#ithought
I collect memories, moments of being
states of life where I feel whole,
stakes that don’t resemble loss.
Things are fuzzy now, but when I look at you
life could not feel any clearer.
At your gaze, my mind takes a lifetime of pictures.
I collect memories carried like burdens,
proof that my love is always late.
Maybe this was enough leeway
is this how I repay life for not being punctual?
A struggle to preserve what I know
will matter long after the moment ends.
I collect memories that demand payment
for every second of comfort they give
a past that consumes pieces of me when I peek,
a past so consuming
I'm starting to lose my place in the present.
What we were still lives pressed
in me
like fading light
time I won’t surrender.
Dec 11, 2025
Dec 11, 2025 at 12:10 PM UTC
Dissapointed in me
for believing
Thought i wasn't naive
However,
the truth remainining
the hopeless dreamer
forever at heart
no matter how much
i restart
You say you love me,
but you only loved the "pretty" parts of my painting
Now, when I start to feel safe
Im unraveling
My colors bleed across your frame
stuck in his gaze
but, he sees
and runs away
Not a love,
he can maintain.
Words repeating,
in my brain.
Caused a bit of pain,
but its not all doomsday
Cause im starting to see clear
of what was really happening here.
Nobody is the villain
I just believed when he said the word love
and now im tangled up in pool of wants
and just want to be free again.
My colors,
stuck in frame.
but he wanted to obliterate
all because of my emotions that day
the portrait we were painting
all i see now is my strokes
where did he go?
In my shadows,
treasures I find.
There is gold to mine.
Just like without darkness,
there is no light.
In our lovers
a sacred mirror is beheld
and it shows you parts of yourself
that youve rejected and pushed down to hell.
But we must see
what we dont want to accept in us
and in another
before we can truly uncover
the jewels waiting to be discovered.
Jul 16, 2025
Jul 16, 2025 at 4:21 PM UTC
I can't believe we've come this far.
Letting us see each other's scars.
I can't believe that you're still here.
Or that you've changed me so much
In less than a year.
I never wanted you to see
That I was an overthinker.
Or how much I love belting out
My favorite songs even though
I'm a bad singer.
I thought you wanted a protector.
That showing my fun side
Would drive you away.
Little did I know, that's exactly why
You decided to stay.
Sep 27, 2020
Sep 27, 2020 at 2:16 AM UTC
You pushed me away when you promised you woudn’t
We were supposed to stick together
But now I see you laughing without me
I understand
I was there with you just because I was there
I didn’t see it
So I opened up my soul to you and let my secrets pour
By God, I think whenever I saw you all my problems disappeared
It’s hard to remember that I believed every word you said
You called me your sister
You called me your friend
But now we both know I am just someone you threw away
May 21, 2016
May 21, 2016 at 3:01 PM UTC