#nighmare
Your words are crushing
My face is flushing
As you say
You never loved me
Jun 28, 2019
Jun 28, 2019 at 11:08 AM UTC
#**The song I played for you on the phone,
The jokes you had me on,
It’s things like that,
Making me feel so alone,
Had to leave so many houses,
Just to find out, non could be a home
It’s things like that,
Vanishing me when I wasn’t even gone,
Standing by the window in the dark,
Wondering where I lost my spark,
It’s things like that,
Always bleeding, leaving a heavy mark,
I want to sleep, but oh I can’t,
I need to, but I don’t feel a thing,
It’s things like that,
Freezing me inside and out,
There’s so much to weep over,
But the tears seem stagnant,
It’s things like that,
Leaving me —insignificant remnant
If I ever had one, that soul’s dead,
Brutally murdered, not once,
Sometimes with words,
Other times —silence**#
Apr 6, 2019
Apr 6, 2019 at 3:08 AM UTC
Lay down this night
Try not to fight
Night terrors shepherd a blighted terror insight
Get through this flashing fright and wake up with another mental lashing akin to febral crashing
Every kid's born with a light
And as kid the dreams gripped mine tight
Eye lids fall to sleep
Fadeing into shades blacker than black
Seamlessly brought back
Seeing the dark move, coming closer to kiss my cheek
Choking on fear I couldn't get out a peep
Eye lids peeled and tacked on the tourtures rack
Afraid to see my family die I'd cover my face with invisible hands
So much hell inside my brain
I'm forced to watch as my sister's would fall and smear wherever it lands
How can a kid see so much when he sleeps?
Waking up afraid I would go to school unaware it was real life
Feeling dissolved, broken, school was like chopping at a tree with a dull knife
Live my day and proceed to lay my head down
Pillows and blankets comfort but cannot support the torture when my heads bound
Tears in the eyes knowing the nightmares are always around
knowing I'm not crazy as I feel voices with no sound
At some point I accepted this is how I am
Night after night, horrid beings and terrible stories unfolded like the buckled spine that's scraped into a body bag after singing forty storeys to the ground
©anthonyasylum
Apr 27, 2018
Apr 27, 2018 at 12:49 PM UTC
It's been a trip that you got me through,
You think you left me there,
But I'm right here with you,
You're the dark night that the poets adore,
But I'm the flashlight,
You'll need me when you're here all alone,
You know when you're caught up in your nightmare,
I'll be here by your side,
I'll look after you, you don't have to care,
I see a deep black sea in your eyes,
You've always been that way,
But I'm all ready to sacrifice
Sep 9, 2015
Sep 9, 2015 at 4:15 PM UTC
Every time I close my eyes
I see you with him
The pain I feel is almost unbearable
It keeps me up ,afraid to sleep
In fear I will see you and him
I try to think of something else
I can't, my mind won't let me
No matter how hard I try
No matter how much I don't want to
Every time I close my eyes
I see you with him
Sep 2, 2015
Sep 2, 2015 at 5:17 PM UTC
You come when I sleep
Only to leave me in misery
You tell me you will be back
The red glow in your eyes, I see the Evil
You call me the Devils Angel
Hands grab at me, where do I run?
Where are you coming from
My words bounce off of you
Not a single dent
You look into my future and see my weakness
Don't hurt me, he deserves to live
I'll sacrifice my life
After, I hope you are a lie
Apr 15, 2015
Apr 15, 2015 at 8:23 AM UTC
Eyes wide at 1 am
thinking about tomorrow
if it shall come and will it be like yesterday.
I turn away.
For the stale breath thought of future
congealed and anxious heart beats
drumming in syncopated rhythms
panic stricken
eyes closed
watch me
fade like mist
or shine like stars
the strange horizons
wait for me
to feel anything,
to stop count the hours
and rest in the fact
its a new day..
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 7:39 PM UTC