#lastnight
last night I called my girlfriend
last night I broke my toe
last night I told her about my toe
last night she told me to go to the doctor
last night I told her I didn't wanna go to the doctor
last night she lead me through why I didn't wanna go
last night I told her I was too scared
last night I told her I thought they were judging me when I went
last night she asked in what way
last night I told her I thought it was because I was fat
last night I cried my eyes out on the phone
last night she told me for an hour I wasnt
last night I refused to believe her'
last night she hung up after I wouldn't listen
last night I started panicking that she wasn't there anymore
last night I thought about killing myself
last night I couldn't take it anymore and called the hotline
last night they didn't reply
last night they never connected me with anyone
last night I didn't have anyone to go to because
last night she was gone so I was alone
last night I was so close to goodbye
but last night also told me I couldnt leave her like that
last night knew I couldn't die with her dissapointed
last night knew I needed to fix myself before I was gone
last night I fell asleep before I did anything
and this morning I woke up
I texted my girlfriend good morning
and I told her I promised I would be better
because last night believed I could
Dec 3, 2025
Dec 3, 2025 at 5:41 PM UTC
i watched the brightest star in the sky through my melancholy filled eyes
i think i saw your silhouette dancing in the brisk winter air
my pupils became satellites
and if i wasn’t so petrified i woulda cried
but it isn’t on me
and i cry in secrecy
i think i saw you pirouette by the dwindling shine of the star
but that’s just a thought of mine
i thought i’d bring to mind
Feb 6, 2022
Feb 6, 2022 at 9:38 PM UTC
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, friendships are like gold-so hard to find so easy to lose:]
on the border you await
eyes lighten up on the pupils dilate
shut up as always you sense
vulnerability on the walk so immense
when you embrace never flinch never haste
a rock you are on locked doors no waste
red sweaters on black disobey
even when unknown glances pass
a souvenir from past lives mass
------ravenfeels
Apr 14, 2021
Apr 14, 2021 at 4:38 PM UTC
I used to say: "I will never hate anyone"
But now, I think I hate someone
And guess who...
That "noise" which woke me up
And stopped me
from kissing you
In Lastnight's Dream....
Jul 29, 2018
Jul 29, 2018 at 4:52 AM UTC
Ngayon...
Habang magkahawak ang kamay na tatalon
Tayo'y magpapaalam sa panahon
Kasabay ng mga alon
Ay itataya ang pagkakataon
Para sa pag-asang sa muli nating pag-ahon
Ay maglalaho na ang ilusyon
Imahinasyon.
Oct 18, 2017
Oct 18, 2017 at 12:33 AM UTC
Sun slowly peeps
sunbeams, yet to waken
sleepy eyes, minds
sky is gray this morning
several hours past a tremor
no wind to stir action
bamboos, fruit trees
are stilled
currently
awaiting movements
worse than 5.4
it's crazier,
awaiting aftershocks...
Sally
Copyright May 26, 2017
Rosalia Rosario A. Bayan
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 7:35 PM UTC
All I Ask by Adele
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
Cause what if I never love again?
Apr 19, 2016
Apr 19, 2016 at 10:42 PM UTC
"We can't do this anymore,"
you said to me in a dream.
I'm so happy that you're happy,
but I wish that it were me.
It's human nature to be selfish,
that's why my heart is torn in two;
I was here when no one else was
I only wish that I knew
where and with whom
your heart lies
because the truths you've told
have been far too few.
My arms are holding blankets
and you're in her arms now.
I guess this is the final curtain call:
Please
Stand up
and take a bow.
Apr 9, 2016
Apr 9, 2016 at 11:27 AM UTC
I dreamed
there was a evil man
searching for wealth
beyond all riches
hidden in the hardened
sculpture of a woman
there was a hero too
I could not see his face
he journeyed to a sacred cave
to guard the precious treasure
he climbed inside
the statue's hollow center
and held the treasure to his chest
where it radiated
with such intensity
he had to close his eyes
it gently pulsed in his hands
calming the anxiousness
leaching sour
in his throat
the villain
shrouded black
entered the cave
a belligerent pirate
yelling obscenities
*where are you *****
when I find you, you'll be sorry
you think you can hide from me?
