#igobym - Hello Poetry

Look, i don't know why i feel The way that i do, I wish i had an answer as to why-- Why i feel fragile, and weak.. Why i always feel so out of tune I feel fine one day and the next i feel I feel so out of it.. My heart pounds, my breathing quickens And I'm clenching my jaw to keep from Screaming and choking back words.. I move as fast as i can to reach a clear so i can let them out To let the tears roll down Sometimes i don't even make it And i have no explanation why this happens It happens when I'm alone, while I'm speaking over the phone, When I'm with you im okay I can speak But something takes over me And i feel lifeless Empty but with all the emotions That someone threw out and latched to the nearest body to control I feel like a puppet stuck with a never-ending Understanding why i can't breatheeeeee In moments like thissss Will i ever get over feeling panicky Or will i always be stuck with my anxiety? - M.

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Mar 23, 2018

Mar 23, 2018 at 5:49 PM UTC

-M

March 23rd

Look, i don't know why i feel The way that i do, I wish i had an answer as to why-- Why i feel fragile, and weak.. Why i always feel so out of tune I feel fine one day and the next i feel I feel so out of it.. My heart pounds, my breathing quickens And I'm clenching my jaw to keep from Screaming and choking back words.. I move as fast as i can to reach a clear so i can let them out To let the tears roll down Sometimes i don't even make it And i have no explanation why this happens It happens when I'm alone, while I'm speaking over the phone, When I'm with you im okay I can speak But something takes over me And i feel lifeless Empty but with all the emotions That someone threw out and latched to the nearest body to control I feel like a puppet stuck with a never-ending Understanding why i can't breatheeeeee In moments like thissss Will i ever get over feeling panicky Or will i always be stuck with my anxiety? - M.

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My body is numb, completely soulless, The words in my head escaped floating around cause i forgot to close it I could've avoided this Instead I'm stuck with my choices These days all i do is deal with the Consequences and repercussions Hitting me twice as hard than in the moment, What do you expect? I'm only human-- I enjoy a drink or two it's not a secret I was drawn to you but i should've followed The vibes i got from you the first day Let **** pass because i didn't want to upset you You pushed me away Then try to keep me inside your pocket.. That's when i put myself first, Gave myself happiness I created it, i prayed for it, i worked for it, i try my hardest to keep it.. And you roll around with lies to trap me Inside your spider web, You lean forward for a kiss That's when i said no.. So quickly you apologized I should've left should've never waited Should've walked out that door & never looked back At least then i wouldn't feel these knots Inside my abdomen , Creating an ulcer that's stressin me out Dealin with you and your families harassment.. Every day you try to reach out I don't want your words I just want to be left alone You hurt me in the worst way possible I was a friend and you took advantage.. I can't escape you, and you're deliberately Breaking me down more and more Is this what happens when i say no? Did i owe you some part of me? Is that why you took it upon Yourself to take it? I just need some answers since I'm the one stuck with this. -M.

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Jan 23, 2018

Jan 23, 2018 at 2:59 AM UTC

-M

Untitled.

My body is numb, completely soulless, The words in my head escaped floating around cause i forgot to close it I could've avoided this Instead I'm stuck with my choices These days all i do is deal with the Consequences and repercussions Hitting me twice as hard than in the moment, What do you expect? I'm only human-- I enjoy a drink or two it's not a secret I was drawn to you but i should've followed The vibes i got from you the first day Let **** pass because i didn't want to upset you You pushed me away Then try to keep me inside your pocket.. That's when i put myself first, Gave myself happiness I created it, i prayed for it, i worked for it, i try my hardest to keep it.. And you roll around with lies to trap me Inside your spider web, You lean forward for a kiss That's when i said no.. So quickly you apologized I should've left should've never waited Should've walked out that door & never looked back At least then i wouldn't feel these knots Inside my abdomen , Creating an ulcer that's stressin me out Dealin with you and your families harassment.. Every day you try to reach out I don't want your words I just want to be left alone You hurt me in the worst way possible I was a friend and you took advantage.. I can't escape you, and you're deliberately Breaking me down more and more Is this what happens when i say no? Did i owe you some part of me? Is that why you took it upon Yourself to take it? I just need some answers since I'm the one stuck with this. -M.

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My mind wanders Leaving a part of me behind, catching up doesn't seem to stop- it's inevitable Is has a life of it's own Nothing seems to stop the constant hunger of wanting- Wanting. Wanting it's own mind aside from I. How is that even possible? Clearly i am over thinking. -M.

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Jan 17, 2018

Jan 17, 2018 at 3:27 PM UTC

-M

Thoughts

My mind wanders Leaving a part of me behind, catching up doesn't seem to stop- it's inevitable Is has a life of it's own Nothing seems to stop the constant hunger of wanting- Wanting. Wanting it's own mind aside from I. How is that even possible? Clearly i am over thinking. -M.

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