#minou
in late september, when summer has past and fall is here, as the sun sets and the sky blues, bitter sweet yearnings stir, as winter comes. the days cool, the nights lengthen, i long to hold you in my arms, smell your scent mixed amongst the fallen leaves, to feel your lips against mine, to taste the candied sweetness of your kisses.
i relish the coming of the cold, nights buried deep in flannel sheets, weighted down by woolen blankets, warm and snug, bodies naked, intertwined, vulnerable, safe in each other’s arms, oblivious to the world and its problems.
Oct 7, 2019
Oct 7, 2019 at 1:27 PM UTC
you were so young, it was so wrong, we went too far
newly bloomed, fully flowering, once a girl, now a woman
a mutual attraction, too strong to ignore
a subtle seduction, of a man, just moments a boy
who seduced whom, who crossed the line
i couldn’t help it, i was mesmerized,
by the whispers of your blue eyes
your pouty lips, deliciously wet, glistening red
dangers foretold by a warning sign
i resisted, as much as i could
i lost my senses, to my youth, and your beauty
i was drawn to the flame, like a moth
i was captured like a butterfly, in the spider’s web
how could i escape, when the siren calls
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 8:20 PM UTC
newly bloomed, fully flowering, a woman on the cusp
you were so young, it was so wrong, we went too far
mutual attraction, subtle seduction, looking deep into each other’s eyes
wanton smiles, coy glances, stolen touches, on each other’s arms
who seduced whom, whose fault was it, I burned for you
i couldn’t help it, i was mesmerized
by the whispers of your crystalline blue eyes
claim me, take me, hold me in your arms and kiss me
your pouty lips, blood red, glistening, deliciously wet
i was a fool, i knew the dangers, but i surrendered
i lost my senses, to youth so intoxicating, a femininity so alluring
i was drawn to the flame, like a moth, on a cold, dark night
or was i captured, like a butterfly, in the spider’s intricately woven web
free will, or skillfully manipulated, how could i resist, a siren’s call
May 5, 2019
May 5, 2019 at 1:50 PM UTC
like a fool
i go to the well
hoping for water
knowing there is none
once, it was a spring
gushing from the ground
water sweet and pure
like a fool
i built a dam
to hold the water
and it spilled over
like a fool
i dug a hole
built a well
the water slowed
clouded and salted
the water ceased
the well dried
the spring died
like a fool
every morning
i go to the well
wishing, wishing there was water
Nov 30, 2018
Nov 30, 2018 at 9:05 PM UTC
i tried to prove my worth to you, show you i was a good choice, a good mate
i took care of you when you were sick, when you had a bad case of the flu
i pulled my weight, cleaning the house, doing laundry, grocery shopping
i provided, making sure you never wanted for essentials, little luxuries
i protected, getting into a fight, when a guy harassed you
i did all these things to show you i cared and loved you, but it wasn’t enough
it’s been a year, i still find myself, missing, hating, loving you
my heart was broken, it’s slowly mending, still painful to certain memories
i am angry, you let me live in hope, in bliss, you knew you were leaving, that you were going to break my heart, destroy my world, my life, my soul
of all the women that i have loved, met, you are the one i wish i hadn’t
your actions shouted louder than words ever could, but i was deaf
you made other plans, building a new life, in another land, rekindling an old flame
like the phoenix, you destroyed everything in our lives, so you could rise, to love another
i am still in shock, still grieving, slowly recovering
you are no longer mine to nurture, love, take care of
like a passing training, no longer visible, i can still hear it’s whistle
my love has faded, but you left a mark, on my heart, that will never disappear
Apr 6, 2019
Apr 6, 2019 at 10:51 AM UTC
who do you pray to so late into the night
does he listen to your hopes, yours dreams, your desires
when you cry, alone in the early morning dark
do you see his actions, or replies
when you despair, during the day, and retreat deep into the woods
can you feel him by your side, protecting you, keeping you safe
