#loney
I learnt to run faster
To distance from my problems
Stockpiling boxes on boxes
Locking away my emotions
I practised the jab
Fighting to get these thoughts out of my head
I stop over-caring
Ended up forgetting how to feel
But the one thing I'll never do
Is confront what's bothering me
Knowing the answer is always y
Jun 21, 2020
Jun 21, 2020 at 6:07 PM UTC
the sadness
is back again
i don't know why
it just seems like every time
i get better
or
i move forward
the world tilts
and all of a sudden
i am no longer running away
i am running into the darkness
always running
and i'm tired
so tired
Oct 21, 2019
Oct 21, 2019 at 8:45 PM UTC
Another weekend home alone
Another weekend gone and blown
Another weekend i'm up late
Trying to find myself a date
Another weekend all dejected
Feeling lost and so rejected
Another weekend full of tears
The same as it has been for years
Another weekend in my head
So god **** completely wasted
Another weekend gone and blown
Another weekend all alone
Jul 22, 2019
Jul 22, 2019 at 1:37 AM UTC
Didn't expect that life without you was going be so hard.
Yes I am lonely.
And I did not expect that lonelyness could be so hurtful.
May 3, 2019
May 3, 2019 at 10:48 AM UTC
I lost myself in the nightsky
scaring me with it´s creatures
and found a stranger in the sunrise
blinding me with it´s shine
and the red sky left me stained
hiding my true colors
it was when the ocean turned purple
and the sky began to cry
soaking me with it´s odor
washing away my fragrance
that the reflection in the ocean
showed a stranger in me
So scared of the night I hid myself
becoming the spectator of my life
watching without interacting
silently in the back of my mind
I lost myself in the night
fearing it´s monsters
but the shine of the moon
brought me back
and as the sun rised
I finally saw
I was the monster
all along
Apr 30, 2019
Apr 30, 2019 at 7:56 AM UTC
I made a new friend
She is short and sweet
She is the best
so happy we got to meet
We do everything together
We share all our secrets
Confide in each other
and embrace the uniqueness
We bonded so fast
And are both equally clumsy
We giggle at our mishaps
And our awkward tendencies
My friend has a boyfriend
She takes him everywhere
We all hang out
They make a good pair
But lately its been hard
There has been a lot of meetings
Used to have her to myself
This kinda feels like stealing
I am happy for her
I'm sure i would do the same
If i were in her position
I would surely sing his name
But I'm a single pringle
And this can make things hard
All my friends are dating
Guess i was dealt a different card
But i wish that they could know
How lonely it can feel
when you get stuck
being the third wheel
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 12:46 AM UTC
Yet to shine!
The golden side is yet to shine
The mountains within are still to rise
The shadows in the valley are yet too dark
But the peaks at the top are in my sight..
The lonely bird will reach there first
The wind is cold but his aim is bright
He doesnt feather away of the stones that were pelled
He sings song of the warriors he puts in a fight..
He tries to fly ..,each day all the way
From hills to the rivers
From every sand to each bay
He gets no rest no help no stay
His heart guides him all
doesnt complain but prays
And he finds his way struggling someday
The troubles the pain all wither away
And the peak when he reaches he looks at the world
The men who tried to pull him down
Are singing songs of his glory day!
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 2:25 AM UTC
Dear Imaginary friend,
Can I tell you a secret?
I am you...
...you are me.
Dec 15, 2018
Dec 15, 2018 at 3:16 PM UTC
6th grade... we were friends
7th... we were best friends
I remember the day
We decided
How our lives were going to continue
together
inseparable
classmates thought we were twins
8th grade... we grew closer
I told you I needed you
I cried in front of you
I revealed my biggest secret
to you
and with your help
I came out
but then
you found others
and our circle grew
It was okay
for a while
but as you became extroverted
and popular
and liked
I became an outcast
I didn't realize it at the time
But it was so obvious
At the end of that year
I started to see
How you thought I was clingy
Messed up
A burden
You were my only friend
And you hated me
But you were too nice to let me know
The last day of school came
we promised we'd get together
but days came and passed
I never saw you
you never texted
9th grade has come
you don't even look at me like a friend
I had a panic attack today
in front of you
not intentionally
but I would have hoped you could have helped
and you just watched
as I burned from within
I knew for some time
but now its all to obvious
You never liked me
You never will
But really
you were all I had
Sep 17, 2018
Sep 17, 2018 at 4:36 PM UTC
my house
There is a large grey cat sitting on
a small house’s front porch
he’s not looking at me but I’m looking at him,
though the taxi car window.
The taxi driver
is beating an uneven rhythm,
on the steering wheel
as he waits for the light to change.
