#insomia
Night is still. Quiet.
The moon keeps watch,
clouds linger,
and I’m staring at the fan.
I close my eyes—
sleep refuses to hold my hand.
I swallow the pills,
but they spill the truth:
I can’t sleep.
Why?
Am I sick?
Is my head aching?
Or has my bed soaked too deeply
in my tears
to take me to dreamland?
They banging on the door
thinking I am tying a rope
on the fan
who's gonna tell them
I am already choking in tears
1, 2, 3, 4…
They say counting helps.
Not tonight.
Baa baa black sheep…
Maybe a lullaby will.
Or maybe not.
The one who stole my sleep
must have forgotten to return it.
Or maybe he will—
but when?
on this ground
or somewhere in the clouds?
Google
hey how to sleep ?
remove a problem from your life
who is problem but ?
me ? or my life ?
Mar 6
Mar 6, 2026 at 12:04 PM UTC
sleep. rest. leave.
the silk twists around my body
but calmness doesn’t overtake me
thoughts race through my head
tears stream down my face
negative thoughts cloud my brain
MAKE IT STOP a voice screeches from within
but voices pick up volume below
I stumble out of bed searching for something, anything to dim the noise
BE QUIET BE QUIET Be quiet be…still.
Nov 20, 2025
Nov 20, 2025 at 11:04 AM UTC
As I lay here in the dark,
My head's in another place
It's wondering to a different time,
It's wondering to your face.
To the days filled with laughter,
To days filled with tears.
To the memories we made together,
In just a few short years.
Your skin agaisnt mine sent us to outer space,
No one on Earth existed inside our special place.
Two broken people mended, maybe temporarily,
This past life bliss I'd hope to forget now weighs on me so heavily.
Sometimes, I bask, in the thought of you and me,
I think about what could have been.
Was it meant to be?
I stroke his face,
I rest my head on his chest
What would he do if he knew what's in my head.
Feb 25, 2019
Feb 25, 2019 at 1:27 AM UTC
Pacing pacing
Pacing racing
Falling screaming
Staying going
Writing cryiNG
RACING RACING
WORDS WORDS WORDS
S T O P
NO NO
Soemone talk to me
I'm feeling needy
No wait
I feel great
It's 3am
I don't even need sleep
I've slept all day
So tired
I feel uninspired
Wow it's so pretty
I am too
Everyrhing is okay
Listen to me
LISTEN TO ME
STOP STOP
IGNORING ME
Trauma trauma
Get over it
Stop throwing a fit
Are you okay
You need help
I'll do anything
Dear god
Am i crazy
Everyone says i am
Look at them
Disturbing
I can't be like that
No wait
I like this
It makes me different
Dear god **** me
It's not unique
I'm a freak
Tears of joy yesterday
Now drops of sorrow
Ahaha love is borrowed
Whisper whipser
calming calming
The storm is coming
I sent you a novel
YOU DIDN'T REPLY
Dear god my minds dry
Stop talking
Speak to me
So restless endlessly
Daydreaming
Oh the day is gone
Where'd you all go
Time is slow
No it's F A S T
Nothing is meant to last
I'm tired now
I can't sleep
Maybe I'll research
Something neat
Goodnight
Goodnight
LEAVE ME ALONE
Okay im sorry
For the harsh tone
Why are you leaving
This is normal
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 3:14 AM UTC
It’s another late night
with these thoughts in my head,
with a cup of coffee I probably shouldn’t had,
with these dreams I’m squeezing, trying to not let ‘em go.
Jan 27, 2019
Jan 27, 2019 at 2:41 AM UTC
Dead
Dead
Dead
Burning
Stirring
Stabbing
Twisting
Sad all the time
Dead until nine
The stabbing starts at bed
My body isnt dead
Emotions must not have been informed
Let me s l e e p
Tired
Drained
RestLESs
Take this pill
God I'm fragile
Needles in my arms
They're not causing real harm
It's just my lover
AGONY
Dec 16, 2018
Dec 16, 2018 at 3:57 PM UTC
Sleeping all day
Never washing my clothes
Skin and hair a mess
I'm fine
I'm fine
Can't whine
Forgetting to eat
Getting sick from all foods
Never changing my clothes
Nothings wrong
Nothings wrong
I must still belong
Staring at walls
Headache won't go away
Putting everything off
It's okay
It's okay
There's other days
Crying while watching tv
Repeating my mistakes in my head
Can't sleep at 4am
Just another day
Just another day
Im used to this anyway
Nov 8, 2018
Nov 8, 2018 at 3:13 AM UTC
a wolf
hiding in the skin of a sheep
creeping in the dark
making me unable to sleep
they say if you count sheep you will fall asleep faster
but I find as I count sheep I only become more lost in the pasture
walking through wheat fields searching for a meaning
insomnia slowly killing me brining me to a yield
Im standing on the edge of life and death
wishing that wolf in sheep skin would have taken my last breath
saving me from the dark caves in my brain
making me feel like living is worth the pain
May 23, 2018
May 23, 2018 at 11:41 AM UTC
I am trying
I know it seems repetitive
I know I'm repulsing
I'm the definition of insanity
Because i keep acting out the same things.
