#myfeelings
You said that you loved me.
You said that you cared.
But once you were gone,
I was so very scared.
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 11:05 AM UTC
I wish that I had never met you....
Then there would be no need to impress you.
No need to want you
No need for still loving you.
No need for crying over you
No need for heartbreak.
No need for pain or tears
No need for unkept promises.
No need for rejected hugs
No need for crying myself to sleep.
No need for acting like you care
No need for everything you did to make me feel like absolutely nothing.
Jan 4, 2019
Jan 4, 2019 at 9:17 PM UTC
The moon split in half
And the stars crumbled,
Falling like fireworks into the sea.
I watched my world
Fall apart the day
My love left me.
Jan 3, 2019
Jan 3, 2019 at 11:46 PM UTC
Call me a name,
**** me with words
Forget about me,
It’s what I deserve.
Jan 3, 2019
Jan 3, 2019 at 11:34 PM UTC
I feel empty
Yet so full
Of emotion
Like the smallest thing
Could push me
Over the edge
What do you do
When theres nothing
But pain
Left inside you
And what if everything
We were looking for
Only existed
In our
Dreams
How do you explain
Something
You don’t even understand
Yourself?
Dec 26, 2018
Dec 26, 2018 at 6:32 PM UTC
Can't run from it
Always a step behind
The worst is i'm trapped
In my own mind
The end is near
I can't keep trying
Stop asking if i'm okay
I'm tired of lying
My fake smile is getting heavy
Eyes can’t hold back
My mind has won
Done living in the black
Going through the motions
It’s almost time to quit
Most fear death
But I pray for it.
Dec 26, 2018
Dec 26, 2018 at 6:08 PM UTC
Hiding the hurt, hiding the pain, hiding the tears that fall like rain. Saying i'm fine when i'm anything but. This ache in my soul rips at my gut. My skin is on fire; i burn from within. The calm on my face is an ongoing sin. The world must stay out; i've built up a wall. My fragile lie will collapse should it ever fall. Loneliness consumes me; it eats up the years. Until my life is swallowed by unending fears. Waiting for someone to see i wear a mask. And care enough to remove it; is that too much to ask?
Dec 21, 2018
Dec 21, 2018 at 4:05 PM UTC
dew drops in the spring
the sun is shining
I'm running towards my mom even though the time has come for me to say goodbye for graduation
I try to focus on the day that is graduation
But everything is a blur
I zone out until my name is called
I walk across the field
feeling proud, accomplished
But I can't help but cry
as I try and not trip on my small gown
I spot you in the crowd
All I can think of at that moment is the memories that we've created
and the way we're all huddled up
I cry one because I'm leaving the group behind
making my way in this word
adulting
still a newbie at heart
learning through trial and error
But know this
no matter where I go in life
I'll always treasure you and the memories that we made
my senior year
Mar 1, 2018
Mar 1, 2018 at 8:12 PM UTC
Fallen to the rivers and valleys,
Hated by the depths of my sea,
Nurtured by the hands of many,
Killed by the thoughts inside me.
Dwelling in a golden chariot,
Riding to the highest of hills,
Thriving inside all but one,
Giving the one soul chills.
Dreaming to be in the hearts of all,
But running too fast to catch,
Bringing the perfect feeling to everyone,
But always seeming to forget.
Living inside everyone it sees,
Just always neglecting me.
Feb 11, 2018
Feb 11, 2018 at 8:44 AM UTC
**GUILT
G U I L T
G
U
I
L
T**
that is all I feel right now.
Feb 11, 2016
Feb 11, 2016 at 2:44 PM UTC
I think I know now,
What all these feelings mean...
That I'm unworthy of your love...
Feb 11, 2016
Feb 11, 2016 at 8:17 AM UTC
Looking past the colorful horizon
I feel all emotions crawling over me
The Sun shines its smile upon the shore
It makes me reminisce the times I adore
These waves, so powerful, so vigilant
Standing against them, I feel so defiant
Who's that girl holding a pearl?
I had heard she lost everyone, everything
I also heard she felt every kind of pain, every sting
Walking over to her, we made eye contact
The first guy to crack a smile, that a fact?
The vibrant, bluish waves rock my knees slowly
The seagulls shout her name as she glares
At me, she shed a tear as it fell on the pearl
Little did I know, the pearl was Hope, reincarnated
Jan 29, 2016
Jan 29, 2016 at 9:57 PM UTC
there’s something inside
a want
a hunger that food won’t fill
a gap money can’t close
a hole love and friendship can’t help
and this thirst
like the very first taste of blood
has over taken me
blinded me
caged me
chained me
in I want to bathe
live by it
experience it
I want to move among the living and dead
To tangle with fear and always prevail
my hunger to conquer worlds
slay kings of ice
and drink elixirs
my hunger for ********** is so immerse
that my small body can’t hold the fear
the want, the greed
to own it all
to fill the space
to quench my thirst
I stare out the window and look down
At the earth
Its beasts prowl the night
But I want to own the day
To walk the night
And be that wolfs bite
I want all to fear me
And for all to look for me
and to never find me
But believe in me
I want it all …
I want to be god.
Dec 21, 2015
Dec 21, 2015 at 6:09 AM UTC
Do you see that light?
Coming out of that window?
I see that light more than you do
I isolate myself from many things
From big groups and crowds and even from people I hate
From family members asking about my day or if I have a boyfriend for once
That light is what I have
I even have a bed with warm covers and a desk full of homework that was suppose to be done a week ago
I'm stressed out and alone
And that's not anyone's fault
ITS MY FAULT
Only I can fix that by leaving the room full of darkness and that one beam of light shining out of that window
But the problem is
It's only me
No ones helping or understanding
Well I guess I'll just stay in my room
Oct 12, 2015
Oct 12, 2015 at 12:28 AM UTC
People hate being rejected
When you ask someone out in a date and they say no
Or when you go in for an interview
And look your best
You want the job so badly
And they say they'll call
But never do
You hate it
Or when you get rejected from ***
Yes ***
Guys get rejected
And it *****
But when a girl gets rejected
It's like a contraption of pain and mixed emotions going through you
You stumble
And cry and think
Did I do something wrong?
Am I not good looking enough for you?
Are you bored of me?
I don't turn you on anymore?
What's wrong with me?
Even if I'm fully naked and on top of you
You say no
Geeze isn't that what you always wanted?
Me naked
Showing off my skin
My body to you
Instead of wearing a shirt or bra
You told me before that you rather have me naked
And on you
Now that I finally did that
Nothing happens?
You lightly push me off and say I'm to tired?
Geeze all that work for nothing ?
I built up my confidence just to do that you know?
It *****
Rejection *****
And I'm here laying in bed right next to you... Naked
Some guy would be happy to lay next to a girl naked
They would caress my body and ****** me
They would have the best time of there life
But all I want is you
Just you
Making sweet love to me
What does a girl have to do to get some satisfaction around here ??
Honestly...
Feb 10, 2015
Feb 10, 2015 at 5:48 AM UTC