#jobiranyc
You’ll remain dwelling in memory
The vast ocean of my head
Forever out of reach, out of touch
Both of us sleeping in separate bed
We’d cherish what we’d given each
Soon that fades away, I guess that’s fine
Now you belong to someone else
And I’ll never ask you to be mine
These are my last words
Nothing shall be said more
Time bends to no man
To mend what’s broken before
The muscle beating inside these ribs cage
Firmly spoken and expressed how it feels
But only time shall reveal some day
If what’s broken today heals
@jobiranyc 9-15-23
Sep 15, 2023
Sep 15, 2023 at 10:19 AM UTC
I sip wine,
and reminisce
about old times,
nostalgia
taking me places
I adored,
places where you and I
once met, crossed paths;
even for some
unknown reasons
later
parted ways.
Now and then,
I see us
through the empty glass
I hold in my cold hands,
drifting to Neverland,
consumed by the joy of fire
after every droplet and
the taste of the fine liquid
evaporates in my veins,
smoothly cutting my throat
like volcanic fire
without a fight.
Then, I mend
alone and dream,
hoping that I’d share
a moment with you again.
So I tell myself,
I should keep opening
another bottle of wine
and get lost
in the past memory
and see
if this loneliness brings me
to your doorstep.
@jobiranyc 9-6-23
Sep 8, 2023
Sep 8, 2023 at 12:52 AM UTC
When you’re soaring through the sky, closer to the moon and stars, life seems simpler and pristine; for you have fewer luggages and carryons to carry. Instead, you’re immersed in daydreams drifting through the clouds, imaging about your final destination and safe landing, as everything else in the world below is just on hold, and waiting for you.
Jobiranyc 7-26-23
Jul 26, 2023
Jul 26, 2023 at 11:51 PM UTC
Y*outhful years ebb away
like a morning mist.
Time is no one’s confidante,
whether you repel or doubtfully persist.
Scars are masked and hidden,
leaving marks that forge with pain.
Memories might bring you back,
string up the lights of a forgotten pain.
Your voice could be echoed,
and carried by a whistling wind.
But age is not a standalone statue
that shows your beginning or the end.
Youthful is a glimpse of fleeting hopes
as time goes by.
Nightfall awaits on the edges
however fearfully you may cry.
You may dream of tomorrow
or a timeless eternity.
Yet, you’re given ticking seconds,
the only chance of certainty.
*
Jobiranyc 7-19-23
Jul 20, 2023
Jul 20, 2023 at 2:04 AM UTC
When that feeling takes over
you can feel the cold breeze
lurking under your skin
tearing apart your wholesomeness
piece by piece like a hungry creature.
You want the emptiness filled
by any means closer to you—
either by your loved ones
you hold dear to your lonely heart
or by someone who you spent
a blink of a night
for a one night stand with
or even by the hard liquid
that numbs your nerves;
yet nothing can fight off the monsters
feeding of off your flesh within
for you’re still the only one burning
with the fire of cloudy darkness—
the droplet of poison in your veins
that’s suffocating and submerging you
underneath the blankets of loneliness
leaving you forever stranded
alone, on an island full of souls.
@jobiranyc 8-31-2021
Jul 11, 2023
Jul 11, 2023 at 10:43 AM UTC
My mind wonders often
it delves into
the abyss of eternity
questioning and wandering
about its own mortality
for it's trying to discern
what’s waiting
on the other end
of the long tunnel
so it can free itself
from the genie of smokes
and the euphoric pandora
box chained within
relentlessly fighting
to expose the older man
who is hiding
under the mask
and white lies,
who is truly yearning
to free the lost younger-boy
who’s trapped beneath
the pounds of flesh
that’s beating nonstop
yet non-responsive
to his demands
like an ear foreign to
a deafening sound
Jobiranyc 8-17-2022
Aug 17, 2022
Aug 17, 2022 at 2:02 AM UTC
One thing is certain;
in the end, we all shall
kiss the fire of a night.
Why do we
paint 🌈 rainbows
in the darkness today?
