#imstillhere
Theres a lingering cloud when we conversate
An awkward vibe we never mention
Long gone are our banters and cute debates
Keeping feelings minimal, avoiding questions
The adorable messsages we used to send
Are they ever coming back or was that it?
Loving like we used to, is that real or just pretend
Keep my broken heart if we ever do split
You're slowly fading away from me
I don't even think you realise
All i can do is let you be
And let me deal with all the cries.
Perhaps it was the distance
Or maybe it was just the time
All of this gives me grievance
I just want you to remain mine.
Aug 25, 2018
Aug 25, 2018 at 6:19 PM UTC
I bet she's pretty.
I bet she's tall.
I bet she's nice yet not.
I bet she's smart.
I bet she's funny.
I bet she knows how to have fun.
I bet she does her hair everyday.
I bet she has nice clothes.
I bet she has a nice phone.
I bet she sends late-night texts to you, saying she loves you.
I bet she expresses her feelings.
I bet she knows you inside and out.
I bet she's all the things I am not.
I may be smart,
and maybe a bit pretty.
But that's where it stops,
for I don't do my hair everyday,
or wear make-up.
I don't express my emotions,
through this sweat-shirt.
She's nicer than me,
but I can be when I feel it.
Why can't you notice me,
like you notice her?
Why can't you see,
that I'm actually here?
Why can't you tell,
that I'm alone
in this box of loneliness?
Jan 13, 2015
Jan 13, 2015 at 7:15 PM UTC
*When I was younger,
I used to think we were all equal.
I guess I was wrong
because now I'm pretty sure this Earth is lethal.
**Don't **** me.
Please.***
Sep 18, 2016
Sep 18, 2016 at 1:30 AM UTC
seemed so easy to forget about everything
I felt so numb but no one even noticed
now you're catching me down here smoking
sitting here feeling so **** hopeless
seemed so easy to just find myself decaying
to just conceal myself from the world
now you're catching me here praying
to a God i don't believe in
it seemed so easy to just pick up that blade
that blade that would change everything
i wish i were so easy to save
now you're catching me here bleeding
bleeding out everything i had gave
seemed so easy to just heal
for it all to just go away
now i'm catching you here holding me, saying "i know everything seems so surreal"
"but i promise you, i will always stay"
2 years later and it feels so easy to remember
so easy to remember where and when all these marks came from
now i'm catching you here saying "I still remember November"
"I remember how you were oh so numb"
Jan 22, 2015
Jan 22, 2015 at 9:42 AM UTC