My life is changing
All around me and
I’m moving away
from everything I’ve ever known.
From a small suburban home,
into a small urban apartment,
in the heart of the city,
with only my mother.
My mother is the one
I’d miss the least but
she’s the one who is
coming with me.
We are bringing so little with us,
it was an excuse to clear out
our house but it made it
impossible for me to get out.
Not that I had many
places to go,
I didn't have very many friends,
but I’d walk to the park and sit on the swings
Drifting back and forth,
across from my first grade best friend’s house.
In second grade we drifted apart but that
it might have been because I got better grades.
I was always good at school
and I could walk there
from my house.
From my old house.
The taxi starts moving
away from the house and the cat.
The taxi driver has
stopped drumming.
Jun 29, 2017
Jun 29, 2017 at 12:52 AM UTC
She sits alone
rolling the ice cubes around
the bottom of her empty glass
at first I am filled with
the overwhelming desire to approach
but as I look harder
between the blades of strobed lights
I see her cracks
though she sits as still at the night owl
deafened by the cacophony of
foolish conversation and bad music
I see she is unstable
I see she has not come for company
yet neither does she wish to be alone
this is her
the night owl
an empty house
an empty bed
but what is not empty
is the inside of her head
she is truly magnificent
but know one will ever know
Apr 2, 2017
Apr 2, 2017 at 3:48 AM UTC
He was quiet. Speaking only when necessary, but rarely at all.
He was talented and loving,
caring and funny.
Until his love slipped out of his hands.
Lost and lonely,
Sacred and sad,
He sat there, heartbroken and wondering
what could be next.
When the love was gone, talent prevailed;
showing his true colors and the feelings he had within.
He shared his thoughts with the world, and the world approved.
The music came from the soul, reaching all who could relate
to his devastating loss, yet had faith.
When he found himself again, he found the love he once lost. This time in the form of a human, not just a dog.
Ah but that's just it- he was never "just a dog" he was man's best friend, hero and savior.
She'll never save him the way that dog did, but she can surely try.
Keeping his hopes and dreams alive,
she stood by his side,
never losing faith.
When he seems to stray, she pulls him in, only to watch him stray farther. The silence tugs at her heartstrings because she's said it all, and it wasn't enough.
But what could she expect from a man so quiet, only his dog could understand?
Nov 25, 2015
Nov 25, 2015 at 3:14 PM UTC
Everyone is given a set of bricks
From a young age my parents built a pedestal
with those bricks
held me high above the others around
Bricks of compliments and loving gestures
layed beneath my feet
At a certain age
I became old enough
to lift up bricks on my own
Methodically I layed them all around me
My parents now too busy
it became a job of my own
But there was just one problem
I forgot to pick up my feet
What I had been building was no pedestal
but instead a wall
By time I realized this though
others realized they had bricks too
instead of building themselves up
they hurled bricks
to knock others down
My walls now had a purpose
So I continued to build
the walls rising above my head
and ending at my arms length
I had built myself a prison
to protect myself from others
It was very lonely in my prison
just my thoughts and me
And although what layed beneath my feet was love
The wall around me was made of fear
and the outside world of hate
Jun 3, 2015
Jun 3, 2015 at 12:08 PM UTC
Strapless dress
Her confidence is high
She know's she's prettier than the rest
but she lets out a lonely sigh
She's nothing but a product of loveliness
Anyone can tell her but she won't believe
She sees nothing but ugliness
Never to be relieved.
She sees a light within
She hopes someone will notice it
More than the sins
And not be a hypocrite
She can't wait to meet him
The one who will be there through thick and thin
The one to light up the dim
He with tough skin
She remembers when it was first felt
Something infatuational
so much so she melted
but it wasn't real or actual
She moved on
she tells herself the lie.
That chapter was full of pros and cons
At least no knots were tied
Yet she still doesn't know she's perfect
everything she does, she does for good
her touch affects
The only thing about her that's understood
Someone will come along
she'll just have to wait
it's worth the delay, she'll write a hundred songs
He will come, even if it's late
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 16, 2014 at 9:11 PM UTC
Isn’t it absolutely ridiculous how I miss you more and more each day? How I nearly didn’t even know you but your death took my inner self and destroyed it? How one can never appreciate things, but when they’re gone they actually ******* hurt? sight
How the world loses thousands of people in a day but almost no one notices? How when someone dies people that didn’t even knew whom that person was go through hell? How the world goes round and round but nobody notices? How people are sad, depressed and nearly no one cares? But the funny part is that none of this is actually ridiculous. It is the absolute truth.
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 5:21 PM UTC