#nofriends
I screamed in heavy rainfall,
hoped they would hear me.
Perhaps the thunder was too loud—
or maybe...
Their ears were filled with rainwater.
I wept in a silent room,
hoped they would wipe my tears.
Perhaps I didn’t weep loud enough—
or maybe...
They built walls where windows should have been.
Jul 31, 2025
Jul 31, 2025 at 8:05 AM UTC
i regret not making more friends.
i regret not sitting at more lunch tables.
i regret the glances that i didn’t return.
i regret the smiles i let pass like strangers.
i regret thinking that one friend was enough.
i regret pretending that silence made me strong.
i regret staying home when they invited me out.
i regret overthinking every introduction.
i regret the way i let anxiety speak for me.
i regret deleting numbers instead of reaching out to people.
i regret waiting for them to speak first.
i regret being afraid of being too much.
i regret leaving group chats before they knew me.
i regret the hallways I walked like a ghost.
i regret the versions of me they never got to meet.
the point is --
i regret a lot of things,
about not making friends.
especially that.
but it was my fault
after all.
Aug 12, 2025
Aug 12, 2025 at 9:27 AM UTC
how come I'm the one left unloved?
How come I have no friends to turn to?
How come I'm always the one they judge —
never truly seen, never truly known?
How come there's no shoulder for my tears,
no arms to hold me when it hurts?
How come I keep wishing someone,
anyone, would care?
How come I still want to fit in,
even when it means losing pieces of myself?
How come I'm not me,
but who they want me to be?
And how come —
in the quietest moments —
I wonder if I should even exist at all?
Jul 10, 2025
Jul 10, 2025 at 12:56 AM UTC
Empty room echoes,
Silent phone, no texts to share,
Lonely heart whispers.
Sep 6, 2024
Sep 6, 2024 at 1:22 AM UTC
Today I realized how much I didn’t matter to anyone at my school.
I walked across that stage and was made a fool
No this was not the end, only the beginning.
But I could feel the paint of my mind start thinning.
We show off our achievement like we are better than one another
As I drift away and my mind starts to hover.
I walked across that stage for some kind of academic excellence
But instead of a celebration, I felt the silence.
Student upon student walked across that stage
Each one of them with following laughs, cheers, love and rage.
But as I walked across there was nothing but silence and pain
I can’t wait till I leave this place
Because if I died today none of them would have known my name.
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 2:28 PM UTC
I push with all my might,
But my butthole's too tight.
I'm up all night,
Trying to conquer this fight.
I keep thinking it's going to be all right,
Stuck in a long plight.
Through my sight,
I see the brown and blue reunite.
Kerplunk.
Feb 26, 2015
Feb 26, 2015 at 1:23 AM UTC
Looking through my messages.
**** I used to have friends once.
What happened? What changed?
I happened, I changed.
Not as sweet as I used to be,
Not as stupid as I used to be.
So weird, so twisted,
who would like to be your friend?
No one was there,
no one wanted to be there
to help me with my pain,
to wipe my tears away.
No one cared for the wicked creature,
for the broken girl on the floor,
crying herself to death,
drowning with her own tears.
It's ok now, I'm alright.
There's nothing to worry about.
I'm just gonna smile, like I always do
and you're just gonna pretend you believe, like you always do.
Just like we always do.
Jan 3, 2018
Jan 3, 2018 at 3:42 AM UTC
I need to go
and save my soul
I can't pretend
to not be friends.
I need to flee
and just save me.
It's draining on my soul,
I leave a word and go.
Nov 8, 2017
Nov 8, 2017 at 8:34 AM UTC
I need you to text first
Just one time
I always go first and it makes me feel like ****
Like you don't care
Like nobody cares
Perhaps nobody does?
Maybe I'm just not a likeable person?
Maybe I'm just the secret keeper, the agony aunt?
Dump your **** on me and leave
Just to rub it in
You're not the only one
Others do it too
Which makes it worse
Perhaps I'm destined to be alone?
But maybe,
Just maybe
There's a tiny glimmer of hope.
Nov 6, 2017
Nov 6, 2017 at 7:30 PM UTC
I drink my own misery
Trying to drain out the pain
I drink my own tears
Trying not to water tissues
I drink my own self
Trying to be absolute
I drink my own soul
Trying to escape reality
I drink my own dreams
Trying to make the road easier
I drink my own friends
Trying to make them real
I drink my own thoughts
Trying to make them dissapear
I drink my own venom
Trying to die in peace
I drink my own reflection
Trying to be invisible
I do all these things
Yet I'm still visible~K.O.
Oct 20, 2017
Oct 20, 2017 at 9:12 PM UTC
Everyone's moved on
and I'm still here, forgotten
but never alone
Apr 25, 2016
Apr 25, 2016 at 11:10 PM UTC
The friends he has are wonderful and magestic to the fullest
He creates them
Coming to life in his own reality
He creates abstraction.
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 1:33 AM UTC
I am alone.
I am worthless.
I am nothing.
Three thoughts that cross my mind
Every day,
Every hour,
Every minute,
Every second.
I know I'm none of those things;
I know that I'll achieve greatness,
But depression doesn't know that.
Depression knows no boundaries,
Except for how to cross them
Without getting caught.
I am a pit of despair;
A black hole of never-ending pain.
I know nothing except for
Three things:
I am nothing.
I am worthless.
And I am alone.
Oct 1, 2014
Oct 1, 2014 at 1:50 AM UTC