#howifeel
Eyes drooping
A heavy heart
A throbbing pain that
Cannot be explained.
That's what loneliness is.
Depression
Unhappiness
A hollow ache
Deep within our soul.
That's what loneliness is.
It engulfs you
Drowns you whole
***** out any joy
You may feel
That's what loneliness is
Apr 10, 2021
Apr 10, 2021 at 1:25 PM UTC
There’s poetry on my walls
Brightening up the halls
I reread one every day
I survey the words as I lay on my bed
Thinking of what I could have written instead
So many words going through my head
In the end, I still place them back up on the wall
Some of them I end up crumpling into a ball
And ripping them off my wall
Then I recall
When I wrote them
And how I felt like a sparkling gem
I tape them back together
Straighten the creases
And taping the pieces
When I look at my wall
I no longer feel small
~21/3/21
Mar 21, 2021
Mar 21, 2021 at 4:55 AM UTC
you broke it
you broke your promise just like you broke my trust
im tired of trying and hoping that you will change
you broke it
i find it funny that you think im the one being selfish
i continue to trust you
as you take more and more advantage of that
it hurts that im losing you to something like this
i put my faith and trust into you
i feel like you wasted my time
you wasted my energy
because i used it to try and help you change
there's obviously no change
you told me again just today that you've changed
but as time passes i find out more and more how you haven't
in fact, you've gotten worse
i hate getting yelled at for confronting you
i hate that you confide in my sister for advice
i hate that you make the choices that you do
i hate that you hurt me more and more every day
i hate that you think that its okay
i hate that i haven't given up yet
i hate that i push people i love away to be with you
i hate what you're turning me into
i hate the names that you call me
you say that you were just joking, but it actually hurts
i hate the new things you have tell me every day
because 9 out of 10 times they're bad
i hate that i hate so much about you
i hate that i feel anything but love and enjoyment towards you
i used to worship you
i used to think that nobody was more perfect for me
you wonder why i haven't worked to get ungrounded
its because being grounded gives me an excuse
an excuse to say no to parties and bad ideas that you have
its so much easier to say that im grounded rather than i don't want to
im sorry that i feel this way
im sorry that i tried to fix what was going on with you
i should've recognized that it was "none of my business"
so here's to me being sorry for caring<3
Nov 9, 2020
Nov 9, 2020 at 10:25 AM UTC
Do you know what it feels like to be all alone?
To be in a room where everyone is talking
But no one is listening
They just stare at their phone
You could be yelling, or whispering
Or saying nothing at all
In return you receive a blank stare,
An empty smile, that makes you feel small
So you sit all alone
Not knowing what to do
You think "if they cared, they'd help. Right?"
But you're not them, and they're not you
Whatever decision you make
You know will be wrong
You think you're moving forward
But you've been moving back all along
You're surrounded by people but still feel alone
In your bed, in your car, in your room
It's where your most comfortable
Being alone is your home
Being alone by yourself
You have no one else to blame
You're no one's burden
And you're no one's shame
It's not your imagination
What you're feeling is real
It's just not made up
It's really how I feel
He's just being lazy he's not sick
There's nothing wrong He looks too well
Just walk a mile in my shoes
And you'll walk alone thru my Hell
Nov 13, 2019
Nov 13, 2019 at 11:27 PM UTC
My love for you is uncontrollable.
My feelings for you are unstoppable.
Can’t go a day without thinking about you.
Without you, i’m not complete.
When I was with you, my heart found it’s beat.
My heart was filled with joy because of your love.
You were my strength,and since I’m without you, I’m weak.
Before you came into my life I was... hopeless,lonely,sad.
When you showed up I knew you were sent to me.
You were there to cheer me up. You still are. Even if it may not seem like it.
Your smile still makes me shy,
And sometimes I wonder where you have been all this while,
But I’m just glad I managed to get you in my life... even if you don’t want to be in it....
YOU USED TO FILL MY HEART WITH JOY!
Jan 4, 2019
Jan 4, 2019 at 1:26 PM UTC
they say,
**** kid you write so much"
i say,
"how could i not when my home
was stripped off words
for so long -
so ******* long that my lips cracked
like aged paint tearing off walls.
and i thought my voice
will forever be lost in these desolate rooms
that i learned how to scream
without having to make a noise."
and maybe if they say,
**** kid you write so well"
i'll reply with a shrug,
"maybe for you...
but i never thought about it
all i know is that i've felt empty
for so long -
for so ******* long that now i let myself write.
write whatever. to fill the empty
rooms with new, colorful paint."
-n.c.
Oct 19, 2017
Oct 19, 2017 at 8:09 AM UTC
The only time I
feel remotely above average
Is when I am drunk
Sep 14, 2017
Sep 14, 2017 at 11:54 AM UTC
Mind, body aand soul
You showed me yours
I showed you mine
I felt our souls collide
I watched you touch sky
We were both flying high
Threw the cloud filled sky
Its almost time
Your heart and soul
Is mine
Continuously wanting you all the time
Your the last thing before I close my eyes
Even if I was blind
I could see our souls collide
Mind, body and soul
You showed me your's
I gave you mine
Jan 20, 2015
Jan 20, 2015 at 5:09 AM UTC
Happiness is waking up in the morning and not regretting it,
Its looking at yourself, inside and out, and feeling satisfied with what you see,
Its something you see in people's eyes and in their smiles.
Happiness doesnt come from another person,
It doesn't come from money,
Or looks, Or anything in between.
Happiness is feeling safe and protected,
Its feeling wanted and loved,
Its being free, and being okay with who you are.
Dec 12, 2014
Dec 12, 2014 at 10:04 PM UTC
You allow me to believe that the impossible is possible
making the craziness inside of my head plausible,
You allow me to control these abysmal thoughts running through my head
making the endless doubts within me run ahead,
You allow me to escape from the terrors of this world
making me sleep peacefully in bed all comfortable and curled
You allow me to enjoy all the happiness I never got to feel
making all the sadness on my surface begin to peel,
You are my perfect dreams.
Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 12:40 PM UTC