the only reason why
I kept coming back was simply because
I knew you’d take me back
no matter what
I’m the only one
you crave at night,
your head on my chest
hearing me breathing
& you wonder every night
when is he going to say it?
those 3 words
you’ve been coveting for
but you realize I won’t ever tell you
cause I never loved you
nor will I ever do so.
Sep 4, 2016
Sep 4, 2016 at 11:59 AM UTC
& maybe i was the lost
little girl
with high expectations
way too many goals
that could not even be completed
& maybe i was the lost
little girl
who fell for the wrong guys
for the guys who clearly were
under my standard
only because of my insecurity
& maybe i was the lost
little girl
that kept herself busy
as long as everyone was happy
& every night
she would find herself
crying herself to sleep
while
cutting her wrist
at the same spot
over & over again
because at the end of the day
she knew
no one was really down for her
as she thought
May 28, 2016
May 28, 2016 at 2:23 PM UTC
should I be surprised
surprised by other's behavior
when mine is not better?
should I be overwhelmed
overwhelmed of other's attempt of being fake
when I'm not even better
& once I thought
people were pure & good creatures
oh, how I was wrong
May 23, 2016
May 23, 2016 at 6:33 AM UTC
Oh my Lord,
remove the toxic individuals
the ones that are harmed for good
remove the ones who won't do me any good
even when it was so simple
to say
But never did the consequence
occur to me
the consequence of
losing you
& I'm not quite sure
if I should be sad about it
or relieved that I'm in good hands
& Allah (swt) will find the one that fits me perfectly
May 22, 2016
May 22, 2016 at 3:46 AM UTC
I'm not quite sure
if I’m sad or happy
you’re out of my life
I may not know your intentions
or what you were aiming for
when you hurt
me
but I do hope you're satisfied
with your decision
the decision of
destroying the only one
who stood up for you
May 22, 2016
May 22, 2016 at 3:43 AM UTC
the tricky thing
about growing up
is it’s a choice
puberty happens
because of nature
adulthood is a conscious effort.
May 22, 2016
May 22, 2016 at 3:36 AM UTC