when reach out, into the cold blue of the evening sky
can you feel him, grab him, pull him near
you believe in him, does he believe in you
is he more your creation than you are his
when all your wants are visceral, your desires carnal
to be touched, held, kissed, and loved, unconditionally
Jan 23, 2019
Jan 23, 2019 at 8:45 PM UTC
i miss you
such much, it hurts
i think about you, incessantly
the pain, is overwhelming
the grief unbearable
i remember you
in every corner of my life
last sight at night
first though at dawn
over breakfast, i would marvel at your beauty
i would savor your scent
my heart would quicken
as you would lean over and kiss my lips
i remember the excitement, feeling your lips press against mine
ever so soft, moist, and sweet
i would savor our kisses, touching lips to lips
softly caressing, sliding mine against yours, till you pulled back and smiled
your kisses were delicate, tender, like the wet petal of an amaryllis
firm, soft, nubile
your youth and beauty were exquisite, overwhelming
the source of light and life in a dark forest
why were you taken from me
how can it be, our love ends in tragedy
it is not fair
i don’t understand
why is Persephone punishing me
i shall never forget our intimacy
i will cry eternally
now that you are gone
and haunt my days
Jan 19, 2019
Jan 19, 2019 at 12:25 PM UTC
ssssh, listen to the wind whispering through the trees
savor the sound of rustling, chiming leaves
let the stillness imbue you
surrender to the solitude, the quiet, the serenity
lay your head upon my lap
i’ll comb my fingers through your hair
feel the warmth of the evening sun
succumb to my love and kisses
Dec 31, 2018
Dec 31, 2018 at 10:00 PM UTC
i love your imperfection
dry, split ends, rosacea cheeks, dry skin
the real things, the unique things, that make you
i love you most, in the morning
when you are just waking up
the natural, the real, unvarnished look
unpainted, i can see, you, in all your beauty
the acne on your chin, the scab on your lip
like a diamond with its countless flaws
you look, are vulnerable, approachable
i want to touch, caress your face
kiss your dry, chapped lips
rough hands, warm heart, i kiss your fingertips
nails natural, unpainted, coated in potter’s clay
i press my face into your hand, feel their strength
weekends, wearing comfortable torn jeans
baggy shirt, draping, but non concealing
i hug you like a dear, loved teddy bear
dollar store flip flops with a dandelion tops
the bottom of your feet dried, a bit cracked
from walking, bonding barefoot with gaia
you are the feminine, i am the masculine
you are the woman, i am the man
you are the girl, i am the boy
my love for you is endless, boundless, eternal..., Minou
Dec 28, 2018
Dec 28, 2018 at 11:23 AM UTC
as soon you as you walked through the door
i could see you were not feeling well
you rushed into my arms
buried your head in my chest
and started to cry
i wrapped my arms around you
hugged you tight
pressed you near
your cries turned to sobs
i kissed your temple, your hair
“what’s wrong,” i asked
“i not feeling well, i’m coming down with the flu,” you replied
“i’ll take care of you Minou,” i whispered softly in your ear
i took your hand
lead you to the couch
laid you down
i removed your shoes
covered you
gently stroked your hair
“i’ll make you some peppermint tea with honey,” i said
i turned on the tv
flipped to your favorite netflix show
started the tea
the water boiled
i steeped the bag
brought you the cup
laid it on the table
you were falling asleep
i snuggled up along side of you
warm and cozy under the covers
you cuddled up
a leg across my hip
your head on my chest
you hair tickled my nose
i patted it down
slightly away
i petted
caressed your hair
savoring your scent
your smell
i held you in my arms
sensing your breath
feeling your heartbeat
slowly, you drifted asleep
muscles relaxing
inhaling, exhaling deeply, gently
i held you dear
protecting, providing, nurturing, nursing you
you are my partner
my lover
my wife
but tonight you are my child
you mumbled in your sleep
wiped your nose on my shirt
drooled a tad
you were congested
your breath wheezed
you snored a bit
i loved you more
i never felt like a man
