I've never felt so empty before
  Never felt so numb
..
Actually, i'm not sure if i'm feeling 
numb
  empty
     or both
I feel as if my legs will give up any
  second now
    and i'll breakdown crying

Poking the tips of my finger with a pencil
  reassuring I can still feel
    reassuring i'm still here

But am I truly?
  At times I feel as if 
    i've left for awhile

Am I back or still missing?

If only I can escape
  to some fantasy world
    where I can truly disappear