& maybe i was the lost 
little girl
with high expectations 
way too many goals
that could not even be completed 
& maybe i was the lost
little girl 
who fell for the wrong guys
for the guys who clearly were
under my standard 
only because of my insecurity 
& maybe i was the lost 
little girl
that kept herself busy
as long as everyone was happy
& every night
she would find herself 
crying herself to sleep
while
cutting her wrist
at the same spot 
over & over again
because at the end of the day
she knew 
no one was really down for her
as she thought