#indescribable
it happened in an instant
like an eternity of wonder crushed by a wink
night is a prophet, I often think, for better or worse
with its truth of immensity, its molecules of light and
dreams' oscillation. there are nights and nights
when I feel the ripples of spacetime moving with the speed of desire
some poems are unreadable since I taste the power of words
biology dreams of giving herself to waterfalls in an embrace
chemistry can be caught dreaming to break the symmetry
of its isomorphic structures
physics refuses to disentangle the fields, the particles from their resonant selves
a tender savage disposition is collapsing time, is playing hide and seek
an Irish band sing for someone
my knees feel the earth, the dreams of tundra
I am still myself when my mind is shattered
there is love, there is death in the centre of something
indescribable
Dec 29, 2024
Dec 29, 2024 at 10:38 AM UTC
Walking along the shore
Feeling sore from emotions indescribable
Forced to live, silently suffering.
The only outlet being the salty deep reflecting the perfect sun
With all my strength, with all the anger of everything ever felt
I yell out to the open waters
Sobbing, breaking down in the rough sand.
It’s almost as if it speaks to me, in the form of crashing waves,
as if it feels sympathy
The only sympathy,
My heart is so messed up I don’t even know if it's deserved by me
But it’s either releasing everything on the quiet seabed
Or facing my real problems
Which are too much for any sane mind to take;
That is if I’m still sane
After all, I’m screaming at the ocean,
And it’s funny to think I expected a response..
Sep 17, 2024
Sep 17, 2024 at 9:46 PM UTC
Poetry
Is our humble attempt
To describe
The indescribable.
Jan 11, 2024
Jan 11, 2024 at 1:54 PM UTC
Waves of sadness as you wave in my direction. I see you go, I watch you leave. Just as the seasons appear and dispose of me. We take turns walking away, from people we never talked to. Wondering why it hurts the same. Hating that it hurts as all of these people go. Sudden realisation hit us one by one. As we wonder, and walk, and wonder around all the topics we may have avoided. The thoughts we’re apparently devoid of. Introspect, retrospect, dissect ourselves in this critical moment. Nostalgia knocking us over making us think and making us feel, for once. A remarkable feat, it must be applauded. Ovation, overjoy, overwhelm. Over this. Over them. Over it. Time moving so agonisingly slowly, wishing away the years. Needing to escape, yet wanting to eternalise the way they make me feel. Nothing lasts forever. Maybe you should’ve, yet you didn’t. Now you’re all that’s left tell me how it feels. It doesn’t feel good, it doesn’t even seem right. Yet it’s a must and a miss you. The question has to be asked: why are you crying now? After all these months, why are you letting it hit now? Stay strong, be strong, be you. Be fearless and young. The golden years fade away into shades of blue and black skies. I wish you all well, and a happy birthday. Get well soon, get there soon. It’s all getting to me too soon. It’s too soon. How are we already here? We were all the way over there yesterday. Faces flash and second pass by with smiles. Frowning back, the question must be asked, why are you so sad?
Jul 22, 2022
Jul 22, 2022 at 5:51 PM UTC
Mumbling a storm
Tumbling like debris
Trembling like a blade of grass
Barely rooted in the ground
Outside it's rather warm
Maybe 90°
While towards the core
Sitting stubbornly on my ***
It's a hurricane
Trying to tear away
Refusing to stay
Yet lightning strikes the sand
Reminding of a hidden glass shore
Lost in a pool of sand
Are the fragments of the soul.
- Jay M
August 10th, 2020
Aug 10, 2020
Aug 10, 2020 at 5:08 PM UTC
You are beautiful from endless angles
Even with every flaw
Truth is so easy to see
Scars fill me with awe
I love you the way you look
You are light when skies are grey
Life appears brighter when you are around
Grows sunnier each day
Be the person you are right now
The only one I love
First thought on my morning mind
The face I'm dreaming of
Bound for the heavens
Have no doubt
Stars spell out your four-letter name
Before eyes they steadily burn out
So much blue all seeming the same
Some things are indescribable
Never seen such perfection
Heard beauty depends on who beholds
All hearts have different perception
Mar 23, 2020
Mar 23, 2020 at 1:05 AM UTC
And in asking of self, most honestly, said
“Are you afraid, once you’ve spoken the words, that you’ll truly be free?
That you’ll fall off the earth without purpose or being
Just because you’ve finally shared, what for so long you yourself could not see?“
I am afraid of this?
Perhaps, maybe
Dec 6, 2019
Dec 6, 2019 at 3:32 PM UTC
It grows more deep than one can count
And never can your wits surmount
True love's overwhelming, so bold, yet soft
as wool, and never cold
Describing it can be hard to tell
Like number's taste, or color's smell
It's sweet and it's crushing, fragrant as red
roses, but more brilliant
Jun 14, 2019
Jun 14, 2019 at 10:28 AM UTC
Deep inside
The demons she hides
Can't deny them
Compacting my emotions into a gem
Tossing it to the sea
Will I ever be free?
