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You left even though you promised you wouldn't
But you didn't leave in the way people think you did
You didn't just leave me
You left your family too
I remember getting that call
Saying I needed to sit down
I remember your mom asking me to come out to you guys
Well, not you I guess
To see them so we could discuss what happened
I was shocked
I thought that it was a lie
But, it wasn't
It's been over a year
And I'm still shocked
I still can't believe it
It doesn't feel real
I still have vivid dreams
I miss you,
I still have that note that you left
And I still have our pictures,
I still have all of our memories
I don't really talk to your family as much as I used to
I still talk to them though
I haven't seen them since you left us
I wonder if your room still looks the same
I wonder if your mom and dad have changed your room any since the last time we were in there together
I wonder if they clean your bedroom or if your room has a layer of dust that they don't dare touch because they can still smell your scent
They still have your cologne and every picture of you is still up in their house
We talk about how different the world seems without you
You weren't just my sunshine, you were everybody's
It's been dark and gloomy since you left
Even if it doesn't look like that for other people who didn't know you,
It does for us, we don't have a day we don't think about you.
We always talk about how much we miss you.
It drives me crazy
I feel like people don't understand why relationships are so complicated for me now
You meant the world to me and once you left, things got so much more complicated for me
Relationships, friendships, anything
I think about you all of the time
Even though I can't tell people that.
I will always love you,
I still do things that remind me of you
Like in June, I'm going to a concert that I know you would have loved to go to with me
You will always be in my mind
I know you will be by my side at this concert.
I always miss you but, I can't tell people
My parents always tell me that they miss you and they miss you coming over and spending time with us
You lit up my parents world because that was the first time that they saw me happy in the longest time
I don't blame you for what happened
I could never blame you but I miss you
It still feels weird saying that you're gone
I miss you everyday and I love you J, My parents do too
Your parents and brother miss you everyday
We all love you and miss you
Mar 27
Mar 27, 2026 at 8:33 AM UTC
I don't understand
Why did you have to leave?
You were my light, my favorite person
You were there through everything,
and just like that
Gone.
No goodbye, none other than a note
and a call from your mom crying
Telling me I needed to fly out ASAP
Why?
I miss you everyday
Everyone wonders and asks
"Why do you always look at the sky?"
I never know how to answer, I just tear up a little more each time
I always remind myself how beautiful you look and how beautiful you make it each and everyday.
I wonder if your family sees the same thing.
I wonder if your room still looks the same
Or did your family change it.
I still don't understand that you are gone.
It's been over a year and I don't understand it.
I miss you everyday.
Mar 24
Mar 24, 2026 at 1:58 PM UTC
Woke up
To find out you were gone
I still feel your energy and remember everything you said
You made music that so many people could relate to
Numb to all the things that were said about you
People always trying to make you look like a bad person
But you will always reside in my mind and heart
I miss you Jahseh Dwayne Onfroy
Rest In Paradise
Nov 24, 2018
Nov 24, 2018 at 11:22 AM UTC