Jobiranyc 5-29-22
Jun 6, 2022
Jun 6, 2022 at 11:29 AM UTC
Turning blind eyes again
Numbing my mind not to think
For I’m tired of the same story
Every time I blink
The world is insanely chaotic
Worse than before today
We scream and beat the drums
But nothing is changing either way
We’re just consuming the lies
Believing they’re in fact the truth
The fresh air is so toxic
And I found nothing that soothes
Yet the bloody-cry is real
Tearfully bitter than yesterday
The same story is unfolding right now
Nothing changes no matter what I say
Jobiranyc 3-13-22
Mar 13, 2022
Mar 13, 2022 at 12:52 PM UTC
It’s ironic that
many people
go to an extreme extent
to destroy and tear
other families apart
but once the ruins
and the unimaginable
destruction is done
the perpetrators
rush home
peacefully
to hug and kiss
their loved ones
goodnight
under
the moonlight
while tasting
a kiss of death
on their bitter lips.
Jobiranyc 10-10-2021
Oct 10, 2021
Oct 10, 2021 at 3:01 PM UTC
The darkness
you're terribly
terrified of
is nothing
more than a blink
of a moment of silence
for you
to take a break
and let go
of everything
you’ve ever known
and held dear.
Sometimes
a pure ignorance
is a bliss.
Jobiranyc 10-6-2021
Oct 6, 2021
Oct 6, 2021 at 11:46 PM UTC
O*nly lonely hearts
haunted by
a void of longing
sleeplessly
chase
ghostly dreams.*
Jobiranyc 9-27-2021
Sep 27, 2021
Sep 27, 2021 at 10:34 PM UTC
W*hile you’re chasing
your unfulfilled dreams,
do not also forget to breathe,
unplug, and live in the present.*
Jobiranyc 9-18-2021
Sep 24, 2021
Sep 24, 2021 at 4:03 PM UTC
C*ontemplating
over precious times squandered
as pounds of regrets & doubts
weigh on your shoulders,
reflection becomes
a clearer reality-check
a sudden awakening
which soothes
your burning emotions.
When you’d thought
your plans were seamless,
crystal clear
like the spotless blue sky,
You find out you failed
to realize your flaws
and you’re the reason
for your dreams to die.
Soon, rejection of acceptance
and one’s forever absence
feels like a paper cut
deep in the veins.
Yet you ponder upon the realization
that wounds do heal in time,
although it feels very slow.
Thus, you’d embrace
failure & pain with endurance
as you sigh heavily and breathe and let go.
Your heart might be pierced & torn apart
smothered with emotions of carnage or defeat.
The wreckage and ruins will remain within
as you fight heads up, standing on your feet.
Never succumb to the anguish
or the demons swirling in the darkness
Fancy the distant wonders and desires
unafraid of the bruises of fury happiness.*
Jobiranyc 9-12-2021
Sep 12, 2021
Sep 12, 2021 at 5:41 PM UTC
wild flowers in row
reminder of wilting age
how tender life grows
Jobiranyc 9-6-2011
Sep 6, 2021
Sep 6, 2021 at 2:30 PM UTC
I don’t want to
burn down your house
but your kindness
and the flair of smile
is like a sweet dream
that won’t ever end.
Therefore, I want to remain
lost and not wake up
while I delve way deeper
in the realms of fantasy
until the warmth of your
soft, warm whisper and touch
wakes me up and
brings me to life
with a kiss of fire.
Jobiranyc 8-22-2021
Aug 22, 2021
Aug 22, 2021 at 7:05 PM UTC
I never know how you feel.
But your existence
most of it is just a dream
a fleeting moment that
suddenly disappears
into the puffy clouds.
Yet, for now
all I have is a dream
a desire to be
an inch closer to you.
I found no other way
to penetrate your cold heart.
Maybe through this deceitful dream
my wounds could finally heal.
Jobiranyc 8-22-2021
Aug 22, 2021
Aug 22, 2021 at 11:52 AM UTC
Rage is my weapon
my only weakness
a fire that fiercely burns
and could put me
in a sealed coffin
yet a light that could guide me
out of the forlorn of darkness
Jobiranyc 8-21-2021
Aug 22, 2021
Aug 22, 2021 at 2:24 PM UTC
I am in a place where
it’s least expected
by most society;
but the vibe is
magically enticing
and I am gravitating
to stay a bit longer.
