#journeyoflife
My birth month draws near
Taking stock of the past year
What I learned Have I grown?
Discontent breads fear, seeds I’ve sewn
Where am I on my journey of life
Am I a good mother, friend, wife?
Weathering every pain and strife
Surgeons had me under their knife
Coldness settles in the February air
So many catastrophic situations to bare
In people’s eye is it pity or genuine care
Humanity is a very lonely place to share
A melancholy existence falls upon my head
Sometimes I don’t want to get out of bed
Was it Something I heard something I said
Fog looming ;Gloom, Doom, and
When I get like this basically in a funk
It’s time to clear out the proverbial trunk
analyze,Take stock get rid of, the junk
Tabula rasa, clean slate live with *****
Footnotes
The ides of March refers to March 15 on the Roman calendar, famous as the deadline for settling debts, and the date of Julius Caesar’s assassination in 44 BC . It’s not an island but a midpoint date marked by religious observances representing a turning point of life.
Inspired songs
1) Birthday Cake Polka by John Rovack 1952
2) Sound of silence by Simon and Garfunkel 1964
3) Play that funky music 1976
Written by Rob Parissi Band Wild Cherry
Feb 6
Feb 6, 2026 at 8:49 AM UTC
A journey long, through countless miles
Yet the heart, walks with smiles
Time took the glow, not the flame
Every new turn, is but a quite game.
The past leaves shadows, but none to blame,
I move through silence, to meet the divine.
Susanta Pattnayak
Apr 23, 2025
Apr 23, 2025 at 5:00 AM UTC
Every morning
We woke up
And believe on dreams
And everyday magic
And find a reason
And being aware
Adopt the art
Of inhale, exhale
Mastering a balance
And it makes sense
Mar 20, 2019
Mar 20, 2019 at 12:15 AM UTC
*Blink
I fall,
I knew eventually
I would fall.
But I didn’t want to,
at least not now.
I may say
I don’t ‘give a f about
what society thinks about me.’
But deep down,
I seek for attention.
I want validation.
I want respect.
I want to be accepted and loved,
And looked upon.
But this is tough.
I don’t know how long,
I can do this.
Sadly, we are taught this is the only
‘Way’.
Because success is never defined by you.
The society defines your success.
You are a pawn.
The game, your moves, the result,
everything
Is set by them.
*blink
I’m in a state of dilemma
One preaches,
‘These minuscule bits of time
Which are smaller than a molecule in
The entire expanse of this ever-expanding universe.
Can’t determine your entire future.
Nor can the society.
Your success, your happiness
Is defined by you, not them.’
The other reminds me,
that your success is defined
by the society you live in.
And to them this is the ‘only way’ to success.
And defying them
Is losing your
Status,
love,
fame,
acknowledgement,
And you can’t afford that.
*blink
However, hypocritical I might sound,
I’m forced to choose the second.
But every passing second
I live with the guilt of never
Choosing the other road.
Cause the road not taken,
was perhaps the road I was to take.
*blink
Focus, time is slipping away.
So, I stop contemplating
and work mechanically.
Finally, it is over.
A sigh of relief.
But unfortunately, this is not the end.
Once you let yourself in to this system.
Then you are lost to it.
You are consumed by it
you are enslaved.
*Hush
Take rest for now.
Because you are trapped,
They have fabricated your journey to ‘happiness’,
And you can’t turn back.
*blink
Eyes shut.
Pen drops.
-Blank-
Jan 31, 2019
Jan 31, 2019 at 11:00 AM UTC