#kills
When you were born, oh my dear,
No doctor—no midwife predicted,
But, oh my dear, you've been a granny,
All throughout, all throughout.
When I first saw you,
I wanted to take you home,
Adorable, lovable, and pure
I really did want to kidnap you.
Why, you ask me...
Look at yourself,
Those pure eyes,
That cute face,
And that cuddly body.
I saw you in 2024,
And you were 24 years old,
I realised you're a 24-year-old grandma.
No fun, no bun, no run.
Oh, Teddy, I so wish...
I hope that you realised it...
Your words hurt me...
How you compared hurt me...
You generalised my trauma,
How could you compare?
You said, "Disabled people even clear UPSC-CSE,"
But you didn't stop there,
And you kept misbehaving...
If you never wanted to marry me,
You could've simply told your mom.
Off and on,
Undying spirit,
Not of positivity,
But of vengeance.
You never actually apologised,
So, I never forgave,
But it's hard,
Yes, it's so hard,
Hard to forget what we forged.
I had seen a world in your eyes,
In my mind, I had seen a future,
A future where you are with me,
A future where I train you, honey.
But why did we separate out?
C'mon now, tell me, why did we?
Couldn't you just be mine?
I wanted to live with you.
What was the need for separation?
I'm perplexed by how things went.
It was so right initially, the elation.
Why did the things prematurely end?
Nov 1, 2024
Nov 1, 2024 at 4:21 AM UTC
I know I pull nerves sometimes
Your stomach left feeling hollow
Chest rhythms identical
In your footsteps swear not to follow
A solid lump forms in throat
Weighing down heart
So fragile I experience pain
Cry even miles apart
I may not have gotten to select you
But I wouldn't have ever picked another
If death kills you hope you haunt me
Because I can't imagine life without my mother
Aug 23, 2024
Aug 23, 2024 at 4:08 AM UTC
overthinking is like
killing yourself
with your own hands
this way you don't need
to hire a killer for yourself to die
Apr 11, 2021
Apr 11, 2021 at 6:19 AM UTC
you expect the perfection
i expect the acception
what a negotiation
Apr 7, 2020
Apr 7, 2020 at 2:53 AM UTC
Is there a line that we all draw ourselves somewhere in the sands of time?
Marking the point in your life where, 'just beyond this, is crazy'?
Do you play with yours too?
Balancing, tip-toeing, peeking, backing up and
Running to the edge right before you
Catch yourself on the tip of your toe, to turn around and keep looking down.
The big jump.
Do we all wonder and ask ourselves?
What if?
What if I just did it?
What if I just did the THING?
The scarier thing for me is being stuck, sandwiched on the tightrope between just ******* jumping and never jumping at all.
Always wondering.
Always daydreaming.
Living,
Breathing,
Walking
Regret.
Mar 28, 2020
Mar 28, 2020 at 5:44 AM UTC
the wolf howls
the bear growls
the man silently kills
Feb 1, 2020
Feb 1, 2020 at 3:34 AM UTC
I can't let you go,
Like the sun following the moon,
In circles we go,
Me chasing you,
You don't even know the extent of what I feel,
Leaving me alone,
Always without you.
-Jasmaan Singh Kamra
Jul 28, 2019
Jul 28, 2019 at 2:59 PM UTC
People say,
Smoking kills
But nothing kills me more
Than not having you at all
Jul 7, 2019
Jul 7, 2019 at 7:39 AM UTC
Tears rolling down
Mind blowing up
Feelings hurt
Body aching
But still a smile
Mar 29, 2019
Mar 29, 2019 at 2:09 AM UTC
I have loved , and love I shall.
Forever more , till the ticking time tells
You won't come back , but I hope
I stoke the fire , like it hasn't been stoked
I Kindle the feelings , till they blaze
Your the only water I praise
But dehydrated I feel , almost squeezed dry
I know it doesn't help, with each tear I cry.
You've been gone for a year, is this a test?
To see how I take the time I have left ?
I feel like I'm running out of breath
Everyday is like I'm waiting
But a answer , I fall short of getting.
I feel there's a time limit for something
But I can't put the right hands on it .
