busy
Paper chasing
Life chasing
Dream mending
Afraid of being popped
Holding on a hopeless rope
Screaming at the top of my lungs
God......
I know you got me
Am a sinner but I know you got me*
Apr 6, 2017
Apr 6, 2017 at 2:01 AM UTC
"I love you too"
*It is the magic word
that changes her world*
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 12:12 AM UTC
Your words were a
glowing ember
that kindled a slow fire
in the dead wood of my heart.
I could breathe oxygen again
and pass the spark
to another.
Apr 6, 2017
Apr 6, 2017 at 10:38 PM UTC