#losingafriend
Cancer took you like if had the right.
Like the world owed it something
More precious than it deserved.
( turned out that was you)
I hate it for what it did to you
For the way it stole your smile
And left nothing but silence behind
It made your body a battlefield
Then claimed victory like it had earned it.
I hate it for making you smaller
For the days it stole
The plans we made
That now feel like broken glass in my chest.
It didn't just take you
It left me here. Holding your name
Like a wound I can't stop bleeding from,
Hating somthing I can't even touch,
Wishing hate could ever be enough.
Aug 8, 2025
Aug 8, 2025 at 4:08 AM UTC
ughh i miss you
these are the last words i messaged you
what i wanted to say was
i miss how you used to be
i meant to say
i miss how we were
i meant to say
i miss how much you used to care
i wanted to say
i miss the old you
because i do
but she's long gone
i miss her
Nov 18, 2020
Nov 18, 2020 at 1:27 PM UTC
Two lads, I'd say, of thirteen, just passed;
One in barefoot with a backpack;
One in shorts, shoes and black socks,
Pulled up over bloated calves.
One athletic, lean and gearing;
One more leaning towards academia.
Both waiting to enter high school.
They met in JK.
They slept on their towels, in their tents,
At each other's house on weekends.
They served together, lived as one;
Their mothers loved them as sons.
That's how close they'd become.
Their worlds will change,
Once this season's done.
One will be the talk of his circle,
The other, the talk of his;
But there's a Venn where the rings entwined
Before they turned thirteen.
Their hybrid youth,
Their cloned friendship,
Memories already determined.
Around fires and bells,
Or a covered porch on a rain - washed day;
They'll dig up some old moments
Of the other when they were young.
Buried treasures for days of leisure,
Apart, yet part of their sum.
Jul 17, 2019
Jul 17, 2019 at 11:21 AM UTC
I love you, friend
I have always cared
yet it seems it was not shared
we have laughed
but not cried
and it cannot compare
your tears mystified
I do not know the reason
I do not know the fear inside
that has caused you to poison your mind
You have not shared enough
and I have shared it all
so today together we fall.
Jun 30, 2019
Jun 30, 2019 at 2:01 AM UTC
Isnt it funny to amuse me
To think you can abuse me
Trial after trial,
These cop cars have me thinking
You don’t know what you’re doing
Time after time,
And the fire starts spreading
We're close to beheading
Life over life
Disease of my destruction,
My mothers been crying,
My father’s still rotting,
And I’m too far from resurrection.
Feb 13, 2019
Feb 13, 2019 at 4:05 PM UTC
I could bring you back
A gift from across every sea
Chocolates, rubies, but
I know none would make you happy
I could find a nest upon
A tower high above the town
You could see the sky forever
Never having to look down
I could hold your hand
Everytime you show a fear
You would never have to stay
Alone for I would always be near
I’d take you far and wide as you like
Farther than a train, or bike with
Adventure around every corner
Biting our toes like sweet torture
Your stone cold face haunts me
As I try and try to please you
Yet here I stand trying
When all I do is making you unhappy
I know one day we will part
And I may never see you again
But you’ll stay in my heart
Remembered as my favorite friend
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 3:35 PM UTC
She thinks that she is only silver.
Second place, forever and again.
But this girl ... she is so, so much more.
She is my dear, dearest friend.
Her soul, while brighter than the sun,
is tortured by confusion and things in her past ...
lofty goals that would thwart even the toughest
and a lifestyle going so fast.
Courageous ... and meek.
A warrior ... and a flower ... all at the same time.
Legions of followers, those who look up ... never to see,
the little girl who roams in her mind.
She will get were she is aiming ...
my heart believes in her so.
She is strong, stubborn ... so very brave,
and this child inside her grows.
Now distant, I'll still watch her life
unfold
from this abyss, for reasons that may forever remain
untold.
She is far more valuable than any silver, precious gems ...
yes, even gold.
