#kissymarie
I hate the way I
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in love
With a whisper
That LOOK
you know the one I mean
Always with the one I know will leave.
Is it really love that I crave
Or an excuse to wallow in my misery?
Oct 27, 2015
Oct 27, 2015 at 12:16 AM UTC
*Huddled in the shower
The hot spray mingling with my tears
As I gaze back
Through the shattered years
Trembling and shaking
I saw you today
I ran and hid
Tried to think you away
I thought I was fine
I thought I'd healed
Thought I'd recovered from
The power you used to wield
You stole my sanity
I was just a little girl
Who'd never had a father
When you entered my world
For eons you used me
You dragged me into hell
And when I escaped
I thought I'd get well
Almost two decades
Have came and gone
But today I discovered
My mind is still wrong*
Nov 6, 2014
Nov 6, 2014 at 6:57 AM UTC
You don't give a ****
About us vets
You pay us lip service
And leave us in debt
Cancel our appointments
But when we call
To reschedule you act
Like WE dropped the ball
I've been waiting 2 years
For my ****** up shoulder
You keep handing me pills
And my will grows colder
Now three of my battles
Have taken their life
Today one shot himself
In front of his kids and wife
Oh, NOW you care?
**** OFF VA, SCREW YOU!!!**
Just hand me my pills
Like you usually do
Oh, why are you angry?
You must not like to hear
What most of us vets
Have heard from you for years
**** you too, VA
Oct 23, 2014
Oct 23, 2014 at 9:23 PM UTC
*You haunt me in dreams
That are tinged with the vibrant echoes
Of our nighttime phone calls*
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 8:57 AM UTC
*Your soul mirrors mine
I see every scratch
That is reflected
It's like our scars match
My heart is stretched out
With shimmering stands
That reach out to you
Across the lands
But they don't have to stretch
From the gulf to the Pacific
For the stands of your soul
Reach out for the specific
Parts of me that match you
At last they join together
Though the distance is far
It's like we're together
For our souls
Have always been
Connected unseen
Soon together again*
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 10:00 AM UTC
*For so many years I wandered
Through the night
With your sister Selene,
Laughing and smiling:
A grim facade
So no one would question me.
Her cold moonlight
Allowed my charade to go unnoticed.*
*Little did I know that you,
My very own Helios,
Were floating through my night unseen
On the flat underbelly of the earth.*
*Then without warning
I saw your other sister Eos.
She taunted me
With the first of your rays,
Giving me a glimpse
Of what it meant to walk in your light.
Snatches of the impending dawn
Teased me with their muted hues.*
*Suddenly, you in your golden chariot Peeked just over the horizon
I tried to flee west;
Afraid to believe
The warming rays emanating
From you could be real.
I tried to uproot the gleaming tendrils
From my jaded heart
But I couldn't outrun the sun.*
*So I gave up trying.
I turned to face you.
I kept my eyes closed at first,
Cautiously
Letting the radiance of your being Illuminate the damaged corners;
The scars of my aura
Layed bare before your brilliance.*
And still you came.
*So I opened my eyes
And saw that every scar,
Every damaged piece of my spirit
Was made beautiful
Before your smoldering gaze.*
*Joyously I took your outstretched hand
Now I wander with you
Through the painted mesa skies
From cloud to cloud
In a leaping pirouette
Never to allow the night
To take residence in my heart again.*
Oct 17, 2014
Oct 17, 2014 at 9:37 AM UTC
*The cool night wind sings
Of trust, hope, desire, and other things
A lullaby about our love.*
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 16, 2014 at 8:20 AM UTC
We wear coats in the morning and shorts at night.
