#nighttimethoughts
Before the sun returns
bask in a deluded state
tell myself a thousand lies about
past mistakes, what's at stake?
Before the sun returns
I'll doomscroll 'til my eyes bleed
satiate my soul's greed
my better self
he does pleed.
Before the sun returns
ambitions war with self image
anxiety disguised as sobriety
so I'm rendered timid.
Before the sun returns
suburbs will be painted through
silver-lit streets
and wishes for new silver spoons.
Before the sun returns
I'll crane my neck to the brink
Stare into the sky where
stars wink
Boeings blink.
Before the sun returns
I'll be submerged in serenity
find contentment in my existence
but only temporarily..
Nov 21, 2025
Nov 21, 2025 at 6:16 PM UTC
I find peace in darkness...
I crave for my alone time...
I wait to get drenched in rain...
I like chopping onions...
I love taking shower...
I prefer nights over mornings...
Because these small moments allow me to let out my concerns, weep in peace and let my tears flow without others knowing and no need to give explainations to my tears.
May 18, 2025
May 18, 2025 at 12:23 AM UTC
For all my efforts
Often I still find myself
Stuck in the between
Even if I lived
For eons in all the realms
I'd still stand right here
Oct 10, 2018
Oct 10, 2018 at 12:42 AM UTC
I sit and wait, awake
Close my eyes to no avail
Night loves company
Aug 27, 2018
Aug 27, 2018 at 2:50 AM UTC
As I lay me down to sleep
in the quiet of the night
I loose these tears I'm meant to keep
into a pillow, soft and white
As I lay me down to bed
in satin sheets of yellow gold
thoughts of you will fill my head
and all the love we couldn't hold
As I lay me down to rest
wishing you were by my side
I think on how we did our best
but in the end were still denied
As I lay me down to dream
just as the darkness settles in
I pray our love will be redeemed
that we can find what might have been
Oct 5, 2017
Oct 5, 2017 at 6:29 PM UTC
Some people find happiness by giving away their own. They make others happy and expect to be given happiness in return. It's not a bad thing, it is the most beautiful gesture someone can do. To know that you are someone who has been given someone else's happiness to hold onto forever and cherish with all your heart, is the best feeling in the world. But do not forget about the one who gave you their happiness. They are a little more hollow and they don't know how to fill it on their own.
May 4, 2015
May 4, 2015 at 1:52 AM UTC
sometimes, in highly inappropriate moments,
like when i am at church or driving or watching a movie with my sisters,
your hands ghost over me and my blood turns to fire again.
i can feel the little circles rubbed on my arm with a surprising tenderness,
i can feel legs twisted up with mine,
i can feel soft lips against my neck and a voracious appetite at my jawline.
goosebumps spread up my body as my toes curl and my face flushes,
and i remember all too well.
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 4:43 AM UTC