I have love
But it's not enough
I thought it would be
But they won't let me be
It's only dragging me further down
But I don't want to let him down
He's too sweet
Too kind
What a find
Still
I am here
Unchanged
Deranged still
Un-resting
What have I become?
While I sit here
Wondering what has become of me
They try to "get help" for me
But I'm not taking the bait
I'm not going away
I'm not leaving my world behind
So confused
Lost in myself
Afraid of everything
Running blind
In a forest so dark and unknown
So familiar
But I can't see
Just bring me out
Take my hand
I know not why
I can't just deny
This strangeness
Chilling my bones
I love, and I love
But I lose
I love, and I love
But I lose...
I always lose...
- Jay M
May 10th, 2019
May 10, 2019
May 10, 2019 at 4:35 PM UTC
That feeling
That I can't describe
When I know someone is genuine
It's physical
And emotional
It's happy
But calmly
Without any flourishes
Or bubbles
I feel it in my chest
A feeling of connection
It's...warm?
Not quite the right word
It's lukewarm
But bright
And roundish
Kinda like a sphere
Sitting next to my heart
Centered in my chest
There's love
But little magic
It's pure
Unfiltered
Connection
When I think of someone's face
I see open eyes
Open to watch another
But not wide with shock
I see a small smile
I hear a voice
Clear as a bell
And indeed
I think of pure
Golden bells
Not twinkling
Not ringing
Just a single
Unbroken note
I think of gold
Or is it orange?
Yellow?
Orange with a yellow halo?
It's energy
But not radiant
Not growing
Not destroying
Not dark
The feeling I get
When reading a classmate's essay
Or reading a good fanfiction
All this
Does not capture the feeling
But at least I tried my best
May 6, 2019
May 6, 2019 at 10:31 PM UTC
Unimaginable joy
Un-channel-able emotion
So good
Yet so terrifying
Fear of messing up
But boundless joy of the return of emotion
How shall this be placed into words?
I wonder
Coming up with anything
Yet nothing truly fits
Shaking before you
Looking to the floor in nervousness
Then
Embrace
Short, yet comforting
Heartbeat
So loud and calming
Then a little wave goodbye
Once out of sight
A little twirl in the sun
Smiling in glee
For what has become of me
Taking a seat
My heart skips a beat
Thinking of this marvel
That this has become.
- Jay M
April 17th, 2019
Apr 17, 2019
Apr 17, 2019 at 7:46 PM UTC
Confusion
Sadness
Hurt
Yearning
Lost
Destabilized
What is this feeling?
Feb 14, 2019
Feb 14, 2019 at 10:36 PM UTC
A sound resonates in my ear,
Is it a chime? the ringing of a bell?
The sound seeming to alternate its resonance.
It plays and plays and never stops, this constant, unending, indescribable sound.
Feb 13, 2019
Feb 13, 2019 at 6:27 AM UTC
Slayed with complete awe at the sight
Early crisp morning at dayspring
Mind burning with desire to bring
Perfect sketch with word-craft as bright
Description of the sun's first light
Such angst thus paired with heart of glee
When thoughts and feelings can't run free
This poem's not about sun rays
You see! You set my soul ablaze
When your exquisite face I see
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 10:41 AM UTC
As my heart grew more enamored,
And as I felt this burning flame,
It was then I knew what mattered—
It was to give Beauty its name.
Her image would not go away,
But all the words I spoke would err,
So overcome I could not say
A description that suited her.
What should perfect Beauty be called?
There is no name that could suffice.
Overwhelmed I was too enthralled—
My language was too imprecise.
You simply are so beautiful,
That any name would be inapt.
Your Beauty makes my heart so full—
That I am speechlessly enrapt.
Dec 23, 2018
Dec 23, 2018 at 10:40 PM UTC
My imagination is so feeble,
For no matter how hard I try,
My image of how beautiful you are
Is nothing like reality.
My best dreams are so ineffectual.
For no matter how lucidly,
My clearest dreams of you and your beauty,
Are dull compared to the real you.
My most eloquent words lose their meaning,
For no matter what words I choose,
My language too simple and imprecise
For the indescribable you.
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 11:23 AM UTC
Your kisses are like snowflakes
Melting on my tongue
No two alike.
Your embrace is like the wind
It’s all around me
Felt all over.
Your touch is like the sunlight
I know it’s touched me
When I feel warmth.
Your eyes are perfect windows
They show what’s inside
And reflect me.
Your love is vast as the sky
Everywhere I go
It shelters me.
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 10:27 AM UTC
I stand in awe.
In awestruck-awe.
I see no flaws.
Even with my faith I see no flaws.
overwhelmed.
