#itried
We have spoken of tacking
Our ships away,
Changing our divergence
From one mile
For every sixty sailed,
To one mile every mile
As we part at ninety degrees,
Having sailed close aboard
A few years with
Turbulent waters between
Our hulls
Offset by occassional beautiful
Moments of sunrise
And reddened dusk,
The sun is now more often
Obscured by storm clouds,
Black and angry,
Unfeeling and irrational,
Lightning-full and dangerous,
With fewer sunny moments
Or even any forecast
The wind is picking up,
And the waves have
White caps on their heads,
Spray bursts more often
Over my bow and the rain
Is freezing now
Time not to tack so much
As wear ship,
Turn away from the wind,
Give up the beat to windward,
Accept the futility
Of a fools errand,
Slamming into a sea that
Does not forgive nor want me,
Turn instead south,
Away from the teeth of
A gale driven by spite and ADHD,
Sail south and hope to find
A sunnier clime
Before my ship
Finally
Sinks
Sep 10, 2024
Sep 10, 2024 at 3:44 AM UTC
I want to tell a story but I don't know where to start.
See, I've kept the words hidden.
Locked away inside my heart.
Waiting for the day that you come find me.
Waiting for the day you rescue me from the darkness in my heart. Yeah, I know you'll set me free.
Free from all the doubts and lies I thought I had to tell myself.
So worried about the thoughts and words from everybody else.
It took me years to understand that life is not a race.
If you make your own path and stay with it,
someday you'll find your place.
I don't want to wait anymore.
I don't want to feel I've wasted my life
waiting for a fantasy that may never be real.
I want to prove I can be happy without you by my side
so I'll give it one last shot and tell the story of the time I tried
Apr 9, 2019
Apr 9, 2019 at 11:43 AM UTC
girl
with sun-kissed cheekbones
and golden-red hair
fingertips brushing daisies
in the warm summer air
girl
with freckles like stars
tears like silver prayers
don't stray too far
in the warm summer air
the sun's hugs feels like home
the daisies like angel hair
but when the sun sleeps
you can't stay
in the warm summer air
you've fled too far
in the warm summer air
shadows stain
your golden-red hair
raging hot stars
outshine your freckles
and I cannot answer
your helpless silver prayers
the night swallowed
your daisies without care
ashes cover
your golden-red hair
but promise me
you'll learn
to see through despair
to keep reaching
to keep dreaming
of your
warm
summer air
Jul 6, 2018
Jul 6, 2018 at 1:13 AM UTC
I don't dance, I said
But my love for you is greater
Than my need to not embarrass myself
What is love without vulnerability
So I danced that night
As best as I could
Pretended we were the only ones
Left in that speakeasy
The live music echoing through my body
The alcohol moving through my veins
And I don't dance
But maybe for one night
I can be the kind of person who does
The kind of person who lets loose
Twirls without care and loves their body
Despite awkward hips
Legs that stall and ****
But tonight, I can become someone new
Who lets themselves go uninhibited
Who unapologetically twists and twirls
Who shakes out the day, so tonight,
I do dance - but maybe just with you
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 11:21 AM UTC
In that moment we are hopeless.
When we seek attention.
We are devoid of the fact that we'll never be seen.
We'll get to explore the unknown with thoughts that make us sin.
We expose us to gain.
In the end all we get is pain.
We seek attention.
Believing we'll be noticed.
Constantly wanting the fame.
We forget what we wanted to get noticed.
In the end, all respect is lost.
Mar 6, 2019
Mar 6, 2019 at 3:36 PM UTC
So I tried everything you asked,
I tried so hard I don't think I've ever tried this hard in my whole life,
I don't think I'm ever going to make it to where you want me, and I don't think it's fair that you only love me if I climb there,
At what point do I give up and accept that you're just an evil person?
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 5:34 PM UTC
we'll make love on the shore
beneath the trees of sycamore
a lilac scent in the air
my fingers run through your hair
your mouth leaves marks on my skin
I can't suppress a silly grin
I feel your hand run up my thigh
my legs open, your reply
and as the tide begins to shift
your mouth gives a splendid gift
all at once, I feel you tense
your love for me, too immense
once you have come inside
and after you are satisfied
I feel your tongue further down
in this pleasure, I could drown
I'll ride the waves and let go
my heart is now set aglow
so let's make love by the shore
and I'll feel you in me once more
Jun 5, 2018
Jun 5, 2018 at 4:45 PM UTC
Lovely
Is what you are
you drive me to the moon
I can’t stop thinking about you
wondrous..
Apr 24, 2018
Apr 24, 2018 at 9:22 AM UTC
Sitting,thinking,pondering
I turn to see a void
Empty,dark,alone
Past the darkness is a door
I hear faint laughter behind the door
I jump into the void in an attempt to gain access to the door
I hold my breath but its not enough
Now I sit here hearing the laughter behind my door
Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 1:53 PM UTC
I wish people could hear music the same way I do. I almost feel bad that people can't tap into my brain and hear the musical pulled apart into sections.
Melody
Harmony
Each instrument going separately and yet all of the pieces coming together to create this...