this intensely
caring, tending, loving his wife, his Minou
Dec 20, 2018
Dec 20, 2018 at 10:55 PM UTC
I loved you
I hate you
I cherished you
I despise you
I believed you
I doubt you
I trusted you
I fear you
We laughed
I cry
We whispered
I shout
We bonded
I grieve
We lived the lie
I haunt the ruins
Oct 21, 2018
Oct 21, 2018 at 7:18 PM UTC
i know
i need
to let go
I am not ready
to release you
I endure
the pain
suffer
the anguish
i am
a *********
wishing
forgiveness
i want
to be free
of my
anguish
i should
let go
or be
dragged
Oct 22, 2018
Oct 22, 2018 at 2:10 PM UTC
winter
is here
cold
and gray
there is
no shelter
from the freezing
drizzling
rain
i want to come home
sit by the hearth
be protected
made warm
i crave
to be loved
held
told
everything will be ok
hold me
in your arms
protect me
from the world
i need to feel safe
hug me
tight
i want to hear
your heart
beat
press me
near
let me
feel
your body
heat
i was a fool
to turn
to run
away
i need
your love
look into
my eyes
let me
whisper, i surrender
Nov 18, 2018
Nov 18, 2018 at 12:37 PM UTC
Our first date at Rise
Holding your hand at the Firehouse Theater
Eating bagels you brought back from Montreal
Having lunch at Salata
Going to the Arboretum
The way you peeked out children’s house
Cuddling on the couch
Watching Game of Thrones
When you fell asleep in my arms
Drinking Amaretto Sours
When you would be silly
The sound of your voice
The maraschino cherry stem you tied with your tongue
The Forget Me Not Flower Kit you gave me
Exchanging texts
The sound of incoming WhatsApp messages
Diner at Howard Wangs
You wearing bunny ears during Easter
36-28-41
When you posed for me
Your blues eyes looking up at me
Seeing your smile
Touching your lips
The way you smell
The secrets you would tell
Showing how you care
Hugging me tight
Letting me take care of you
When you cook Arepas
The gluten free Clafouti
The time you had the flu
Wearing Calvin Klein underwater
Your dainty feet
Your goddess like figure
Your cute accent
Typing in the door bell code
Hearing you answer
The emoji of puppy heart kitten
Knowing you are my Bijou
Calling you Minou
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 7:21 PM UTC
enigmatic, exotic
alone, deep in the jungle
fierce, afraid
passion, love in her eyes
to hold her, is to lose her
to have her, is to **** her
ephemeral, a ghost
a dream, a fantasy
never to be had
Oct 13, 2018
Oct 13, 2018 at 12:00 PM UTC
once
there was hope
now
there is none
forgotten
are the dreams
lost
what might have been
i live
but die
a thousand
deaths
where is
the happiness
the one
you promised
what did
i do
why did
you leave
you were
my sun
you were
my reason
what sin
was committed
you banished
abandoned
me
into the cold
how
do i live
with this
agony
Nov 8, 2018
Nov 8, 2018 at 8:58 PM UTC
From the moment I saw you
I was in love with you.
I watched as you floated around the room, like a butterfly collecting nectar, your eyes sparkled and glittered like thousands of facets off a diamond
As you moved, your hair undulated back and forth as if caught in a gentle ocean current
Your smile was magnificent, powerful, and awe inspiring, like the rising of the sun over a steamy exotic jungle
Across the room, you turned, our eyes met, and I felt a jolt, I had been harpooned through the heart. I could have fallen to my knees
I went from numb, stunned, to being on fire, with love and lust. I wanted you, wanted you so much. I could feel my primal urges and visceral needs rising and overwhelming me
I wanted to protect and provide for you, to build a house and hearth, to keep you safe and warm, a place to have and raise children, together
I wanted to hold you, feel you, in my arms, your head lying on my chest, snuggling, cuddling, purring like a newborn kitten
I wanted to look eternally in your crystal blue eyes, mesmerized at their depth and breath, like a endless desert sky
I wanted to kiss your lips, red, full, and moist like a rose on a French summer morn
You are a bijou, a jewel, like no other, rare, priceless, and precious, a gift to gods and men alike
I am grateful, for our brief, intense, and tumultuous love, like a shooting star across a darkening evening sky
Nov 25, 2018
Nov 25, 2018 at 1:56 PM UTC