no one will ever love you
the way that I do*
his craven hunger upon seeing
the lost prize glowing heavenly
beneath sapphire stalactites
left this dreamer cold
he began to tear
at the sculpture's *******
with hands encased in forged steel
spiked fingernails slicing
until shimmering gold bloomed
in the statue's chest
zealously the villain tore deeper
molten yellow dripped
from his over-eager fingers
when suddenly from the center
came a flash of scorching fire
the villain dissolved to ash
without a single sound
the hero too transformed
into a luminous bird
not unlike a phoenix
he shook fresh wings
flexed honed talons
raised his crested head
and from hooked beak
there came a sound
like a choir of voices singing
the hero flapped three times
and soared out of the cavern
into the bluest sky
I'd ever seen
Mar 9, 2016
Mar 9, 2016 at 11:50 AM UTC
The rain had stopped
Hours ago,
Class had been cropped
Only miles to go,
The cars drive by
Splashing and dragging water,
Not another sound to be heard
Just the swirling patter,
As the water is thrown off the wheels
And onto the pavement,
It’s a sound that appeals
To a certain extent,
Vehicles drive by fast
Their sounds soon swallowed by the damp air,
As my mind is recast
And I pull back my hair,
A new rain starts falling
Giving new thoughts that draw in
I wonder if this rain
Had been with you,
Barely a week ago
When you thought I should know
That the rain was falling down
Outside where your are,
I reach my car
I seem stuck in place,
You are so far,
I wish to hold you in my embrace
The weather is perfect for that
I think to myself
I wonder where you’re at
As I’m wishing to see your face
I shake my head and get into the car
One last glance
At the rain water dance
We’ll get our chance
Until then we romance.
Jan 31, 2016
Jan 31, 2016 at 10:17 PM UTC
My jeans between the sheets
Feel like strangers on my legs.
All six of my dollars,
Wadded and shoved in the front pockets,
Smell like last night's soiree.
I get up,
It's 2 pm,
And glare at my half-naked body
In the blurry mirror.
I like myself when I don't eat,
But I swallow a handful of cereal from their kitchen
For Mom.
I can still taste the cigs that he hates,
And old beer is sticky between my fingers.
I can't remember getting this bruise
Or this one. Or this one.
I bruise like a peach.
I do remember sloppy kisses
With my roommate,
How her lips were softer than mine
And I remember feeling full
Of love and of *****
I am happy.
Nov 15, 2015
Nov 15, 2015 at 11:20 PM UTC
My head aches from last night.
Another late night filled with highs;
pills, drinks and so much more.
Even the running seemed like a dream
Oct 17, 2015
Oct 17, 2015 at 11:33 PM UTC
Kiss me like if this night was the last night.
Night, last night you could see beyond my eyes.
Eyes, beyond my eyes there is this lonely girl.
Girl, lonely girl wondering who could listen to her.
Kiss her thru this last night beyond her eyes.
Lonely girl just listen to her.
Jul 17, 2015
Jul 17, 2015 at 10:27 AM UTC
We stand on tonight
with adrenaline running
in our veins
Taking pictures,
videos
capturing every moment
to make sure we don't
forget this.
Because we take tabs of
acid outside McDonald's
and venture to some park.
The trees become the air
and my skin is liquid
vibrating through your
bones.
Playgrounds and swing sets
become home.
Truth or dare's muttered
from closed lips.
And then it's him.
With his nicknames for
everything. I am his
crazy little girl.
That alone "I am his"
has my stomach tumbling
like tumble ****
I find him at a gas
station.
Then I find myself
in his van and
we're on a road
trip to the edge of
the world.
We are as fluid as
the blood in my veins
walking through the
gate to sins. *****
is in my hand.
**** it" whispered in my
ear
and trust me. I chugged the *****
Like water,
But they said they
had sympathy burns
in their chest.
We lit the world on fire.
Called it a challenge.
Begged the world to be
as stupid as us to light
our hands on fire.
Trying to touch
the end before
we're really there.
We stood on the night
opening cans with our
teeth.
Whiskey on our taste
buds.
She held my hand and I
could feel her insides shiver.
My veins were on fire
and I could feel them
twist around each other
like grapevines trying to
help me grow into
something better.
We stood on top of last
night.