No object d'art or more costly antiquity ...
has ever,
ever been sold.
I only wish that I could have somehow ...
somehow
made her see ...
that as my friend ... she was so, so much more ...
than merely silver to me.
Apr 23, 2018
Apr 23, 2018 at 7:11 AM UTC
I'm sorry I wasn't a good friend from the start. I should have put down the phone and put in the effort to talk to you. I'm sorry you took me to another state for two weeks and it didn't seem like I was paying any attention to you. I did pay attention to you but when I did you were upset with me. I'm sorry that I was so scared of losing her that I nearly lost you. I'm sorry that while I was there it didn't seem like I was having fun because I was on the phone all the time. I really did enjoy being there with you and I'm very happy I got to spend your 18th birthday with. I guess I just wanna say sorry because I let a relationship get in the way of our friendship and I know it was wrong. Most of all I'm sorry that I'm too scared to apologize to you and that I wrote it here instead.
And now
Thank you, thank you for giving me experiences and adventure that I can't have on the island I grew up on. Thank you for being one if my best friends throughout the years we've known each other and putting up with my crap. Thank you for understanding that this other person made me happier than I have been since you've known me. Thank you for being there to comfort me when all I did was cry because I couldn't figure out which boy I had a crush on and thank you for doing it again when the boy I had a crush on couldn't go to prom with me. Thank you for giving me more than one second chance to prove to you that I wanted to stay in your life.
Jul 24, 2015
Jul 24, 2015 at 7:10 PM UTC
I gave you all I had.
When you were sad, I gave you my happiness. When you were weak, I gave you my strength. When you had nobody, I was your friend. When you were unloved, I loved you. Not a single 'thanks' was even said through your mouth.
Now that you have everything I have given, I have nothing. I became nothing. So, you go to other people to enjoy life, be free, give them what you have, and suddenly, they ruin you. Then, you come to me asking for help. And I reply, "I gave you all I had."
Dec 29, 2014
Dec 29, 2014 at 1:21 AM UTC
I used to be best friends
With this girl in my grade
We hung out after school
Almost every day
Until that day
When she met that girl
That one day
That seemed to change my whole world
She started to change
Faster than I expected
It was like her system
Was suddenly infected
Infected with some disease
That's yet to be named
But until then
I will call it Fame
Fame seems to infect everyone
Person by person
The victims can be anyone
The girl that I knew
Well I guess I didn't know her fully
Because she has become something horrible
She has become a bully
She pushes kids in the hall
And teases everyone
Even I have become a victim
Of her symptoms she feels everyday
Where she forgets that I was her friend
And shoves me and calls me names
She says she never liked me
It was just pretend
And that was the moment
I was pushed off the deep end
I walked right up
To her face and said
Words that she would dread
I told her
That we've all had enough
Of being someone
That she bullies and taunts
Just to have fun
She needs to get some help
Because her bullying time has expired
I think it's time that she retired
Because I know she's not like that
The real her is stuck
Screaming inside
But she has been ignoring her
And pushing her aside
Well she finally changed her image
And her bully days were gone
But the days when we were friends
Have been long gone
Because once you take a glass
And throw it to the floor
It breaks in many pieces
That can't be fixed anymore
Because that's the thing about trust
Once it's crumpled it won't be flat
But will this really happen
The future holds the answer to that
Nov 7, 2014
Nov 7, 2014 at 11:55 PM UTC
This could all be over you know?
All this useless fighting,
All these angry feelings towards each other,
All the talking behind backs,
and getting your friends involved,
and rumors,
and all this ********
it could all be over.
If you would just say your sorry.
why do you have to be so stubborn?
I never did anything wrong,
You're the one at fault here
You're playing this game unfairly.
But I'm done playing.
I'm sick and tired of this.
Aren't you exhausted by this?
Is any of this affecting you at all?
But I'm done.
I'm done with you.
I'm done with all your ********
goodbye.
Oct 11, 2014
Oct 11, 2014 at 11:12 PM UTC