Masterpiece.
I've tried to explain it to people.
And no matter how hard I try, nobody will ever truly understand it. And that's okay.
Apr 18, 2017
Apr 18, 2017 at 10:18 PM UTC
I tried to live
I tried to love
I tried to feel
I tried to breath
I feel like I tried so much nothing works
Do you see my attempts or just my failure
Feb 27, 2016
Feb 27, 2016 at 10:02 PM UTC
I drove past the place where we first met today.
I felt cold and fragile. I guess nothing has changed.
The discomfort overwhelmed my basic senses, and I couldn't see straight.
I pulled over to gather myself, I found it difficult to breathe
The past eight months has been denial personified, a constant false assurance that everything is alright and that I'm happy for you.
Happy that you're comfortable in life, but I'm still running away from mine.
Happy.
I'm happy.
Jan 20, 2016
Jan 20, 2016 at 12:28 AM UTC
That moment when you feel like your slowing down and everything around you is replaced or misplaced or even just falling apart, because you don't know what else to believe or even think when that one person comes to your mind because it's been a while since you guys have talked and the last time you spoke was when that person decided to leave you for another person.
-s.g
Dec 1, 2015
Dec 1, 2015 at 12:10 AM UTC
Shaky breathing
Jelly legs
As I watch you from across the room
Laughter echoing
Your face lighting up like the sun
Oh the way you smile
Makes me go crazy
Eyes crinkling
Dimples showing
Tugging a string in my chest
You stop talking and turn your head
Our eyes meet
I hold my breath
Heart beat quickens
Hands start to get sweaty
You smile
Corners of my mouth start to twitch
I smile back
Aug 19, 2015
Aug 19, 2015 at 7:38 PM UTC
Your eyes
Your lips
Your touch
Your hair
Oh god, your hair
I love it so much you have no idea
Your smile
Your laugh
You
You
You have no flaws at all
I just want to confess
That you are the only one that make sense
F.
Jul 1, 2015
Jul 1, 2015 at 5:16 AM UTC
I see you, standing there,
With the same sparkle in your eyes, and that flawless hair.
I see you, walking past,
And the memories we had, they flood in fast.
I see you, smile on your face,
And i think of us, how we fell from grace.
I see you, with a new guy,
But i can't feel anymore, no matter how hard i try.
I see you, happy again,
And i know it hurts me, but i cant feel the pain.
I see you, looking at me,
but for the first time in my life, i feel free.
Free of the chains that held down my heart,
Free of the pain that broke me apart.
I see you, and i don't bat an eye,
I've finally let go, and that's no lie.
Now that i'm free, i feel like i can fly,
Flying way up high, soaring through the sky.
Jun 23, 2015
Jun 23, 2015 at 9:26 AM UTC
She made me ,you know.
Remove blades from their housings
And sheath my soul.
Drive knifes and daggers into her back.
Part the flesh from bone.
Coward she cried. But gritting her teath for more
Shed lie here on on my bed. Or sprawled across the floor
Shed block my paths out.
My routes through the doors
She would make me harm herself
When she couldn't any more
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 9:02 AM UTC
why can't people just admit they have done wrong.
why do they need to find someone to blame
and make them fell awful,
put them to shame.
Can't you see I'm trying my best,
but I wont submit to you.
Not like the rest.
Just admit your faults
the rest of us do
you're not perfect.
You make mistakes too.
Apr 2, 2015
Apr 2, 2015 at 11:52 PM UTC
I am twenty-one years old and
I have saved two lives—
a girl whose throat closed despite her
and a boy who thought he had no other choice.
By all accounts, I am
a heroine,
a savior,
some divine-palmed human spread thin
among peers who are the same. The same—
who fear the dark as fully as I
and need the quiet, sometimes,
when the din of all the mouths talking at once
becomes more heavy than loud.
Be gentle, love, approach me slowly—
do not touch my shoulder when
my eyes turn to glass and
know that I hate to be hugged
because your arms will trap my fear somewhere
within me.
I suppose there’s a reason no one writes
what happened to Odysseus
and how the gods felt after their story ended.
Jan 29, 2015
Jan 29, 2015 at 11:23 PM UTC
Empty branches, nakedness stark,
Against an undescribable grey dark,
Sky,
Evergreens mockery, of winter's brown,
Mist so heavy the tall grass will surely drown,
Fog
Mixed with rain to the air a heaviness brings,
Here's the deal, there surely will be, Spring!
Bring on the poetry,
Hands not frozen
To an aging keyboard
Unseasonably warm
So why am I so cold?
This too is a season,
Or a trial of reason
It ....appears.
Jan 25, 2015
Jan 25, 2015 at 11:29 AM UTC
i crave the taste
of stale cigarettes and beer
cuz it was the taste of your mouth
what happened here?
i long for
the misspelled drunk texts
that once annoyed me
phone buzzes i flinch, reflex.
i ache for
the feeling of your chest
under my head as i fall asleep
only way i could rest
i hunger for
your love
-all to myself
we never should of.
Jan 21, 2015
Jan 21, 2015 at 8:28 PM UTC