#loveless
My memory didn’t get erased,
and all what happened between us still ached,
Yet your comforting words cut more deep than anything else,
But I cannot wait for you to break this suspense,
You were exactly what I was looking for,
Someone to talk to who didn’t feel like a chore,
Had I known I could’ve been feeling this way again,
Maybe I could’ve stopped for once to pretend,
That no one truly cared for me,
when you’ve always been the missing key,
To put a stop on my loveless heart,
Will you promise me to never be apart?
Mar 22
Mar 22, 2026 at 8:32 PM UTC
You danced into my silence,
like moonlight on still seas,
Whispers of wonder tangled in midnight's breeze...
I thought you were stardust, rare by design-
But maybe you're not always one of a kind...
You traced my skies, then clipped my wings,
Tied threads to my soul like puppet strings.
You tried to control me and own me, so tight,
That I faded in shadows, far from the light.
A love once soft now cuts like glass,
Every smile we shared feels ages past.
You made me hollow and abandoned me, cold,
Left my heart with stories that ache when retold.
The echoes of us still haunt my mind,
A song with no rhythm, no reason, no rhyme...
And now you shine, flawless and flattered-
Now you're ideal and left me shattered..
So i stand in the ruins, where love used to grow,
With empty hands and a heart you'll never know.
You were a dream i wouldn't keep,
A lullaby that put my soul to sleep...
Dec 8, 2025
Dec 8, 2025 at 6:28 AM UTC
We walked on clouds
just to fall asleep in loveless coffins
Imagining a new world
While suffering in the present
Dreaming of the future
Just to escape our daily nightmares
Hiding our deep scars
just to face our reality that when it’s all said and done we will all end up in loveless coffins
Oct 29, 2025
Oct 29, 2025 at 11:54 AM UTC
Loving someone
is like falling with
No end, yet when
they let go,
your the first to
Close the door.
Your standards isn't really
High, you just see
their intention
Clearly.
You don't have to
belong to
feel complete,
you just have
feel at ease
with your own skin
to feel alive.
I stop wishing
for that good
Longging
I just
simply know
what i want.
I can satisfy myself,
I don't need your
temporary
enjoyment
your someone
who can deny me
Anytime.
Stop owning
someone's life,
they are not things
to begin with,
mutual respect
comes with
complete trust.
I love myself more
than to be your
second choice
so i dont rely
on your
love.
love can be so much hard work
still it will be worth it if
both parties
are doing it
its not a
one-side thing.
Oct 15, 2025
Oct 15, 2025 at 6:34 AM UTC
Now I see,
How I'm falling
Joining all ya'll lovesick fools
Battling tears from,
Memories held captive
To all my desires and rules
Like a fight with an enemy
Claw of a lion cutting deep
Love that's always unseen
Only to be forgotten
Under the ginkgo trees
Like the wind stirring leaves
This love I hold for thee
Causing discourse and sickening sweet
Smooth going as honey tea
You're a tragic lyric in my head
Silly and forever on repeat
An unknown book never read
Sep 23, 2025
Sep 23, 2025 at 8:16 PM UTC
It’s been so long since words melted from my finger tips,
I’d forgotten the passion of words as I became worn,
worn down by a passionless love,
profoundly I’m willing to grow again,
and remember my soul once (again),
how could I have forgotten what it meant to write?
foolish me thinking love could merit,
and turn me away from such a miserable fate,
I am finding happiness and reminding myself to breathe,
fresh air is starting to fill my lungs,
oh how winter approaches but spring still lives in me,
welding my life back together,
I’m finally remembering (me),
someone I plan on never forgetting evermore..
Aug 31, 2025
Aug 31, 2025 at 5:14 PM UTC
An aching song
replaces the windful soul
of branches clanking on
to rhythms growing old-
-
the residue
of explosive tunes
drowns out the view
of old- now new.
-
there’s so much red in the sunset
so much red in the onset
so much red in the eyelids
so many tears still falling,
there’s not much green in the audience,
much more green in faucet
hidden green in the closet
too many tears still falling.
-
white hills with wheels
made of steel and fear
look to **** and steal
while the white hills men cheer.