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 16, 2014 at 7:39 AM UTC
There are times I feel like my brain has shattered into a million shards of ice
Reflecting the rainbows of the sun's light
Each color a memory that I can't shake free
And there are times I feel like the world is mine
Like every millisecond is a luxury of sights and sounds
Sleepless weeks alternating with weeks of sleep
The handful of pills never quite evening up the scale
Tortured dreams from which I wake screaming or paralyzed
Unable to do anything but fear
But even in the worst days I look back on my lifelong roller coaster ride and remember this:
You can't enjoy the ride if the track stays flat. If your car doesn't sink it can't rise
Oct 15, 2014
Oct 15, 2014 at 10:51 PM UTC
It don't take much to make me happy
'Cause I'm from the south
I just need some good soul food
To cram into my mouth
Or I can sit on the creek bank
With my best fishing pole
Casting my line expertly
Into my secret fishing hole
A moonlit hike into the woods
Will soothe my achin' soul
Them city folks don't understand
It's better than silver or gold
When Sunday rolls around it's time
To get myself dressed up
The laying of hands and speaking in tongues
Will come if the Spirit moves us
There's a glamour to the south
Like a work of art that's living
Even the poorest of the poor
Open their hearts and are giving
So call me a redneck or a hick
It doesn't matter to me
I'm proud to be a southern girl
There's no place I'd rather be
Oct 15, 2014
Oct 15, 2014 at 9:00 PM UTC
explicit
Let the strangers be scared again, my dear
It's finally my turn to incite fear
Last time I was your sweet innocent angel
This time I'll be your Jezebel
The underwear you ripped off me and cast beside the chair?
I'll use them to bind your wrists then grab you by the hair.
Then I'll pull your head to the side so I can bite
And scratch and bleed you until your pain turns into delight
I'll kiss you with your blood on my lips and force you roughly down
My yellowish eyes filled with evil glee like a demented clown
I'll bite your chin and slither down
Nibbling and feeding at each place I've found
Until I reach the place you want to be touched
There's fear in your eyes now; you see my bloodlust
Then I'll start caressing
Teasing
Pleasing
Until you are begging
Pleading
Needing
And you break free of your silken chain
To remind me once again
Why I'm a daughter of Eve
And you're a child of Cain
Oct 15, 2014
Oct 15, 2014 at 4:33 PM UTC
I'm not myself when you're around
I sink back into old habits
You make me giggle like a teen
And I stutter and blush when I hear your name
Your voice sends shivers down my spine
Your hazel eyes like forest pools
Tiled with the falling leaves
Make my blood rush to my head
Your soft full lips were made to be pressed
Against mine with bruising strength
Your strong arms to crush me to you
In a hearted embrace
And I was made to live for you
My hair to curtain your face as we kiss
My nails to dig into your back
My yellowish eyes to hypnotize you
Into not feeling quite like yourself
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 11:37 PM UTC
Falling
Leaves
Herald
Coming
Fall
Coming
Heralds
Leaves
Falling
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 9:43 PM UTC
Clever you
Sadistic me
You think you've won
But you don't see
The sinister plot
I've laid for thee
Clever you
Sadistic me
Terrified you
Elated me
I've gagged and bound
You to a tree
You eyes are pleading
SET ME FREE
Terrified you
Elated me
No more you
There's only me
That's what happens
Without loyalty
I loved you
You cheated on me
No more you
There's only me
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 9:23 PM UTC
I know why the dolphins play
And laugh and squeal every day.
Look it up and you will see
They **** humans in the sea.
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 7:38 PM UTC
My dear son
I pray you'll never know
How cruel this world can be
I pray your charm and dimpled smile
Will be your shield
I see these sweet kids just like you
On YouTube
Thinking the world is their friend
Being lured with kind words
Then beat down
Being invited to do the ice bucket challenge
Then doused with **** and ****
All they want is to belong
All they want is to be loved
To be on the inside for once
Instead of outside looking in
Sweet boy, I hope you'll never understand
What the other kids mean
When they call you ********
I hope you never cease to believe
They're laughing with you
Not at you
But more than that I pray
You'll be like the other kids someday
Able to communicate
Able to drive a car
Get a job
Go to college
Get married
But for now I'm grateful for each advance
And I pray that one day
I'll be worthy of you
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 7:17 PM UTC
She says that she's sorry,
But don't believe
She is nothing
But a thief
Not sorry she stole
And whose only thought
Is that she's sorry
She got caught
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 2:26 PM UTC
I want to be where the night hags scream
As they feed off the fears of man
I want to live where the nightmares are dreamed
And survey the scorched desert lands
I want to hide in the goblin's lair
Slipping out for a taste from the ***
Where he cooks the men who journey there
And feasts on them while they're hot
I want to fly through the midnight sky
With the vampires who feed
On unknowing victims from throats and thighs
I want to see them bleed
I want to live like it's All Hallow's Eve
Titillated all year by every scare
But since I can not I do things unseen
So, my dear friends, BEWARE
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 11:29 AM UTC
A double handful of children you raised
Way back in the olden days
You made their clothes from flour sacks
Did work that'd break a strong man's back
Your husband kept a drink in hand
And gave away food to the band
Of children living down the street
When you could barely make ends meet
You were so talented musically
For any instrument you'd see
You only had to sit a while
And soon your music would cause smiles
You loved to dance the jitterbug
In the parade in the back of a truck
Though some said you were too old
You simply smiled and told them no
I always loved it when we'd fish
And it is my finest wish
To tell you great-grandmother dear
Though you are gone you are still here
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 10:19 AM UTC
When I first saw you
And you saw me too
Sparks of passion ignited my veins.
