noah-mytho
Labelled as the guy who'll always be there, the one friend everyone can trust to tell them the truth no matter how harsh it is, and also the friend who gets overlooked the most. Too nice to get mad and too upset to be able to handle the pain. Deciding to turn towards my words to eloquently write down what's screaming inside my head. / I've been broken too many times in the past few months and i don't know why i keep trying anymore.
Lying awake waiting, waiting for something that you don’t even know, it’ll never come though.
It hurts to wait, it hurts to not know, but why does it hurt?
Is it the quiet?
Is it the darkness?
Is it being alone?
Maybe it’ll go away once I wake up, if I could fall asleep.
Maybe it’ll be just this one night and after it won’t happen again.
Maybe I’ll wake up to find that it was just a nightmare.
Maybe it wont.
Maybe it’ll stay.
Maybe it’ll come back often and I’ll succumb to the pain once more.
Maybe this’ll be the future.
Some Nights… I just hurt.
Mar 28, 2017
Mar 28, 2017 at 3:50 AM UTC
Beautiful.
Exquisite.
Gorgeous.
Pretty.
Playful.
Handsome.
Adorable.
Cute.
Fierce.
Frightening.
Wise.
Truthful.
Intelligent.
Clever.
Creative.
Unique.
Broken.
Pain.
Hatred.
Fury.
Mercy.
Warmth.
My never ending Love.
Aug 13, 2015
Aug 13, 2015 at 4:41 AM UTC
... I'm not there to listen anymore?
... my touch fades away?
... You outgrow my clothes?
... there's no one's to talk to late at night?
... I stop texting You first?
... I stop answering Yours?
... I stop posting online?
... I stop liking other's posts?
... I log off, and never log back on?
... there is no ringing of the phone?
... there is no one picking up?
... all that is left, is memories?
Will You notice when i'm gone?
Jun 27, 2015
Jun 27, 2015 at 3:15 AM UTC
Who brought you to your knees to humiliate you?
Who shot down your dreams and illusions?
Who made you stop believing in love?
Who caged you with your deepest fears and restless nights?
Who made sure you would never be alright?
Who made you cry at sleep?
Who made you loose your mind?
Who didn't believe in mercy
or faith,
or all that crap...
but above all
Who in their sane mind
Made you hate yourself
As much as they made me.
Jun 22, 2015
Jun 22, 2015 at 8:04 PM UTC
All the compliments? Every "I love you"? Every "I miss you"? Every "Please don't leave me"? Was it all a lie?
I can't understand how you moved on when I did nothing wrong. Forgetting how I was always there, always jumping to be by your side. Letting you sleep as I held you and pushed your nightmares away. Singing while you slept and you waking up saying your dreams were of me singing to you. Holding on to you through every horrible event... never giving up hope.
But you changed... you gave up on me for no reason. Losing every memory that kept us strong. Losing yourself...
So I give up... you don't want me around because I can still make you smile with one word, one look, and one tear. I can make you laugh with one joke, one laugh, one word. I can tell where you hurt without you saying or showing it. I look at your eyes and feel your pain, sorrow, angry, guilt?
Everyone has a limit, but i have never reached mine. I can withstand any pain, heart shattering pain. So deep, my soul gets cut and shatters!
Jun 17, 2015
Jun 17, 2015 at 1:35 AM UTC
Who would care?
Who would notice if i stopped messaging everyone?
Who would text my phone, message me on kik, blow up my facebook or even call?
Who would notice if i left?
What would they miss, me or my kindness?
Would they actually notice?
Would they actually care?
May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 10:41 PM UTC
"Are you okay?"
My breath quickens,
And my heart races
What can I do?
What should I say?
My mind runs in circles,
And my hands begin to shake.
Why is he asking?
Does he actually care?
My posture starts to shift,
And my eyes begin to dart.
How should I act?
Why did you ask?
Inside I start to scream,
I don't know,
I don't know,
I don't know!
Outside I calmly state,
"Yeah, I'm fine."
May 21, 2015
May 21, 2015 at 8:30 AM UTC
"I gtg"
"Brb"
"Ttyl"
"I'll message you later"
"I'll get back to you"
"I'm busy atm"
"I can't talk rn"
**** your lies.
If you're so busy then what is with those 20 posts about being alone? You wouldn't be alone if you talk to the person who you just told to go away.
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 4:12 PM UTC
Rain coming down, trees being pushed around.
Cars driving by, nothing to be seen by the naked eye.
Cloud covered sky, why do you cry?
Are you upset to be covering up the lights?
Are you mourning your loses?
Or, are you celebrating your arrival, all by yourself?
Everyone is here, just waiting for you to calm.
For when you calm, they'll join you in the night.
Peeking through your transparency and sharing their lights.
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 3:36 PM UTC
Smiling faces,
Empty spaces.
Explicit joking,
Anger provoking.
Juicy scoops,
Useless groups.
Hilarious memes,
Broken dreams.
Spent years,
Shed tears.
Memories destroyed,
Lost in the void
May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 10:30 PM UTC