#millionsome
to my millionsome,
you have no idea what you've done, what you will do, what you've been doing and surely you have no idea that you've saved a life. probably. idk. maybe you knew.
genuinely i don't know what to write other than that you- from the first of you- gia, i think- you meant something from the beginning and i always looked forward to reading your words and seeing you heart my poems (except a certain person who only did the thumbs up like thing on old hp) and know that you read them, even if you never liked what i wrote, you read them; messaging you in the middle of the night.
we met on old hp where the colors were softer and everything was better tbh but at least you're still here? i know i'm no one to stay alive for but i would live for you. just so you know.
you belong with the stars. ily
x ren
ps. paris when ?
Apr 2
Apr 2, 2026 at 10:54 PM UTC
maybe one day
it wont be called so stupid
and dreams will seem so real
and well be in Paris together
like nothing ever happened
we'll be on the Eiffel tower
and it wont be for the thought of jumping off
rather just looking down below at the world we left behind,
well be smiling without it being forced
laughing without the fear of how you look,
well be in paris
and the universe will never feel more real
and i wont sound crazy
and maybe
one day
well meet in Paris
together <3
Mar 27
Mar 27, 2026 at 11:03 AM UTC
I hope one day
we'll meet
and laugh
in golden sunlight
wander quiet streets
past little cafés and roses
doing nothing at all
i call it everything <3
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 6:00 PM UTC
they said:
we are broken and ruined
and ruination;
shattered
pieces
sharp
unfriendly
unlovable
unloving
ugly
worthless
thorny
unwanted
and once upon a time
they made something like a promise
to meet someday
at a park
and sit and talk and oh my god,
my heart hurts thinking about you
i'm so afraid, okay?
i'm afraid i'll break that promise and i'll slip away
like i always have
i'm afraid
i will be all the things i say i am
and i'm afraid
that you will be wrong
when you said i was beautiful;
once upon a time;
we loved each other
so when i am back
my beloveds
i will not ever leave you
Feb 24
Feb 24, 2026 at 7:46 PM UTC
BRO *** THANK YOU FOR YOUR HAPPY BIRTHDAYS
IF I KNOW YOUR BIRTHDAY IMMA WRITE YOU ALL WHOLE *** POEMS FRFR
ILY ALL <3
Jan 22
Jan 22, 2026 at 8:41 PM UTC
i would say i don't have to name you
but you would say
no
that can't be me
but of course it is you
gia and willow and ash and midnight
and nikrosewood and reece and leya
and jax and kai
and whoever i forgot
sorry
reading your words
and messaging on pinterest at night
and complaining about the new website
it's kind of strange
since not a lot of things make me feel like
this
but you always have;
you may feel very small but you are all so important
you are someone to stay for
Jan 22
Jan 22, 2026 at 8:54 PM UTC
and one day i can hold you as close
as i wish i could now
and we'll be stars and moons
and comets
you'll be flying, love
like you said you would
Jan 27
Jan 27, 2026 at 3:09 PM UTC
if you go
then i would miss you
so much
more than you would ever think
more than you could miss me
if you go i don't even know what i'd do
i'd have failed you
like everyone else
if you go i would stop writing
and there would be nothing to put into words
Jan 28
Jan 28, 2026 at 10:16 PM UTC
since we keep on telling each other
the other never knows that the poem's about them
unless we say it
i hope i have the chance
gia
to write you so many poems
that when you look at one of them
without your name
you'll know it's for you
i hope we can both stay long enough for that
i hope i can sneak my laptop into my bed again
so i can message you when it's late
i hope you know you shine so brightly
and i will always be glad
i found you
or maybe you found me
and we'll find each other
again and again and always
i really hope i can make that promise for you
Jan 30
Jan 30, 2026 at 10:58 PM UTC
i just realized how much everyone on hp has actually helped me and i lwk sat down for a moment js like what how did i even find ts </3
anyways i love you all have a good night or morning or whatever
its night in seattle
Jan 31
Jan 31, 2026 at 12:09 AM UTC
though i wouldn't say i write
anything beautiful
only spill out the inside of my head
and take my heart and shake it upside down
but i suppose you could say i do love poetry
and all the writers of it
Feb 2
Feb 2, 2026 at 8:09 PM UTC
and if you died
just know i wouldn't be ren
i would be renne arlot juliet yu
and i wouldn't wear black either
i would wear purple if you let me
because it's your favorite color;
and i hope dead you'd know how much that meant
that i wasn't wearing black
because god
i haven't worn a color in a while
and i might sing for you
when everyone else had left
i'd sing the saddest song anyone had ever heard
even if my voice cracked on every word
just don't die on me
i need you here
and just know as long as you're alive
i'll be too
i love you too
too much to leave
Feb 3
Feb 3, 2026 at 2:49 PM UTC
i don't want to write you all goodbye letters
so i guess i'll leave you
with an apology
and i hope you'll understand
i hope you won't curse me
for being too tired
to write you a dm each
i hope you don't lie awake
with
**** you
on your lips
i hope you don't hurt yourself
and i hope that you don't go
i hope you know
you're beautiful
always
i love you
so much
Feb 9
Feb 9, 2026 at 8:34 PM UTC