#losingmymind
I fought so hard to get out of this hole.
Lost so much to make myself whole.
Given up a lot to give peace to my soul.
Now it's as if nothing matters anymore
I'm slowly fading back to the abyss,
It stares at me and everything seems amiss
Confusion blocking my thoughts,
Like chains welded to every idea before it forms
Last time i said i would be fine
But as i sip from this bottle of white wine
Trying to forget , or maybe trying to remember
When was the last time i tried leaving this chamber?
I call it my mind but it feels like a cage
It traps me inside but now i want to fade,
Into the background where i can be free
Free from judgment , free from punishment
I look at the table where i put my blade
As i fade , i ask myself what it would take
To feel better like sunshine on my face
To stop running from all my mistakes
The thoughts of killing myself come rushing through my brain
I need a release perhaps a distraction from the pain
I start cutting and feel numb , i feel nothing but this blade,
on my skin and tell myself ,"Let me fade today, fight again another day."
Jun 21, 2025
Jun 21, 2025 at 6:47 AM UTC
My mind wants to sleep,
But my body stays awake.
I'm starting to wonder
If my body's a *********
Because all it does is ache
Dec 29, 2019
Dec 29, 2019 at 7:44 PM UTC
It's funny.
If there was one thing
people could agree on,
It's that we didn't have enough time.
But now that we have all the time
In the world, we're slowly
losing our minds
Mar 30, 2020
Mar 30, 2020 at 6:32 PM UTC
I wish I could just make myself into the person you want me to be.
Even though for some reason you keep telling me to be myself.
What if you don’t like her?
What if I don’t like her?
Because the person I’ve known to be me,
I don’t like.
I don’t like how she looks.
I don’t like how she talks.
But, no one hears that.
It’s all in my mind.
If I want change, why don’t I change?
These days it really feels as though I am truly going insane.
Feb 2, 2020
Feb 2, 2020 at 9:51 AM UTC
bright red bubbles pop from underneath my feet
red as cherry trees that won't grow
can this be blood?
dirt from in between my toenails
i wash off Mother Nature's skin
a leaking coming from my eyes
that washes away dissatisfaction
can these be tears?
the sound of feet against the ground
solid and unloving
i slip
face down into the ground
can this be where life comes from?
an old lady plants flowers in her garden
can this be inspiration?
i am losing my train of thought
can this brain be me?
Jan 2, 2019
Jan 2, 2019 at 11:26 AM UTC
"I think I am losing my mind"
"At least you have a mind to lose"
Jul 29, 2018
Jul 29, 2018 at 11:46 PM UTC
My mind is slipping in and out of crazy,
That fine line between sanity and insanity looks almost blurry and hazy.
Jan 15, 2018
Jan 15, 2018 at 1:22 PM UTC
c'est la vie
another day sacrificed...
another holiday alone.
Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 6:40 AM UTC