-
gold dripping water
from self righteous fathers
get stored far from the thirsty
so they can gain and barter.
-
there’s no way to heal everyone
unless we become many ones,
reaching out to hold the youth
from plummeting into a deadly sun.
there aren’t many ones,
yet far too many anyones-
ghosts too selfish to lift a finger
or gain souls to breathe a helpful song.
-
when will good will
and will power will
something more than death
over every hill?
when will good will
and will power will
something innocent
instead of thrilling kills?
when will good will
and will power will
something truly good
to be a hearty fill?
when will good will
and will power’s will
be enough to keep us pure
enough to love still?
Jul 7, 2025
Jul 7, 2025 at 7:43 PM UTC
Hour, minutes, seconds fade,
Years have passed, the price is paid.
Yet every thought, each memory bright,
Becomes my answer—"I'm alright."
I built my walls, stayed strong, stayed true,
Waiting, hoping—all for you.
But time has shown, it’s all in vain,
No more playing through the pain.
Your promises—just fleeting air,
I held on tight, but you weren’t there.
I longed for love, for something new,
Yet all I got was less of you.
Here I stand, my heart undone,
Reaching out, but you have run.
Now I'm empty, lost, confined,
Drowning deep in what’s behind.
Jun 10, 2025
Jun 10, 2025 at 11:40 AM UTC
I just want to be loved
but everyone leaves
what is so wrong with me
that I'm not worth
staying for?
I would rip out my heart
for someone
but I can't get anyone
to text me first
I put so much effort
into a relationship
but no one stays
what is so wrong with me
that I'm worth
staying for?
I just want to be loved
I just want to be loved
I can't do this anymore
I'm done with love
May 30, 2025
May 30, 2025 at 5:33 PM UTC
You promised me a lifetime
I guess a lifetime means to you less than a year
I remember all the times
You whispered "till infinity" inside my ear
"It's over" didn't mean anything to you more than mere words
But for me, it was the end; the final stab of the sword
It hurt, oh, it hurt. Weeks on end, I wondered if I had made a mistake
I gave you my heart and you stabbed it with a stake
I cried and cried till there were no longer tears left to cry
Then I admitted to myself that that Lifetime was goodbye.
Dec 18, 2024
Dec 18, 2024 at 5:54 PM UTC
We played a game,
Where neither of us--tell a name
And yet, submerge in a ravine of shame.
We agreed to this perilous gamble
In a morbid hope of a beast to tame;
Which crawls beneath my skin
Set to devour everything akin--
To happiness and love,
That was stowed away hidden
In a secret trove.
Aug 27, 2024
Aug 27, 2024 at 8:42 AM UTC
A shard of vintage hope
Stained with no scope
Painted for an antique emotion
Which was drowning in a deep ocean
Woefully against all of my notion
On the edge of a chasmic cliff
A forlorn shade of my soul, stands stiff--
She stares down in the fathomless abyss
Not fearing the abysmal crisis
In which, she will plunge in a gorge of vices
Flames dance and flicker towards her heart
And, breaking the iron-wrought cage apart
Alas! To only find a ghastly grim cavern
Engirdled between lungs and ribs,
Her once-alive heart--was torn to shreds
All whilst, a monster gently caressed
Towards the harrowing path of an eternal rest
Aug 26, 2024
Aug 26, 2024 at 9:56 AM UTC
Open up you say
Sure,
I'd love too
If even just for a little something new
A simple change of view
Although to keep this bit of honesty true,
I should tell you,
I don't necessarily care for this solo walkthrough
I'm a little tired of the empty echo in this venue
But,
Allowing someone in isn't worth another self worth issue
See,
One can be a lonely number, but so can two
©2024
Jul 25, 2024
Jul 25, 2024 at 12:34 PM UTC
How many chances at love will I get
Before I’m too bitter
Like an overripe apple
No longer sweet and crisp
May 28, 2024
May 28, 2024 at 11:22 AM UTC
“their mental state contains something lethal:
past, nothing but past” Nikolay Y Ossipov
you measured your height
with the mountains
your fists with the howl
of lonely wolves
to avoid helplessness stupidity confusion:
the all too encompassing human nature
I no longer want to keep you
in the alternative dimension
guarding your wholeness
I'll let you fall into pieces
I'll let you die the death destined
to you
instead of crushing him
or imploding myself
for him to rearrange his fragments
for me to hope for all the levels
of coherence
I/we are capable of
bodies afraid or in love are the most intense
I want my body back
from your battlefield of delusions
your pain is not my pain
your despair is not mine
your manic refusal of touch
is still my manic capacity
to love wounds tragedies
aborted laughter
some words are mirrors
I'll keep writing to you
till there is no escape
from the clarity
of dawn:
all my love is of
no real use
to you
Jan 3, 2023
Jan 3, 2023 at 4:06 PM UTC
Love is pain.