Crazy, mad, impossible, some would have said if they knew just a bite-size of your grace oh God.
How I stand in the middle of your radar.
As the waves and frequencies of your grace surrounds me.
The only fear I would have is that it would be too overwhelming for me to take in.
When the devil says you don't love me.
Remind me to see the horizon.
An endless, endless, endless, stretch of grace.
As my sin increased, your grace increased...all the more.
Because it's endless I would not be able to wrap my head around it and make sense of it.
Only to make sense, something that is so profound, and absolutely indescribable. Even the word 'indescribable' alone won't fit it.
Let alone your grace, how about your love. Your mercy. Your power. Your majesty.
Endless.
Endless catalogs and memoirs of what you have done for me.
Never a remembrance because they aren't dead. No.
When anxiety comes, God, remind me of your word. Your promises.
Ocean of grace.
Not yet, have I seen your face.
I wait till that day, just push me at your own pace, and carry me closer and closer to your face, as I slowly fade....
away.
Oct 4, 2018
Oct 4, 2018 at 7:20 AM UTC
I stare at the blank page
Ready to write a poem
But I have so many words, so many emotions
You poets, you know em
Rattled in my head
Can’t seem to put them on paper and pen
It’s untitled and unlimited
Not enough letters to describe the
Things left unfelt
And the words left unsaid
I myself can’t describe
Those dead
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 4:06 PM UTC
i can't stop thinking about you
why?
what is it about you
that leaves this lingering effect?
i don’t want this
i keep dreaming of you
its always the same.
and sometimes i get aroused
at just the sound of your name
in my dreams you are chaos,
always unfurling in your beauty.
you are indescribable to me
for words are just letters working together to be beautiful, and you are more beautiful than any group of words can ever hope to be
in my dreams you drench me knee deep
in your wit and soundness
you fill my head with such tender words.
i wish i could let you know how much
i love to watch you sparkle in wisdom.
how can i explain to you
that when i feel myself awake
i try not to blink an eye
so that i could live off your touch
for the rest of my life.
as crazy as it sounds,
not even in my dreams
have i ever dreamt
of a girl as perfect as you
and though i continue to dream in fear
i think we both know
i have secretly loved you for so many years
Aug 27, 2018
Aug 27, 2018 at 6:51 AM UTC
I’m so immersed in thoughts of your beauty
That I see it when I see anything.
I can’t describe it,
Angry at myself,
That my poetry is insufficient
To tell how beautiful I think you are.
I’m so immersed in thoughts of your beauty
That I see you, always, effortlessly.
Just seeing you once,
Though it’s not enough,
Was enough to make me always see you
So beautiful is always in my life.
I’m so immersed in thoughts of your beauty
That I’m not sure you actually exist.
Are you just a dream?
Imagined image?
Maybe I can’t describe your pure beauty
Because reality can’t measure up.
I’m so immersed in thoughts of your beauty
That my heart is broken with frustration.
Give me forgiveness.
Wish I could tell you…
But no words or verse will ever convey
That you are all the beauty in my world.
Aug 24, 2018
Aug 24, 2018 at 6:48 PM UTC
You snipped you brown locks
off your twisted head.
Now chained to another princess’s bed.
Your affection is like the smell
of chlorine on a rusty day.
Do I want it to leave or stay?
You made the white flowers
grow within me.
Now go ahead and sip the tea.
My body and soul
can't be threatened by your stare.
Our feelings need a wheelchair.
Jun 1, 2018
Jun 1, 2018 at 8:36 AM UTC
Bloodshot eyes can't sleep tonight
Heartbeats working in overtime
Your smiling face etched in my jumbled mind
The only clarity in my foggy thoughts
Feelings I can't describe cling on to me
How come I became so full of courage?
To ask you out and tell you these hidden desires
I still can't believe how I managed to tell you
I still can't forget that shine in your eyes
When you held me in your arms tight
The words you whispered still ringing in my ears
Right before the kiss that made you mine
Awkward smiles, juvenile hearts
You shined brightly like stars tonight
Your warmth still brings goosebumps all over
Your securing embrace still feels like a fantasy
Am I dreaming like a madman?
Will this disappear when morning comes?
Why does tomorrow come so slowly?
Why is time so fast when I'm with you?
I've never felt this was before
Like a volcano bursting with emotions
As I grow closer towards your gravity
As I fall into the crevices of your heart
This may be what they call love
These unhinged feelings towards you
They consume every fiber of my being
As I think of ways of how to chase you
I scream out loud this love for you
Unleashing this desire to always be yours
You make me crazier with every look you give
Falling faster than light's speed when you touch me
My forever is yours to hold
I'll chase you to the stars and back
I'll love you deeper than the ocean floor
Just stay with me, for tonight and all coming nights
Nov 6, 2017
Nov 6, 2017 at 12:33 PM UTC