#imnotsure
could i love you more?
i have bandages, garments, hair ties—
things to contain me.
i’ll overdose on your medicine
yet i’m not completely sure how
to be swallowed whole by something
and not desire to be spat out.
i don’t understand my heart,
no one has ever tried to touch it
without my hand slapping them
out of the way.
i couldn’t love you less.
i’m beaten down and clawing
at my insides from the inside
out;
do not know how to undue the erratic.
hands that could aid me
would only shape me
into such an apathetic shell
that couldn’t understand love
even if she tried.
and in trying,
i have hurt and abused
the very medicine intended to cure me
of such a sick and twisted nature.
i could not love you any less.
Dec 15, 2024
Dec 15, 2024 at 12:38 PM UTC
I pretended I wasn't upset
I acted happy and okay
but I was angry
we ****** and I left
I didn't understand
.....odd
Jun 28, 2014
Jun 28, 2014 at 12:58 AM UTC