Jobiranyc 8-8-2021
Aug 13, 2021
Aug 13, 2021 at 1:58 PM UTC
N*ostalgia is like a tattoo you got
when you’re drunk and wasted;
you won’t ever erase
the marks or scars
from your innocent skin.
Why do you think
I’m still incapable of
forgetting you?
Because your love is still
brewing in my veins
for eternity!*
jobirany 8-1-2021
Aug 1, 2021
Aug 1, 2021 at 6:37 PM UTC
Upon arrival
most of us are welcomed
with such blissful and joyful tears
and yet when the time comes
and we’re asked to depart
we dwell in the past
yearning for more time
for we’re still young
for the nightfall fears.
Jobiranyc 7-31-2021
Aug 1, 2021
Aug 1, 2021 at 12:13 AM UTC
Driven by a lustful fire
I almost broke off my eternal promise
A truthful ring I put on my finger
With a love, I’d never compromise
For one night euphoria
I took off my eyes from the prize
With a sudden salacious feeling
When I got caught by surprise
But after the dust settled in
And I came to grips with reality
I vividly saw what I’d be losing
Walking on a lustful road, without sobriety
A new feeling is like wildfire fever
Hotter than a cup of coffee brewed
To remain content should be my last resort
Although some temptations can’t be subdued
I’d burn with the heat of seduction
Incapable to close my eyes
Yet I can only dream a night alone with you
And counting the bright stars in skies
Jobiranyc 7-28-2021
Sep 29, 2021
Sep 29, 2021 at 8:18 AM UTC
Your smile is like
the glistening sun
when it radiates
on your gentle face
the seductions to my eyes
is full of warmth
Because I get lost
in our conversations
staring at your tender lips
and what lies beneath
I like the way
sultry words
smoothly
rain from your mouth
and taste like honeydew,
and forcefully
penetrate deep into my soul
words so powerful
like a sword
they could be a reason
for a hero’s downfall
Your volcanic beaming smile
is full of life and affection
and a magnetic allure
to my eyes
When I tentatively gaze at you
I can barely control myself
for my desire of you reprises.
Jobiranyc 7-28-2021
Jul 28, 2021
Jul 28, 2021 at 6:15 PM UTC
I was heavily drunk last night
sobriety went out of the window
Intoxicated beyond control
and found myself at the bottom below
I felt scattered thoughts
lurking in a bleak night
as I sat alone
in a quiet place
I had a vivid dream
a yearning deep within
a longing of touching
your beautiful face
Yet, I stumbled upon
none soothing words
And said things
I’d never take back
To a point, it felt like
you were under an attack
I forgot walking the fine lines
yet gave in to the liquor inside
mistakes are meant to be made
Therefore, it’s my responsibility
to walk head up high
on the road of recovery in stride
I promised myself
such night is no longer exists
For it’s time
to cut ties with liquid fire
And avoid nighttime desires
whenever temptation persists
Jobiranyc 7-26-2021
Jul 26, 2021
Jul 26, 2021 at 9:25 PM UTC
You sit alone
in a bleak darkness
and wonder
what the absent party
in the lost and cold conversation
is thinking about you,
forgetting that all
you’re doing is
wasting your precious time,
letting your longing mind and heart
bleed enormous energy
while knowing deep within
the fiber of your being
you’d never reclaim or replenish
the time or power you'd lost
trying to convince your alter-ego
that the person you're after
is just a ghost in a shell
you're chasing
yet you'd never catch or
a glimpse or a vanishing
shadow that never existed
beyond the realm
of your dreams or imagination.
Jobiranyc 7-25-20211
Jul 25, 2021
Jul 25, 2021 at 11:49 PM UTC
A shining light
That reflects on the calm night sea
It’s the star or the moon
What else could it be?
My eyes chase her
As she dances in the naked blue sky
Her smile is intoxicating
For she’s caught my eyes
She’s a shooting star I’d never seen
An exuberant petal flower bloom
I am keen to see her dance again
Under the stars and the night moon
I lay my head down for lucid dreams
And ponder when the night turns black
As I wait for the star of the sea to shine
For her bright smile to glow back
Jobiranyc 7-17-2021
Jul 26, 2021
Jul 26, 2021 at 12:28 AM UTC