All I'm left with is three hands
Two of which come to thought , now and again
But every second passes us by like we stand still
Mar 10, 2019
Mar 10, 2019 at 9:03 AM UTC
Talked with my psychologist today
Come to find out
I am afraid of being sober!
I experience my emotions
Far too intensely
I begin to hyperventilate
White noises fills my head
Involuntary muscle spasms
Heart pounding in my chest
Deep breaths, meditation
Better yet medication
My empathy is an open wound
Quiet! Concentrate on your legs......
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 6:17 PM UTC
My Mama always told me, that I should never, ever, cry.
That I could only shed a tear, when someone very special died.
I kept that promise, Mama, for many, many, years.
But tonight, I'm filled with sorrow.
A river path has already been created from my eyes to my cheeks.
My body is shaking, My eyes are swollen, My jaw is clenched tight.
For I have lost someone very, very special to me.
Maybe no one can see, and maybe no one can tell, but, Mama,
I lost a little girl.
She ran from me far, far away.
Into the dark, deep, scary woods, where there was no way out.
I tried to help her, I tried to call out her name.
But she thought she could get out herself. And told me not to help.
Oh Mama! You wouldn't believe what happened next!
He came behind her and slaughtered the little girl.
Mutilated her.
Until there was nothing left but blood and bones.
Oh Mama! I'm so sorry!
I'm sorry I could not get her out!
I'm sorry that I didn't try harder to help her escape!
Oh Mama! I'm sorry, I'm sorry!
The little, happy girl is gone.
But her killer is still on the loose.
He is swimming in glory and victory.
Showing off her stolen innocence as his award.
Oh Mama,
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that she is gone.
-FreeMind
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 9:07 AM UTC
The heaviness on my chest,
the strangled breaths stinking of wafting toxicity,
the bloodstains on my hands
from a ****
My mind is whirling,
and I wonder
if this is it
if this is insanity distorted past reality
if I am truly lost in this labyrinth of twisted smiles and white lies
if I have finally finally turned myself into a monster.
Jul 28, 2018
Jul 28, 2018 at 2:33 AM UTC
Turning towards you,
Being wrapped inside your arms.
I feel the warmth of your breath on my forehead,
The comforts of you on my skin.
Breathing in every part of you.
Breathing out every part of me.
I get lost in your eyes even when you look away,
I get hypnotized by your smile even when you glare at me.
Your anger excites me, your joy amuses me.
Nothing truly matter when you are away from me.
Breathing in every part of you.
Breathing out every part of me.
Paranoid without you,
Turning selfish when in desperate need of you.
My carelessness caused me to become addicted.
This lust for you keeps growing, like a monster in me.
Breathing in every part of you.
Breathing out every part of me.
Oh baby, you can hurt me all you want.
You must know that I will still be here.
Just long enough before my need for you slowly kills me.
These deadly toxins are burning my insides,
But nothing will stop me from whispering
"I love you".
-FreeMind
Jun 8, 2018
Jun 8, 2018 at 10:23 AM UTC
Too many shattered Mirrors
Mirroring my sins.
Too many walls
Hindering my wings.
My growth remains
still
as silence Kills.
How do you love the
Unloved?
May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 10:48 AM UTC
She missed him,
he does not.
And that kills
her.
10W
-HIY
May 6, 2018
May 6, 2018 at 2:20 AM UTC
"You must purify yourself"
He hands me the blade and slowly steps away.
Waiting for the wave of sins to flood the unholy ground.
Counting seconds, he keeps his gaze on me,
Lost in the cruelty of this world that destroyed his love.
He blames me.
For all the wrong doing. For the misery he suffered.
And not for a moment does he realize his faults.
Denying the truth, he is convinced of my crime.
Lacking patience he takes the blade back and does destiny's work.
Cover in a pool of my own blood, he uses his hands to cary me out.
For a moment, I am filled with hope that he will save me, find help.
So naive.
With slow steps he reaches the cliff, and without a word, tosses me Away into the open ocean, where I find myself grasping for air.
My lungs refuse to operate,
I am disappearing into the darkness with the blood red ocean ahead,
But greet the ocean floor kindly, as it takes me in with pride.
At last, I allow my eyelids to drop shut, finally feeling free.
-FreeMind
May 5, 2018
May 5, 2018 at 12:05 PM UTC