I looked in your eyes
And tried to disguise
The fact that my heart was riddled with pain.
For you had a girl
Who was your whole world
And all of my love was all in vain.
So I bided my time
And sipped on my wine
And silently prayed that one day
That you'd call it quits
And after the split
You would come to me and say
Well I like you baby
Do you think that maybe
We could spend a few lazy
Days alone?
Or maybe talk on the phone?
Cause girl you know
You drive me crazy.
You make my mind go
Fuzzy and hazy.
So tell me baby
Do you think maybe?
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 9:25 AM UTC
When I feel the thunder crashing
I imagine it's the thrashing
Of my sweet sadistic lover
Snatching me out of the covers
When I hear the storm winds howling
I imagine it's the growling
Of my lover in the night
His eyes filled with evil light
When I feel the rain drops falling
It makes my mind start recalling
Tears my lover brought to me
From pleasure and pain mixed expertly
When my lover leaves me bleeding
Fully sated but still needing
Another ***** romp with him
But next time I'm S and he's M
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 12:53 AM UTC
The autumn winds are blowing fierce
They gust across my face
As I tiptoe through the woods
Beneath the leaves that fall
In a gentle rain
The cinnamon smell of loamy earth
Greets me with each step I take
As I tiptoe through the woods
Beneath the branches shaking loose
Leaves that have seen better days
The pop of mushrooms underfoot
Their fleshy insides I now see
As I tiptoe through the woods
Beneath the kamikaze leaves
That give themselves to the autumn breeze
Oct 13, 2014
Oct 13, 2014 at 4:38 PM UTC
There is a very secret place
That exists between day and night
If you're patient then some day
You may see the land of Twilight.
The gates to enter are so slight
If you see them it may seem
A trick of the sunset's light
A fairy's passing dream
So pay heed to the change of time
For lilac hues of coming night
Truly love to pantomime
The secret land of Twilight
You'll know when you've timed it right
For the spangled fairy wings
Will lend a softly shimmering light
To a host of other things
Pregnant dew drops standing by
Patiently awaiting night
Stars twinkling a lullaby
Before they take their dazzling flight
The creatures of the dark that bite
Are sharpening their pointy teeth
On the last of sunset's shards of light
Surveying what's beneath
Should the Moon, empress of this land
See you taking in these sights
She will take you by the hand
And lead you gently into night
And you'll wonder all your life
Was it real or just a dream
For in the secret land of Twilight
Things aren't ever as they seem.
Oct 13, 2014
Oct 13, 2014 at 8:02 AM UTC
I know you truly hate me
From a distance
When you see me you're reminded
That you wasted your chance
Oct 12, 2014
Oct 12, 2014 at 8:23 PM UTC
I am
Long hair and swinging hips
With natural pouty lips
A smile that hides my intellect
A piercing gaze you can't forget
I am
Long legs with large soft thighs
With yellow flecked eyes
The sweetest of your dreams
The nightmares that evoke screams
I am
The girl with the skull tattoo
Who wants more too
The bringer of your pain
Who only wants the same.
I am
She who died inside
Until you made me rise
Oct 12, 2014
Oct 12, 2014 at 4:08 PM UTC