I know I want you next to me
Its just harder than it seems
Especially lately
You need someone in bed with you
You havent been sleeping good
I walked in with you by her
And your soars were like uproars
I know you arent cheating
Not even mentally
I just cant help but feel that lately
I dont want me
So since you sleep by someone else just fine
Ill lay in bed all night with tears in my eyes
I want you to love me
And i know you do
Its just hard to see you want me
When I'm so sick of everything I do
Feb 4, 2018
Feb 4, 2018 at 3:39 AM UTC
It was the door, it was my mind.
My heart is bounding, my voice became blinding.
My jaw is the numbest
No one, not even the rain could've heard me.
Could I have even spoken to myself?
I tried, I tried, I swear I tried.
My voice was not loud enough.
I became aimless.
All I hear is the silence, it is so loud and eager.
My ears tingle with static, my tongue hides in fear.
The shutting of my eyes hurt, it's almost unbelievable how awake I was.
I can not close my eyes
May 17, 2017
May 17, 2017 at 2:31 AM UTC
I seek for peace
Only you can give
Forever I'll seek forgiveness
As I walk the lonely seas
I'm the one who's lost
And I'm the one who seek
Empty my soul, fill my mind
My being is at void
Peace is now just a dream
Dreaming without any sleep
Restless as I am
I must find who I am
For ten months, I've been hunt
Of the nightmares of the past
I don't know how long I will last
'Cause now I'm on the verge of dying
The light that shines upon you brings me hope.
With this hope I'll continue living, living but will remain dead.
But with you this empty vessel will be filled with its soul.
Then I shall rest in peace.
Oct 28, 2016
Oct 28, 2016 at 3:54 PM UTC
I barely sleep
How can I? faces keeps haunting
Whenever I close my eyes, It's like a movie scene
Fairies, ghost, angels and demons
Dramas, thrillers, actions, comedies and fantasies
They're just one blink away
Tell me how to sleep
When a lot of voices enter my head
Some tell me to be good
Some persuade me to do the other way
Even I put my two hands in my ear
Still voices i can hear
Rarely I sleep
Just a nap thanks to those sleeping pills
It helps me show my sleeping skills
But I can't have it daily
I don't want it to be my habbit
Maybe you wonder
Why schizophrenian amnesia not insomia
I don't know the difference of day and night anymore
The scene was so vivid always keeps me awake
Awake that sometimes I don't remember how to sleep
July 3, 2014
Mysterious Aries
Aug 26, 2015
Aug 26, 2015 at 8:10 AM UTC
__________________________
Still awake at 3 am
Listening to a mellow song
Waiting for the sun to rise
Holding back the tears in my eyes
Still up at 3 am
Doing some flashback
What happened to us
A love that I fully trust
Still sleepless at 3 am
"It's not you it's me" your voice still echoing
My heart was ripped in thousand pieces
And seems was drop into different places
Still not in bed at 3 am
Holding a bottle of beer
Wishing it can help me heal
Hoping it can erase what I feel
Still wide awake at 3 am
Maybe it just don't fit right at all
Waiting for the sun to rise for me to traces
To start anew and pick up... my broken heart pieces...
written: Oct. 7, 2014
Mysterious Aries
Aug 5, 2015
Aug 5, 2015 at 1:24 AM UTC
Hello 1 o'clock, or good morning if you will. Not really good, more of a why?
Not really a should, more of a cry for help, as it seems, my insomnia is playing tricks on me.
1 o'clock; when I lye in bed thinking of all the things I should've said.
Why do you talk about her like you've known her for years? Water escapes from my eyes resembling fear. And why do you talk about all these other girls as if they're the ones who are giving you their love? It makes me so upset, when push comes to shove and I tell myself I should just shut up, but you make me want to never stop. Because you act like you listen and you say that you care but these words are repeated to every feminine ear.
It's not my fault you were born a charmer, it's my fault that, I wear your non protective love as armour.
I'm such a fool, but a fool who wants to fall for you.
Jealousy runs through my veins more than blood, oxygen is substituted with the love drug.
You make me feel like I'm enough and nothing all at the same time, you bring a presence of butterflies to my stomach.
I wish 1 o'clock would stop it.
Jun 2, 2015
Jun 2, 2015 at 12:49 PM UTC
o sleep
you are almost within my grasp
so close and yet so far away
o blissful rest
wash over me
give my weary mind an oasis
o restless mind
please yield and stop pursuing me
into the depths of insanity
Jan 24, 2015
Jan 24, 2015 at 2:40 AM UTC
Here I am, awake and consumed by my thoughts of you.
Yes, you!
You should be proud because you're driving me crazy.
You're the only one that has ever done this to me,
so you can consider this as an achievement.
Well done.
Now, there's only one thing for you to do
and that is to accept my love for you.
Can you at least do that for me?
please?
Oct 10, 2014
Oct 10, 2014 at 1:49 PM UTC
the hollows under her eyes
got deeper
as invisible hands
scraped further.
Jun 17, 2014
Jun 17, 2014 at 6:01 AM UTC