Love is sacrifice.
Love is waiting and waiting for something that never comes.
Love is futile.
Love is hopeless.
Love is inescapable.
Love tastes a little like the cold metal bars of captivity.
Love is loneliness.
Love is infatuation, love is social pressure, love is a lie.
Love is keeping your mouth shut.
Love is insults in private and sabotage in the back of car seats.
Love is condescension, irritation and disgust.
Love is dinners alone.
Love is silence. Love is two lives in one house.
Love is two walls separating you and me.
Aug 28, 2022
Aug 28, 2022 at 7:42 AM UTC
I don't want to be alone
I don't fear the aspect of dying
It's just that everything..everyone
That I come to love..to hate
What a weird ambiance
It's such a scary thought
For things that was all of a sudden
To be gone
Blackness
Nothingness
Aug 17, 2022
Aug 17, 2022 at 1:05 AM UTC
I really hoped I could love
before the glaciers melt and came rushing down my door,
before the bombs fell and held me in their warmth.
I could see myself kissing and hugging,
and flat out loving, before my lips ran dry,
my arms stiff, and my heart stopped going.
I really thought I would know how it felt to be held,
before time passed me by and cast me aside.
Still, the longer I wait, the truer it gets,
that loving wasn't made for us all.
May 28, 2022
May 28, 2022 at 2:04 PM UTC
These are just words on a page,
But they originate,
From where I think my heart is.
The same place that tells me,
That I've always loved you,
and could never stop even if I wanted to.
The same place that shows me,
Those things in life that are worth living,
Aren't worth nearly as much without you.
But sometimes the words can come from blackness.
A different place that sits near a pit,
Adjacent but distant,
This place is a house of torment.
The same place that tells me,
That I never deserved your love in return,
and will destroy it even when I don't want it to.
The same place that shows me,
My own demons that serve to entrench me,
In my own shallow misery.
These places exist in the same domain,
And I hope you see this,
With the hopes that I can explain,
That the things from the pit don't hold as much weight,
Nearly as much as where you sit,
Near the place where I think my heart is.
Dec 16, 2021
Dec 16, 2021 at 5:41 PM UTC
I have not gotten more than four hours of sleep a night in over two years,
with the single exception being the time you held me to you, moulded me to your body and let me settle, perfectly fit against you like clay.
My only reprieve was your presence beside me that night.
But as you were my reprieve, I was your escape.
A temporary solution to a long-term problem that you were not yet ready to address:
the weight of it remained in the shadows of that night
and the days that followed,
the weeks we spent together
and the nights I longed to be cradled against you once more.
I ignored it the way one ignores an expiration date... hesitantly paying attention at first, then slowly becoming secure in the false-hope that maybe that day will never come,
that things will simply last forever.
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It's been 54 days since we last spoke,
7 months since we last embraced,
9 months since we last kissed,
353 days since that night.
It's been over 730 days since I last slept,
and 353 days since I woke up to a life I wanted to live.
I wish you had been a dream...
I cannot keep living this nightmare.
Aug 31, 2021
Aug 31, 2021 at 12:02 PM UTC
I don't want to love you anymore.
but how am I supposed to make myself fall out of love
with the one who taught me
what love really feels like?
Feb 19, 2021
Feb 19, 2021 at 11:11 AM UTC