#jessica
I used to curse everything I touch
Not because of love
But because of selfish thoughts.
I thought that flattering speech
Would break your wounds
Not make things bleed,
But I blinded myself with my lust
And desires of feeling your want
And your trust.
Manipulation was always my hand,
Playing the cards that I can,
No thought out plans!
Why didn’t anyone break me down
So that I could bleed
And learn to stop bleeding others out!
I was no different from the other guys
Who broke hearts left and right
With their selfish eyes!
Selfish soul, selfish heart, selfish hands,
Selfish plans, selfish wants, selfish thoughts,
Selfish love, selfish hugs, selfish drug,
Selfish kisses, selfish wishes, selfishness is
Still my poison, still my pride, still my go to every time,
Still my way of acting, still my way of thinking,
Still my words, still all I’m speaking,
Still my default, still my function, still my assumption, still my
production,
Still something that I look in the mirror and see,
Still something I’m praying for God to take away from me.
Dec 20, 2024
Dec 20, 2024 at 8:39 AM UTC
I had nothing
But time
I could see
The life of
It in all its
Fleeting
Terrible light
Wondering
Had I lived?
Was I the
Object in
Another's story?
Was that all
I ever was?
Could I
Be more?
Nothing but
Time and still
No answer
I had glimpsed
Into the mind
Of eternity
Perhaps the
Mind of god
And found
Nothing but
Silence
Oct 26, 2023
Oct 26, 2023 at 10:54 PM UTC
Jessie J
What can I say about the sponge to my head?
Well she is beautiful, even if she will not wear a dress;
That is he Emmeline Pankhurst right I guess,
But like I’ve always said,
Jess would look good in something silky and red.
She is not sure who she is going to be, yet,
But mark my words she is someone I will never forget.
You just need to talk to her and languish in her words.
When she leaves with my heart, she takes with her my breath.
Anything I can do, she can do also.
Our thoughts are mutual in so many degrees.
When she reappears, I am alive! Wow!
It’s the glint in her eye, the way of her smile,
The way she spins me 360.
It’s the smoothness with which she glides through my mind.
It’s the ever-loving beauty I find when I hold her inside.
If I had to choose a word to describe only her,
I would need quite a few, because others are unworthy of my allure.
She is my black hole, she draws me towards,
And for her I would stand before any harmful sword.
With her I am in a meadow, dew washing away my sins;
With her Heavenly words, I am mesmerized and wallowing.
She is one I would never betray,
But she is also the only one with whom my true feelings I cannot say.
If I trained her to do my job in my stead,
She could do it so easily, for she is the best yet.
Many have come before her, but what she does she does with aplomb.
The way she stole my heart, blew me away like a bomb.
Nothing remained but my amazed face.
There is something perfect about her that I just cannot place.
She doesn’t yet know exactly what she does want,
But if she wanted I would like her to become my one.
I want to make her happy, because with only her I think I could.
There is a little romance inside my heart and with her it could be good.
The thought of holding her hand makes me smile.
I wish my feelings for her I didn’t have to deny,
But if I spoke my truth she would run a mile,
Because let’s face it, I’m just another guy.
I remember her hands, the way they change from day to day.
Once black nails to get my attention, quickly followed by blue.
The last time I saw this beaut,
I guess her fingers were painted ****
But I cannot say **** without showing my truth to you.
Her smile does something to me; she is my joker,
The magic card, my face made for poker,
Will one day find its voice and speak…
Only joking, I cannot say what I desire,
So we will never be.
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Jul 7, 2018
Jul 7, 2018 at 7:09 AM UTC
Going undercover
In the sheets
Your pleasure is what greets
Go ahead and drink your wine
As we're on Egypian silk
Relax and don't be afraid
To ask for more
Too bad if I'm getting sore
That's the kind of reminder I want
Remembering a glorious session
Intense harmony
Aggressive is just as great as soft
Dig your nails into my back
My love for you won't crack
But my ability to hold it in will
It gives me chills
Thinking about it
Every glance at your beauty is a Jessica Alba moment in the summer
Jun 21, 2018
Jun 21, 2018 at 5:21 AM UTC
I am but a rose of beginning green,
imprisoned to darkness all day,
within a monumental fiend,
who covers up the radiance that I want to give away
Occasionally a small opening would be sewn
into the darkness' fiery grasp
and your pure radiance could be shown
concealed in a kindhearted mask
Share your light with me
and for you I will light the way
wrapped in an unfamiliar livery
prepared for our intimacy till the end of our days
We will cross waters on a homebound stretch
and become fuel for our endurance,
so beautifully etched
I'll take my chances, following the sun
the garden we grow
means that together, we are one
Share your light with me,
and forever I will stay.
my petals can become your livery
we need each other, I daresay.
