Today something inside of me
wants me to just run
And do what my soul strives to do . ...
I wanted to stay in that touch for as long as my life permits ...
One flow of current strikes me all koncked down ...
I feel my life is eased and handled when his arms are around ...
I lose myself with him...
Nothing moves same..
I do things I never did ..
I go with a flow which u take me in...
I used to have peaceful heart ...
Now I see my heart breath shearling...
U destroyed my peace
U took the one element away from me ..
The element of fear ...
The fear of falling ..
The scare of losing ...
Cant resist the whole of you ....
You make be vulnerable ...
For once I step off of the warrior uniform to wear my princess crown ....
I love when u come close to me
just to wishper some words like a beautiful song....
My thoughts may have gone very far...
But u and I we are still here ....
Deciding which road do we chose ..
the one with the thorns or the one with the stamped grass .....
Sep 24, 2019
Sep 24, 2019 at 8:37 AM UTC
See it rained again...
It is raining since That day
Clouds dance around nowadays
This city of warm sunlight has become a wonderland of breeze
Clouds tend to stay here now...
The clouds seem to love the city now
They posses the happiness of the girl who lay waste in this barren ground of loveless lost people....
They give me hope of living ,
There used to be days of the light...
When the sun gave hope for the city
When the sun gave you strength to stand alone
Fight for what you believe in
We met contradicting each other
Just like the clouds and the sun
Nd now it's raining again
But this time it's different ....
The girl Nd the boy are together
The dark rain clouds came with the present bright sunlight
Both managed to make it out keeping their differences apart
Their love binded the earth
Moved one step closer to life ....creating a prism of colours blooming out
Each drop of rain giving a hundreds of wonder
Creating the rainbow
It rained again
But this rain was different .
Sep 24, 2019
Sep 24, 2019 at 7:29 AM UTC
Shooting star doesn't make wish come true
My world of fantasy, is not that fantastic
Meer life of simplicity
Life without nightmares
Nightmares that are so real ... That I fear sleeping anymore
Nightmares that already have come true ...
Hope doesn't fade away with time
Or so they say ...
I hope I could trust the one , the one ment to protect me
To be my leaser sheild
I hope I wasn't the same anymore ... The girl with tied arms
The strings of my heart tangle to my brain
My brain thinks of only one thing ... Fantasy !
The things I do now don't define me anymore ...
It does define my past , my fears
Hope doesn't fade away with time..
Or so they say
But I hope these shooting stars could make my fantasy come true ...
Jun 11, 2019
Jun 11, 2019 at 11:19 AM UTC
Are we friends!
Are we not?
Do you love!
I hope you not....
Is it ok to talk...
Or does it have no meaning at all now....
Are you scared!
Or are you just limited to your scale?
Do I amaze you!
Or is it just me in a fantasy?
Does leaving me hurts?
Or does it just feels lost!
Am I your world!
Or am I not even a fragment of it?
After all these days ....
You and I
Now...
Is it a yes!
Or is it not ?
May 27, 2019
May 27, 2019 at 10:44 AM UTC
i've given you what i have
i'll give you what is left
all of me, the remnants
of what they've left behind;
my everything is yours,
even the parts i love
would look better in your eyes
than they ever did in mine;
i am giving you permission
to break my heart
at the end of this,
call me cynical, i know i am
but i can't help but imagine
the privilege it would be
to sit there, surrounded by a pile
of all my shattered parts,
knowing they were broken
by you.
-a.c.b
Jan 18, 2019
Jan 18, 2019 at 10:47 AM UTC
Is it happening again!!!
My fears
My reasons
My soul
My gust of love
Why is it always this... That people break all of these
From snap of their finger
Me running away from meaning less love
Searches me back ... Over and over again..
At first it holds me like a candle in a candle stand
There for me all time
Even if the candle melts all down
It Watches stages of my life
My glow
My flow
My fall
My low
My shine
And goes through destruction when the harsh wax changes its life ....
And then it drops me like a nightmare from its memories
Hoping that i would have never come
I was always scared of meaning less love
And all I got from this world was lust...
It was never wrong for world this way
But it would have been different
If you just knew my past ...
It was never wrong for love this way
But it would have been different
If you just knew me ....
And things are all reappearing now
I think it's just a deja vu!