Had it on the ground
in a choke hold.
Sat on it's back
Pulling it's hair.
The ground was ours
to walk on and I
swear I was real.
I was in my skin
and saw through my eyes.
I felt my own flesh
burn.
And I promise you
I breathed air through
my own lungs.
I touched everyone
with my own finger
tips.
People were art
and I was a
deaf student
with eyesight as
a feast.
Your personalities are
entrees and all I want
is to have a taste.
You are all books.
And I have had
thirst for your words
since birth.
Tonight is the end
of my world.
And I will make
peace with loose ends.
But I promise you
there will be more
threads than when
I started this quest.
But my insides run with
liquids I don't understand.
Bittersweet honey runs from
my eyes when I cry.
My sweat is
sickeningly salty
and my blood does not
run red. It is sugar
tore from a cinnamon
bun between your teeth.
Tonight I am inside my
head and I am
real.
Let me discover
what my brain whispers
in the dark when
I'm alone.
How do my knees quake
when I'm scared?
You say you love
me so well.
What do you love?
Because it's a road
trip to the edge of
the world.
I have grown into my skin
and I don't think you
know what I feel like full.
I have been empty and
gone.
But tonight I'm here.
I stand on tonight
and I am here.
I am alive.
and I am your crazy
little girl.
May 31, 2015
May 31, 2015 at 7:32 PM UTC
Gun pointed to my head
Is it time to die or just time for bed
The barrel gives me goodnight kisses and the alcohol is a bed time story
Every night doing inventory in my mind wondering if I should do it
If most people saw this they'd shudder in fear
But I'm not worried
I want this I pray for this
If I finish my story tonight would anyone cry why won't you be mine how do you really feel inside
tick tock goes the clock and ring it has struck 12
The day has begun
I throw the gun to the floor
Another night gone another day come
leaving me here longer to rot in a burning world
May 4, 2015
May 4, 2015 at 10:05 PM UTC
last night i had a dream about you
thank god it wasn't true
she and i were fighting just us two over you
i was sure to be winning
she had her faced smashed in
her eyes had my fingers digged in
yet she was still the one to win
crazy how my heart felt, full of hate and resent.. thank god this wasn't true
what happened next was the one for the true win to your soul
she and you had texts back and forth
never had words put me in such feels, in such tears with fear
you told her you loved her
that's something you never told me
that's something i always wished to me you told
something i always hoped for
whats worse is waking up to knowing you're still gone and still no longer mine
why'd you have to go? guess it just wasn't our time
whats worse is you walking away without even saying goodbye
hard looking back and knowing you were once my lullaby
these memories still hurt still sting looking back
reminiscing on the day you said you'd catch me if i fall, guess you let me slip through the crack
now you got me here wondering if everything was my fault
can't believe i wrote you poem after poem showing you my love
i even wrote bout how you taught me how to love, just wish i knew then that it was all false
now all i have is a lesson lived, lesson learned
i know now to never love and to never fall.
Dec 14, 2014
Dec 14, 2014 at 10:47 PM UTC
To find something that was not there before,
To stare at a telephone that will not ring,
With a tiredness of the eyes and a taint of the heart.
To notice that sometimes words are not enough.
To follow the dances of strange fingerprints,
To terrorize the etchings on the skin,
To burn last nights cigarettes into the lips.
To distract the longing of the heart.
To know a moment in many different ways,
To understand that it could not exist,
To wonder if it was ever there at all.
To find a sincerity in delusion.
To understand the power moonbeams,
How they mar the bones, in their fictions,
To know the subtle parallels of love and hate,
How they act as partners in crime.
To the devastating follies that transpired in the night.
So hauntingly lovely.
That one may not mind carrying them,
Like sad love letters, clinging to the loneliness of secret places.
It's the type of sadness you don’t really mind noticing.
-
*"I wish I could kiss you all night."
"Maybe you just might."*
Jun 22, 2014
Jun 22, 2014 at 12:10 PM UTC
now i'm fading
Me too. Holding you. Lips on your cheek.
feeling it
Hold onto it
breathing it in
Breathing you in
always
*Always
Goodnight my love*
**goodnight.
sweetest dreams**
Mar 28, 2014
Mar 28, 2014 at 6:22 PM UTC