#noteasy
You may be lost. You may be alone.
But it's not your fault.
Even if you push people away.
I know, coming from someone on the outside looking in, it's easy to say "don't listen to them"
Or "take what they say with a grain of salt."
So I won't say that.
It doesn't help you feel better anyway.
What I will say is what I said before.
It's not your fault.
I don't know what happened, but if you isolated yourself, that was a reaction.
And there's no right or wrong way
to react to anything. But not all hope is lost.
When you react, you adapt.
It's not easy. In fact, it can be quite painful.
But you did it once. You can adapt again.
Apr 21, 2021
Apr 21, 2021 at 9:01 PM UTC
Lied to your face again.
And I will allow you to think of “how easy it is for me”
Because I deserve it.
I deserve the anger you have towards me.
Or not.
I prefer not.
I can’t say that I love you because..
I slept with someone else.
I retaliated in a way that disgust me,
But that’s as it should be.
To stay stuck and horrid.
Every ounce of hope and regret is being pushed out of my mind.
We could never be.
Not with that hanging over my head.
You forgave me though.
I still can’t do it.
How could I?
With what I have done, I can’t excuse it.
I need to be here where I’m at.
I’m sorry I couldn’t be strong.
I know you wished for me to be the me you wanted.
I’m sorry I allowed myself to be engulfed by you again.
Your mere presence calms my soul.
I’m at peace,
But it’s wrong. I can’t accept it.
Too much has been done.
Nov 27, 2020
Nov 27, 2020 at 10:19 PM UTC
how do you explain:
i'm the one who's broken my own heart.
years of allowing negativity into my cracks,
tolerating it's bloom.
only now trying to rip out their roots.
but they have grown like weeds.
manifested in my chest, tangled throughout my ribs.
constricting.
trying to make them love me, to make them see.
now~
trying to fall back in love with myself,
is really not that easy.
it actually hurts more than loving any one else.
because you know, more than anyone, what you're capable of.
good and bad.
but please, in my upmost hour of desperation,
im begging myself
to take myself back.
she misses you.
she needs you now more than ever.
Dec 4, 2018
Dec 4, 2018 at 7:12 PM UTC
Just because to love,
someone completely,
is not an easy thing to do,
it is no good reason,
to stop doing it all.
Ma Cherie © 2017
Mar 1, 2017
Mar 1, 2017 at 12:35 PM UTC
Everyone says ditch them
But it's not so easy
They say they're not true friends
But it's not so easy
Some say they dwell on my misery
But it's not so easy
They ask why I remain friends with them
But it's not so easy
It's not easy letting go of all your memories
You see, all my memories are embedded in these people
So it's not so easy
Jun 7, 2014
Jun 7, 2014 at 7:02 AM UTC