Jan 31, 2017
Jan 31, 2017 at 8:51 PM UTC
I will look at you with the same old eyes.
You will hold my gaze attentively.
And I'll go on wishing I could change it all,
When I know I can't change you.
You will be forever capitvating,
And I will be forever falling down -
Down the rabbit hole of love,
When I know I can't change you.
Sep 7, 2016
Sep 7, 2016 at 11:21 AM UTC
The horns played softly,
But my hand dangled freely.
And the show went on.
Aug 23, 2016
Aug 23, 2016 at 8:13 PM UTC
Next to me you stood.
The music kept on playing.
I danced by myself.
Aug 23, 2016
Aug 23, 2016 at 12:15 AM UTC
Our winter wind blows..
Blows heavy
Flows deep
Flows and blows...bellows...
Me and you travel...you and i meet
Meet at where our fall seems to be beat...into...winter..
Our snowy peaks...and our mittens
That keep us from the frost bitten...
Leaves and flowers underneath
To the steady roots and fallen branches of trees
Our atmosphere...that pours white
Our new layer of snow...
That's lying there ready to melt...and ready to go...
With our new ending breeze...of spring...from a cold begging March...to a timid sunny april...our love had just been realized...
Our winters made us stay together...and feel like we were wanted...our autumns made us laugh...our summers made us dance and....our last made us fall...until our winter soon came again to renew the cycle and start it all..
Over it begins..
To start a new..
Our seasons....but then one by one i start to spend them with out you...
I don't know where we ended...or for that matter where we began...i just know you were my fireplace...
You lasted long during our winters and faded our summers...but you always came back...now i never see you...I'm wiser to know where you're at.. Not here..not there...not anywhere but my mind....my fire place....can you promise me you'll wait and warm me when it's time....i just wish our...winter came faster..
Mar 24, 2016
Mar 24, 2016 at 8:49 PM UTC
The war is in my mind but the wounds are on my body..
The wounded girl you never knew was emo..
The cutting means something..
Remember kids down the street not across the road...
And when it finally gets that far..and i make it count...
When i finally show you its not me saying I'm okay, we both know I lied
Im fine, Im a complete failure
Im not hungry,Im just starving myself
Im not sad,Im dying inside
Im crying, im holding my breath
I wanna die, save me
Im lost inside myself, go away...i know its complicated but i really need you to stay..
Dont say anything...just hug me
Squeeze me.
Believe in me.
Mar 23, 2016
Mar 23, 2016 at 5:29 PM UTC
I'll be going home without leaving
tonight,
inside
we all are wrapped in dust
as if
the love
we create in all our small spaces
cannot provide the instances of growth we need to feel whole
I beg
you, realize the end you wander to in time
Jessica went away with all the lurching other guys
just to wind up growing older in a slow roll, home well before midnight
every time he or she wonders what in wandering they would have found
depression in a sick head worries what with your shadow not around
might happen to me, to me
Nov 8, 2014
Nov 8, 2014 at 11:53 PM UTC
Your eyes are stars, in the midnight sky,
Your hair like darkness, woven from the night,
I reach for you, like a moth reaches for light,
Yet you pull away, and now here I lie,
I dream of your lips, in the cold days that come,
My heart a growing and welling dam
Of pain and sorrow, unrelenting emotions,
That **** me inside, and strip me of all devotions,
For I want you, I love you, and I always will,
But now I guess, it's time to be real,
I might be eternally in love with you,
But I know deep down, you'll never love me too.
Nov 8, 2014
Nov 8, 2014 at 2:49 PM UTC