Or worst, I just hope it to...
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 5:07 PM UTC
Make me a person who can still survive
With all those wounds
Not just in my mind....
Will i ever be a desirable wife!
Why Does life go backwards
Is it ok to live
Is it sin to love
Is it rampage to decide what is fair and what is my fight....
Make me a person who can still survive
With all those wounds
Not just in my mind...
With love at my side this time
My side is afraid to love
Am I devoted to scar myself!!!
Or are the scars are attracted to me
Make me a person who can still survive
With all these wonderful wounds
Not just inside!!!!
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 5:05 PM UTC
Does pain resemble her?
Or she resemble pain?
A pretty little girl
Lost in the space of occupying thoughts
Made her mind into a powerful magnet with words of sorry
A magnet which ***** pain,
A magnet which never dies
The magnet which remains till the last breath of her life
And yet her soul shines bright giving no glance of pain,
But yet her pain doesn't have a way to go out of her
And yet she is beautiful.
Aug 19, 2018
Aug 19, 2018 at 11:25 AM UTC
Look at the shady sky
The clouds moving with the north wind making incredible shapes,
Making me remember every single moment with you and your gentle hands
Making me so comfortable
That even your small hands can become my large blanket
The shade of the tree falling on just our faces….
Our Hearts completing each other’s heartbeats
Feeling your every single breath as mine
Do you too remember me??
I wish you were here,
I wish we were here together
Looking at the clouds through each other’s eyes
Feeling the love in the north wind
Loving each other
No matter what tragedy life gives me ,
You will always be there with me
Under the same tree
Staring at me.
Aug 19, 2018
Aug 19, 2018 at 2:31 AM UTC
A nostalgic feeling, its always with me. Keeps coming back in tears after every bad dream. They are a part now, never letting me be alone..
I get strange feelings of loss. Loss of something, someone, every moment its in my heart.
Night before i had a dream of him again. His face was same as I saw him last time, how I wish It wasn't a dream.
But I too wish that it wasn't reality, cause if it was it would really hurt, more than I can ever imagine....
Never clear... these dreams never let me surface, I go too deep into the abyss and i am lost there unable to reach anyone, unable to reach him.
I see him angry all the time like he won't talk to me, this takes away all of the life that's inside me.
Leaves only tears of emptiness.
Don't know who cut me, but I was hurt really bad.
Maybe those wounds on my body defined the ones on my heart, the intangible ones.
I saw him there, along with my other friend ..
We were in some place unusual. He didn't bother even to look at me. Then suddenly I was wounded really bad.
Every one there was indulged in some game or play.
I didn't feel like it so I thought of jus walking around, then heard that he was also not there, and was gone somewhere, so I decided to look for him and jus started walking.
I walked away from our gang but couldn't spot him anywhere
I was scared, ..
hurt on my back which bled..
I just kept walking past the lake and around the grasses...
Then I saw him, there he was standing on a bridge looking in the opposite direction.
I called him" chand" and he smiled at me for the first time. It felt so nice to see him. We were silent for a while before he said" you really did come".
I was all stuck there.. Don't know what I felt. It was so real, His voice as if it was him, Standing in front of me.
But that's not possible my mind revolted.
And I woke up, to find my self alone with only my pillow that could soak my tears. Controlling my harsh cries and trying not to wake mum and shifa up, I lay there.. Trying to sleep again. ..
Maybe this time I could talk to him more.
Or maybe thinking that atleast there in my dreams everything would be ok.
No, I just couldn't it was as if a lump was stuck in my throat, I couldn't breath, I couldn't even think why I was crying so hard. Actually I wasn't able to understand myself for so long now.
This is not the first time I can't sleep, or i I am crying, or laughing just for show, or pretending to let go, or thinking everything will be ok but he never goes away.
Even though I have pushed him away so long long before....
Its been a year almost. Such dreams are so common, they are a part now..
Thinking about him I fell asleep after a while.
Hoping I would see him again.. And I did, astonishingly.
We were jus walking on the side of the river. He saw the bruise on my shoulder and placed his hand softly on it.
I turned to him with tears in my eyes, and saw his eyes filling too...
I didn't see him anymore than that but I believe some dreams are worth living for..
Aug 19, 2018
Aug 19, 2018 at 2:10 AM UTC