#kickedout
New loss is about
Abandoned in the cold
Culpable for lack of independence
I anticipated to fold
Lying here without you
Seems to help me mold
Into a deep serenity
Of when my youth was told
Nov 30, 2019
Nov 30, 2019 at 7:12 PM UTC
You were my flashlight,
Guiding me in the dark,
Smiling with me in the rain,
Then you stopped,
Let me go,
Never let me back in,
But what did I do?
I have always been there for you,
And still will be,
But why did you throw me out of your world?
Dear friend of mine,
Why lies in that mind of thine?
Did I,
Some way,
Do you wrong?
Talking to you,
Spending time with you,
Asking to see you over,
Or go over,
Do those normal things,
Wasn't that enough?
What ever happened to the sky is the limit?
The night we spent together,
When I held you,
While you cried,
And talked to you,
Helping you,
Sneaking out with you,
Yet, what does that mean to you now?
You act like I don't exist,
Making every excuse as to not see me,
But what is it all for?
What for?
I wouldn't mind,
If you just came back,
If you just were my friend again,
Treating me like a human being,
And not like a stray dog.
No matter the reason,
I would come running back if you called,
I would run into the burning building,
And carry you out,
Nurse you back to health,
And stay with you.
If you ran in fear,
I wouldn't chase.
I'm not ignorant -
I know when enough is enough,
But please,
One day, once again, would be nice...
Maybe something as gracious as an explanation;
A reason why I was made a wraith,
Sitting alone in the rain,
Instead of by your side,
Where I long to be...
If this is creepy,
I apologize,
I only mean to say
I miss you,
And wish,
So much,
To know why I was ghosted...
Or at least to be your friend again...
- Jay M
April 3rd, 2019
Apr 3, 2019
Apr 3, 2019 at 3:52 PM UTC
So here i write
Wishing to die
Because love is foregin to me
Because you cause me to not breathe
Because for once everything is alright.
Except my mind
I can't win every battle and lately I've been hurting
A wounded vet
And i have given up on the medic
I can see and feel the love
But its just that way for a moment so i don't wnt to put all my hopes in
There's no return price on this bet
I know all love is temporary
But so is my existence
Oct 9, 2017
Oct 9, 2017 at 4:14 AM UTC
Not even 18
She told me to sleep on the streets
“time to be an adult”
Jobs and school are not cool
Dreams and ambitious cannot take flight
But there’s no point in a fight
So I try with all my might
Sleeping on the steps
Working 8 hours shifts
School is a gift
No time to drift
Not even 18
Yet I’ve aged far beyond my years
all in one night.
Oct 22, 2015
Oct 22, 2015 at 6:13 PM UTC
people say that drugs help with the pain
but do they
i guess they make you feel good for a while
or is that a mind trick
but are they worth getting kicked out of school?
NO
Apr 30, 2015
Apr 30, 2015 at 10:43 AM UTC
With solemn eyes and long brown hair,
Her life is a slide of emotional care.
Yes's and No's, a bus in the air,
Lies and worries, no one dare.
To enter her life is to be drawn into her bare sliced up heart, and try to wear the lies on her sleeves...
She swore she would never do it again,
Ripped from the headlines,
Her best friend turned on her, and tried to pretend everything was alright in the end. It spiraled down, starting to bend, until she SNAPPED and the authorities would send her away and she cried herself to be... not crazy.
Upside down and inside out
You turned my heart
Round and about
Took it in, spit it out.
You killed me
And there's no doubt
I'm dead you see
I'm going home
Not alone
But going to a questionable home
Where no one knows
The real me.
Jul 17, 2014
Jul 17, 2014 at 10:10 PM UTC